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Moments for Tue, 7th Feb 2006 :
Morning not late 4 work cuz dawn's sms wake me up.. Then work was boring... until lunch time i sms Kw 2 check the time schedule at the cinema...as i promised him 2 watch "i not stupid 2" wif him... Something terrible happened.. Kw did it once again... Need me 2 sms him, then only he gimme a last min thing tat he's going 2 watch wif a friend... Asked me out, i agreed n he go ask another person out again? Can't imagine how he's going 2 survive in his working life in future, wif this type of attitude... Moreover, he can still gif excuses like anyway u dun like 2 watch tat movie... -.-! Well he should be proud of a friend, who dun like 2 watch tat movie, n yet still promised 2 watch wif him, cuz every1 else has watched... All i noe is 1 must be responsible 4 each n his or her own actions... Promised is a promised... He really disappoints me tis time... Well 2 add on 2 tat, he's causing a trouble 2 me, by suddenly removing my planned activities 2day...Now last min, how am i going 2 find my own activity? Thanks 4 the deeds Kw, 4 repaying my help -.-! haha anyway patience... =)
At the end of the working day, still didn't manage 2 find any activities, but something happened 2 Cy n Ns.. Well the news was rather shocking, yet i'm still calm n cool haha tat's me =) Cy asked me 2 call her cuz she can't take it abt a news n was abt 2 cry O.o! ns called 2, n i expected something happened btw him n dawn (his sch). After work i called Cy n she told me Wil n dawn r 2gether now n she's heartbroken woot o.O!!! they r 2 young n immature n tat's wat i can say.. Having feelings 4 any1 was so easy.. Tat's the reason y, i did the right thing on my decision wif Cy. Can't possibly i made the wrong choice n end up getting hurt again by relationship =) i'm looking 4 a serious relationship, not puppy love nor crush or suddenly feelings which will easily change n fade away..Well situation was the 4 ppl, 2 gals n 2 guys, were friends n studying in the same sch, same age.. Cy, dawn liew (DL), Wil n Ns..Ns was in other class, the rest same class.. Cy likes Wil, Ns likes DL... Then DL like Wil, dunno Wil likes DL or not...then DL confess 2 Wil n they becum 2gether, tat's wat i heard.. Then DL felt guilty 2wards her gd friend CY, n confessed 2 Cy on this day...
Wow so complicated...yet 2 me, they r just 2 young..hmm besides tat, DL was like made every1 dunno whether she likes Ns or not.. n tat made things worst... A person really can have mixed feelings 4 so many ppl...-.-! Tat's the problem of being young n not able 2 think n treat relationships n their feelings maturely... Tat's the problem i dun believed in youngsters abt true luv... or rather feel insecure =)However, since i'm just a friend of them, not involved in this "4 triangle" thing, i shall sit on the fence n not made any judgement abt this =) all i can say 2 CY n NS is tat, u both r still young, dun let this matter affect ur future, esp ur studies.. In future, when u all grow up, perhaps u'll be able 2 visualise n handle these feelings things maturely...Be strong n wish them all the best n more over, must no tlet this thing affects ur friendships among 1 another, as its 2 naive if u were 2 break ur ties between each other just becuz of this shocking news 2 u all... if u r able 2 look things in a different view, n brghter side, n able 2 live ur life happily, means u all have grow up more in ur thinking, more matured 2 haha..anyway all the best 4 all of u =)
So i wait 4 Ns at sp arcade n spent my nite 2 company this heartbroken friend of mine haha.. Well we went 2 foodcourt n his friends Xinyi (Xy) n Hong yun(Hy) come. After eating, company them 2 a cc near my hse 2 play dota-.-! long time nv play... This cc really very lousy...the coms r lag, n the chairs r spoilt, n cannot access internet n go in 2 bnet...-.-! i'll nv ever go there again...even though its cheaper.. waste my time down there.. 1st rd play 1 v 2 wif Ns n a friend of his, i think is called Junjie (JJ) lol pawned them.. JJ can c tat he's not gd in the game, feed me a lot. Ns ok ok . haha. Nxt, me, Ns, JJ, n HY played against 2 opponent ... Well all i can say b4 we start, i already knew we'll lose... cuz dota is a match whereby its teamwork... n u cannot have a beginner in ur team as, the beginner will always feed the opponent until "very full" haha..True indeed, i had the least death, close 2 zero..JJ really feed them alot.. Hy n Ns's skills were ok ok..Except they need 2 practice their tag team... Hmm look 4ward 2 challenge them haha.. Nxt time perhaps...Played until 10, the shop close n we bid each other farewell...
2nite reach home super early...haiz ntg 2 do.. ended up online n do ntg.. then called dawn n we had a talk.. talked abt many things... and as usual same old problems.. btw something happened 2day almost after i knock off work wif me n dawn.. Well in msn, i asked abt the "recently" thing, which only dawn noes, n she say yes... n tat really made me feels very uncomfortable...Well dawn was oso young, n perhaps tat's oso 1 of the reason y i feel very insecure, other than my past, making me insecure 2 relationships.. I'm afraid dawn wasn't mature enough 2 handle relationships n her feelings, n things n her feelings might change went she changed environment when she grows older, esp from sec sch 2 either poly, Jc or other places...Well moreover now she can't even decides 4 herself wat she actually 1s, n yet she always accused me 4 living in my past n closing up my heart... I mean, how can i open my heart 2 a person, who isn't sure of things herself? Cuz its 11.30pm, n she needs 2 slp 4 2moro's sch, we chat halfway abt this n postpone the conversation nxt time.. Well after tat, it leaves me wif lots of thoughts n feelings, then i watch tv n then retire 4 bed.... As 4 the full details of the conversation or rather the problems or obstacles btw me n dawn, i shall put it in my personal diary, thus wat i can disclosed has been placed here haha..Tat's all
Just an add on, art chat wif me in msn n tries 2 turn things better btw me n my old friends, Jim n company..Well it seems 2 me tat art always feels tat i'm wrong, but i just ignore watever he wants 2 say... who is rite who is wrong, who is true 2 me, i noe... Art keeps putting gd words 4 jim they all... all i can say is, his explanations r biase as he is more closer 2 jim n he supports them.. I strongly believed in letting a neutral party decide who is rite, who is wrong.. N i strongly believe tat if we were 2 do a survey on this matter, more neutral ppl will support me =) But anyway, art keeps askingme 2 4gif n 4get, but being the patient me, i dun find a need 2 do so, cuz i'm not at all angry wif jim they all.. cuz i'm patient =) hahawell look things on the bright side, n just dun care how they treat me. =)In return, art ask me out 4 movie wif them nxt day... i promise him 2 gif them a chance n turned up.. however, if i received the same type of treament n have 2 c their face n show disrespect 4 me as an older friend, then i think, i'll happily turn away =)
Nxt add on is dawn again.. u think its my past dear readers? Nope she has disappeared like thin air wifout any news =) Well dawn 2day did it again.. She apologize 2 me as she was stressed in studies 2day n reach home, her mum still ask her lots of qns n made her more stress.. Told her b4, dun bring ur stress 2 other ppl ard u, as u'll upsets them.. Its no different from vending ur anger on an innocent person, who didn't do anyhting wrong 2 u.. This thing, i believe 1 must be matured enough 2 do tat.. anyway being matured, u r able 2 handle ur emotions well =) Patience is golden haha =) as being a hot-tempered person, does u no gd in the 1st place.. Well 4gifs her n hope nxt tiem she dun do it again...

bubbles of sadness.