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Moments for Thurs 12th jan 2006 : As usual, woke up late and my hse was in a mess, cuz of painting n polishing of the marble floor in my hse 4 the past few days...Again, the weather was wet since last nite... thus i have 2 use my umbrella on my way 2 work...Reaching Chinatown mrt, i was surprise 2 see a female colleague (not in the same department from me), walking 2wards subordinate Courts, late as me. Well she didn't bring umbrella, so i offered mine, n sheltered her 2 the Sub Court.We have saw each other many times, from quiet n seems unfriendly, to exchanging smiles when walking past each other n 2 now, finally we chat a little in the small shelter of the umbrella.. finally after marking attendance (8mins late this time), she said a thank you 4 my help n we say gd bye 2 each other n headed 2wards our own department.. haiz.. when she thanked me, dunno y i'm at the loss of my words... y am i always like tat in front of the opposite sex? hmm really have 2 work hard 4 me as a man, who is so shy, otherwise when will i ever find my soulmate, who can company me thru the thin n thinks of our life?
Hmm ntg much 2 talk abt my boring work...Cuz everyday is the same.. Morning no mood 2 do, go do my own things on the net, n from now on, i'll be updating my blog every morning in my work place.. Well, Some particular thing happened during my lunch time... perhaps life has been so meaningless these days tat i'm not at my usual self... I'm getting so 4getful..Loss of love, is like really having a loss of colours in ur life.... lunch time, same thing, nobody 2 eat lunch wif, n besides i'm feeling very slply, so i take 1/2 an hr of my lunchbreak 2 take a nap.. then went down 2 buy my lunch at the same stall... this time, upon payment, ah... i 4get 2 bring $ wif me.. but lucky being a regular cust, he say nxt time when i come down then pay =) thus i better pay him nxt time.
After lunch time, back 2 boring work, in fact, loss of the power of love, everything is boring n yet can bring oneself 2 do anythings... On this day, i must specifically point out 1 person during my workplace.. later then'll tell u readers, y i say him.. His name is dennis.. got 2 noe him thru kof n he lives in woolands, age 25 =) well he online n we had a conversation.. he have a car, n say tat he's driving 2 meet me outside my workplace 4 dinner 2gether... wa so nice of him.. So finally its time 2 knock off from the damn boring work.. n thru enough, he's outside waiting 4 me... n thru indeed, the sky is still shedding tears...which seems weeping 4 a pathetic guy like me.. entering my soul n feel the feelings of my heart, sharing my sorrows..adapting an atmosphere which suit my feelings at this point of time... So cold, yet so miserable n wet...wif tears in my heart...
WoW... his car is blue i colour... n very nice-looking.. how i wish i will have a car like his in few years times, which i believe is every man's dreams.. then he bring me 2 tanjong pagar 4 dinner near his workplace... when i saw him tat time, i was so shocked... y? Cuz all these while, i thought dennis is a friend of mine, whom i noe in yishun funland while we r playing kof 98... at that time he was a noob... but until 2002, years where i long saw him, he reappear in sun plaza n his kof 2002 skills have greatly improved... Well in the end, dennis turn out 2 be a friend of mine, who was oso in yishun, but is stanley, panda's friend.. He play kof XI using shen woo, iori n beni... no wonder his age was 25... cuz the earlier guy which i mentioned (98 tat time), isn't older than me...Dennis's birthday was 1 day after me, but he's older than me by 4 yrs.. Libra 2 haha... charming person wif a charming car =) wow tat's wat libras r =) but me, oso a libra... haiz...
Ok every thing sure have happy n sad times.. now all the amazing things becomes ...-.- hehe he bring me 2 1 coffeeshop i guess, 4 dinnner..then he didn't withdraw $ from atm, so...i pay 4 him... counted as giving him a treat... Then while eating, a topic where most ppl, including me, likes 2 avoid apppears... Multi-network marketting...-.-! He told me many things which though i agree with him, tat this type of thing, if successful, can reach my target in 2 yrs time rather than using 5yrs, getting a degree n work hard 2 reach teh same equal target..However, i must say is, different ppl, different future... some ppl r cut out 4 this, while some r not... ya 2 be like him now, is wat i envy.. but prob is interest n whether i'm cut out 4 this kind of job... Some more, this kind of job, has a greater risk.. If u succeed, the rewards is handsome, but wat if u fail? So i rather plan my path solid n firm 1st b4 thinking of taking these short cuts n risks, just in case, if i fail, i still have a backup path 4 me 2 walk...n move on...its kinda hard 2 reject a friend, so i just listen n follow him up 2 his office just nearby only..-.-. Well the office was quite nice, but just tat i have been 2 so many types, n this is similiar 2 1 which i company some1 4 job interview..at Apex tower, oso at tanjong pagar... same thing, ppl there wear formall western suits, looking very successful, show photos of successful ppl getting cars 4 successful sales... young ppl become successful at such an early age... like wat i say, not every1 is successful.. they only show the few minority who succeed, but did they show they majority tat failed?
So after tat, i say gdbye dennis n headed to tanjong pagar mrt n headed back 2 sun plaza find kit , Ns n Cr Duck...haiz.. felt a wasted yet meaningful trip.. haha weird me, having mixed feelings..Then find them there n we play kof...played mostly kof 02, n we headed 2 mac AGAIN... The 3 of them haven't had their dinner yet, so i just company them. While they r eating, Cai Yu(Cy) sms me saying tat she got somethign 2 ask me... So i'm afraid tat i'll be back hom elate n the next day she has sch, so it'll be ok if she were 2 ask me now, while they r eating dinner, since i'm free. After long sms... finally she called n ask...-.-. Yet didn't ask in the end... cuz she say she dunno how 2 ask this qn... n drag n drag 2 no valid...so i let her think abt how 2 ask me, then we talk again..then they finish dinner n we play cards =) This time, i'm the biggest winner, followed by kit, Cr Duck n WoW Ns is the biggest loser this time haha.. Finally its time 2 go home... Reaching home, its a mess again..seeing my hp, i realise i 4get 2 reply Cy's sms...thus i called her... n until now, she still cannot bring herself 2 ask me tat qn-.-... Hmm so weird... But nevertheless, we have a short conversation until 1am, cuz she have sch n i have work next day. Dun 1 2 tire each other.. Tat's all my readers...2 be cont...

bubbles of sadness.