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Moments for Mon, 23th Jan 2006 : Once again, the boring work life begins... THough my life outside work has changed...work life is 4ever still so boring n dead... Ocassionally, will still receive a few sms from dawn n my friends... Well seems 2 me, my relations wif dawn was drifting further apart day by day... Hmm anyway work same, go down interview, n not 2 4get, internet spoil -.-! Thus i can't access the internet whole day, but just forcing myself do a bit of this, a bit of that... Hmm 2moro really must concentrate on my work... Its time 2pick myself up.. cuz time is short n my assignments r lining n piling up 4 me 2 complete...hmm lunch time same, n so is after work... well late 4 few mins again... So knock off later a bit...
Finally after work, but like wat i say, life outside of work has changed.. Well i didn't go 2 sem after work.. i went doby ghaut instead.. Well actually is because, i'm meeting my jc buddy, Kwen at doby ghaut... 1 of our friend has met wif a motorbike accident n was hospitalize.. Heard he has broken a leg..he's jackson, my jc friend oso 1 of my dance buddy in jc... He's 2 injury prone... sec sch broke his left hand twice... he oso had apprentite(4get the spelling) which left a scar on his stomach... n now... bike accident..haiz... very sad... all because during his army times, he was being posted 2 becum a racky (dunno the spelling - meaning scouts) team, where by he needs 2 learn bike...After he ord, he rides a bike 2 -.-! Which landed up in hospital...
I n Kwen meet at doby Ghaut mrt n go Ps 2 buy something plain 4 jackson 2 eat.. Went 2 foodcourt n carrefour... after tat, we travel 2 Clementi by train n meet Eefai, oso our jc friend, at the clementi bus stop...After so long nv see Eefai, wa was every envy of his luv life... During jc times, he was already wif our jc friend, Siripon (Thai)... After 4 yrs, n they r still 2gether, though Siripon won't be coming back Sg n was now in Thai studying her Uni... Yet their relationship was still so bonding, despite the far distance apart... Looking at my own luv life, its a disaster... After tat, we took a cab 2 NUH... Kwen pay the tab.. When we reach there, we saw jackson n entertain him =) Though deep inside me, was feeling very miserable... lucky he was able 2 survive n his injury was all on his left leg... We even sat there n listen 2 his incident... haiz.. motorbike...
How many ppl had actually met an accident in motorbike... even the safest driver is oso prone 2 accidents... Many ppl ard me encounter accidents cuz of bike.. Sec sch, a friend's father pass away cuz of bike... During my army times, my camp mate met an accident wif bike n injured his left hand... n scratches over his body.. My outside friends met wif an accident, injurying his lower part of his body as well as arm... n now Jackson... Just hope he learned a very valuable but painful experience, after surviving such an ordeal... N wish him full recovery asap... After companying him 4 quite long, we realize its 9pm + n we haven't had our dinner... thus we felt hungry n left...Bloody kwen, anyhow walk, bring us walk a big rd 2 the main lobbyof NUH, then we took a cab back 2 clementi mrt area there... this time Eefai took the tab.. n we headed 2 a coffeeshop 2 have our dinner...
We chat a lot n even abt the lovely couple, Eefai n Siripon... How understanding both of them were 4 each other... During holidays, Eefai would fly 2 see Siripon... Well cuz while they r apart, eefai would top up the SIM card 4 Siripon so they can sms n contact wif each other, Eefai would sometimes call her, though its ex... But when Eefai was flying 2 meet Siripon in Thai, Siripon would offer 2 pay 4 Eefai.. but Eefai would always reject... 2 me as a guy, if i have a gf who takes her inititative like Siripon, wifout even needing Eefai 2 voice out, i would feel very fortuanate 2 have such an understanding soulmate... Cuz wat guys actually wants is love... 2 me, i'll reject my soulmate's offer cuz she had the intention to do so is already very contented 2 me... tat's wat gentlemen always does i believed =) very lovely situation, though i believe i didn't describe quite clearly here, so those who dun understand, too bad...
Well dinner was on me n we had curry chicken rice, which earned me a bad throat now haha.. drinks Kwen offered again.. then Eefai offered 2 buy 2 popiah 4 snacks cuz he oso wants 2 pay haha.. after tat, Eefai wants 2 learn magic tricks n since i have cards on me now, teach him some... After tat, time is late n we must leave...Eefai has 2 more mths 2 ord, but he have 2 go back camp n we bid farewell 2 him... Then i n Kwen went 2 nearby pool 2 settle our last time scores again (nv win him at all last time we played, last thurs) Hmm went there but no poll table, so we play billard til there's a vacany...wa his billard though same like me, not accurate, but he's slightly better =) So is our score, i lose him a little bit...halfway, the cashier close our table cuz there's a vacany n we change 2 pool. Haha, he's so shcked tat my skill improved so fast.. we played 3 matches n i manage 2 win 2.. My combos have increased.. though the area was very cramp n stuffy =( nxt time, we'll challenge again if we have more time, cuz time is merciless... I'm beginning 2 like playing pool once again.. Looks like billard n pool r going 2 be my favourite hobbies now =) After tat, we went our separate ways home...
Here's another incident which happened along the way, but i put iit specially in this paragraph... Its regarding Dawn n me... We have been smsing thru out my day... n somethign bad happened... I was already feeling grief over my friend's accident n she was venting her temper 2 me, when i was showing my encouragement, care n concern in a different way(There's many ways 2 care n concern 4 many ppl, always using the same way, chances'll made a person spoilt - experienced b4, thus scientifically proven) Well its regarding her interest, dancing, n she hurts her back while dancing as she has cca 2day... N because she was having mood swing, n she was harshed 2 me wif her words, when i showed my care n concern... I was already feeling low myself, yet i even try n care 4 her n yet, wat i received was this... i was quite upset abt it, but i didn't told her, yet i just say i wasn't angry wif her nor sad when she apologize 2 me... Hmm i n her drifted more apart after this incident i guess... Well wif this, i call it a day...
Missed my past a lot... but i knew tat its very hard... i'll cont 2 try more harder 2 get up.. n cont my journey... each time i felt so sad, i always wished tat my past will be ard me, by my side, 2 support me n have somebody 2 heal my wounds in my heart... yet, my past was always not there... neither r there any1 out there... i'm so alone..in a cold, damp place in my heart, where darkness covers me...shivering....n helpless.... sinking myself deep in2 bitterness n misery...

bubbles of sadness.