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Moments for Wed, 22th Feb 2006 :
Morning was punctual as usual... Cleared some of my work again... Lunch time meet art at ps kfc n had salad.. After tat went arcade play kof XI as he's getting more n more interested in the game... Manage 2 win but cuz time is short, we have 2 go off after tat... 2day suppose 2 meet my past, but thru out the whole working time until i knock off work, still no news from her.. As a promise, i'll still decide 2 go 2 the meeting location n wait 4 her... If by the end of day, she still didn't show up, i'll have 2 reconsider meeting her nxt time when she ask me out again... Finally she called n guess wat....
As usual, last min changes, wait until now then tell me.. Change location to Sun plaza, but i'm already at ps, so i was unhappy abt such an irresponsible act..Still as last time, our meeting time is supposed 2 be 6pm, but she's still in her bus 962 2wards sem... Late again n even want 2 change location last min.. Nvm... i tell her tat since i'm at ps, i won't leave as it waste my trip.. Thus i went 2 the arcade n wait 4 her instead.. When she come, wat she say doesn't even tally wif the fact n she can't even explained herself well 4 her reasons of all these last min changes n y she couldn't even contact me earlier... How am i going 2 trust her words?
Nvm... went 2 kfc 2 have dinner n i have salad again =) healthy diet... Everything wasn't like the past, we were like very awkward n there was always some moments of silence.. Watever she say always have loopholes n really makes me hard 2 believe in wat she tried 2 explain... After meal, just went 4 a walk n visit some places of our memories.. Well her appearance really changed, different from the past.. dyed hair, very long nails... etc..etc.. Well then talk bit here n there... She wants 2 be 2gether again as she regrets her decision very much... However...things aren't the same n not going 2 be tat easy anymore...
This is the 3rd time already...n the wounds i have was very deep.. Looking at her now, still the same as the past... The things which was lacked when we were 2gether, trust, security, n the inner luv from her heart wasn't there... Those love on the outer side when she meet me in the past, i already have, just lack the luv from her inner side... She's still the same as the past n things aren't same like the past anymore... If she really wants 2 win back my heart, it'll be extremely difficult 4 some1 who breaks my heart severely n 3rd time she chooses 2 leave me...The rest of the things, shall be keep inside my personal diary...Ard 12am... we took a train home...
Well reach sem, saw Lawrence my neighbour n walk home wif him... He told me a mth ago, he saw my past wif a guy at Northpoint -.-! Haiz i guess i have heard a lot of these n its like ntg fresh 2 me now... Reach home prepare n send sms to dawn as i noe tat i didn't reply her sms 4 the nite... She must be very angry ba... Well as my past 2 sms me when she reach home safely, but as usual, same as past, no news from her... Enjoy making ppl wait n worried 4 ntg.. Like tat wants 2 win back my heart? Makes me only think tat wat she's saying wasn't sincere n true enough tat she really wants me back to her heart... Still the same old her... She'll have 2 try even more harder this time 4 me 2 accept her...which is hard this time... Tired call it a day...

bubbles of sadness.