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Moments for Wed 11th Jan 2006 : Hmm ytd was some how boring day 4 me... cuz my life has already been dead... Y do i say so? Cuz the routine was there ever since my new life has begin... It wasn't as colourful as wat i used 2 have in my life... Ytd morning as usual, overslp n drag myself 2 prepare n rush 4 work, standing in the mrt all the way from sem mrt to doby ghaut, hoping 4 any seats available as i'm very tired...but each time if i manage 2 wait 4 1, only 2 find either a pregnant lady or elderly ppl, tat i have 2 allow them 2 have the seats, wif a "smile".. how i wish i'm so hard-hearted like some ppl, can dun care anything n do things they like... While walking 2wards sem mrt, saw my neighbour living just above me.. seeing her makes me remind of her lovely daughter =) haven't been seeing her 4 a very long time.. shall make a day vacant 2 pay her a visit upstairs.. however, i'm feeling very awkward 2 those ppl who have been ard me in my life all htis while, cuz they doesn't even noe tat there's a change in my brand new life..Or as more days goes by, they might get 2 noe or find out themselves, as i do not have the courage 2 tell them so... wat a weakling me, where i wish i wasn't this weak enough 2 face my present life....
Reaching office,at chinatown mrt, as usual, i'm late 4 work... this time late 3 mins...Though i have many things line up 4 me 2 do, yet i just dun hav the mood 2 start my work... perhaps i have just lost the path of my life...roaming ard targetlessly wifout any aim... i have nv feel as lost as this b4... n this kind of feeling was rather weird, yet so cold n pain... thus i went 2 surf net while listening 2 songs n doing work at the same time... This time, i visit kit's blog n found tat his tag got angela saying, thx kit 4 helping wif her blog... Kit help her n yet i ask him 4 help, but 2 no valid =( Hmm since ntg 2 do, n kit got link 2 angela's blog, i went in 2 read...Finally, i have decided, since kit dun 1 2 help me, i do so myself =( *Thus my dear readers, pardon me 4 my blog is still quite dead as my life is now, but winter will die, flowers will bloom n spring will come. My blog will change n upgrade in time 2 come =) Be patience pls. Thus my blog was finally published ahead of those decorations which will be left out 4 the time being.
Finally fighting off the Zzz monster(my JC times terms of sleepy), lunch time reached... n because my colleagues r only females n my department r small, wif less than 10 ppl, + my only male colleague have left 2 briston 4 studies (future lawyer-2-be). lunchtime is oso very lonely 4 me... well maybe of my char ba, tat i'm dun dare 2 join my female colleagues 4 lunch... THus i always go 2 the same old coffeeshop 2 buy miced veg rice....(life is so dead, even eating food oso dead), then i bought back 2 my office n had my lunch alone n the only partner that company me thru my lunch hr is... none other than my lousy office com... though lousy, cannot install msn due 2 high security n have 2 use lousy web msn whereby i get dc without even knowing, n was scolding n swearing like hell when my friends didn't reply me, only 2 noe tat i was dc... loading was very slow.. sometimes even my friends chat wif me, but the dialogue box didn't even appear.. So they oso think tat i'm so ignorant, dun 1 2 reply them... screen was sometimes yellow in colour... but luckily now monitor changed 2 lcd screen =) Thus this lousy com plays an impt role during my lunch break always 1pm - 2pm.. Cuz the office is left wif me, i can on my speakers n listen 2 my music while eating... then do the things i want...
Once my lunch break is over, afternoon there's a different event 4 me in office... VIPs r coming 4 a visit to Subordinate Court n family Court... N because this few days have been a rainy season, a task was given 2 me... in case of wet weather, i become 1 of the umbrella party...tat's is...2 carry umbrella my usher the VIPs when the r exchanging locations from Subordinate Court to Family court which is a few 100 metres apart...-.-! Wat a task i'm given... was told 2 wear full dressed western suits... without the tie this time, so as 2 be formal in front of the VIPs... 4get 2 mention the boring meeting at 9.30am wif regards 2 this VIPs visits... the meeting room was cold, but luckily i'm prepared wif a jacket...N the room was very small... wif only few chairs...some chairs even have 2 be brought in n 2 ppl still have 2 stand....luckily during meeting, i wasn't feeling sleepy at all...OK finally VIPs visit is over, i go back office n back 2 work, til its time 2 knock off at 6.03pm...
The way back to sem by mrt was boring... stand again... Reach sun plaza (Sp) n go arcade find Nelson (Ns).. Then play kof XI...while Ns play 2002 super -.-! Then played a while, copyright Duck(Alex) comes as he just wake up n come sp find us.. He challenged me XI n keep losing this time haha, cuz i noe how 2 counter his moves le. Finally got my revenge =) then after tat kit comes 2 n we play kof 02 Normal 2gether... Ns as usual, lose 1 game, run away, dun dare 2 challenge, thus left me n kit n sometimes copyright duck... i'm sian of 02 le cuz dunno who 2 use n skills getting lousy cuz i'm 2 used 2 the new ver of kof XI le...Thus i play mirror match wif them -.-! They use beni... my beni in 02 sucks... THen halfway, ah Bee(Nugget King) comes, oso use beni... sian... then dunno y we switch 2 playing kof 2001, i was really very lousy in 2001 cuz its during my Jc times n i didn't play tat much when this game was out... so naturally, i lose 2 kit..-.- wat a bully.... Then we went 2 mac have our dinner n play cards wif Ns, Kit, Copyright Duck..Game consisted of hearts, Bridge, Taidi, UNO n Go!Go!Go!..I'm supposed 2 be the biggest winner, followed by Ns, Kit, then Cr Duck.. wif the least number of lost... But after calculating the scores, Biggest winner ended by 2 be kit -.-!, followed by Ns, Me than Cr Duck... Haiz wat a day...
Finally time has come n its time 2 go home n on the way home, raining again... haiz...But just nice, the wet seasons n atmosphere just suits my life now... perhaps its because the weather has been weeping wif me, sharing the pains in my heart, feeling my sorrows over my wounds... Many drops of tears falling down the sky, feeling great empathy over a lifeless soul wandering home... Grief 4 his changed of life... Grief over his pasts... Hoping 4 another spring 2 come...After dragging my tired body home, its time 2 preapred 4 the next lifeless day...Thanks readers 4 having such patience reading this...walking thru this words as if passing this very day wif me by my side wif ur eyes, feeling my emotions wif ur heart.... Stop here n 2 be cont.....

bubbles of sadness.