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Moments for Tue, 6th Jun 2006 :
Well this day is wat many ppl have been talking abt, 666..In christianity, isn't a very gd day at all.. Y 666? cuz today is 6/6/06.. Even saw newspapers tat many ppl r getting married on this day. Well anyway its just another common day to me..Life still goes on as per normal, going ot work, n perhaps stopping work soon tat i'm late again.. Well after work, went home.. have dinner, having muscle aches from mon's jogging.. Watch 2 tv series from SCV n prepared to go to sp mac to meet Ns, Duck, Hy n NB.. Hmm seems like i'm always hanging ard wif young teenagers.. Well perhaps they bring me joys n makes me youth again.. haha..Besides though mischevious they were, they r the ones who helped me during my down times.. Super depress times.. Not financially but emotionally.. Yes they keep me company, n help me stand up... looking back, 2 yrs + of relationship (1st time) was indeed long..
This time i'm not going to restrict wat i'm going to write, many readers read it from different angles, thus i shall not be explaining myself over any misunderstanding.. Just hope readers thinks positively whereby wat i wrote might seems a -ve manner but actually its a neutral view..yes if i were to be able to dump this 2yrs + of tormented relationship, its kind of difficult indeed..At times, i do miss my past a little, however the hopes of being wif her 4ever when i was wif her in the past, has already gone.. Realistic is unavoidable.. Every1 hopes to find their soulmates who can provide future happiness 4 each other.. Wif her, i think i'll be suffering thru out my life... Lots of things have happened btw me n my past.. Very terrible onces too, but have very happy times.. However, the happy times r extremely short to me.. She made lots of unforgivable mistakes in the relationship, yet i still managed to 4gif her.. However, this time, though 4given, but yet, we won't be 2gether as she nv learns her mistakes..
Well i'm a sort of person totally devoted to a relationship, thus perhaps to pull out, isn't a very esasy task 4 me.. I took 3 yrs in the past to let go my 1st love, during my sec times, though we were not 2gether. However, if i were to completely dump watever happened in the past n moved on wifout carrying anythings, i'm no difference than a sinner, nor a person who's out to flirt n enjoy. Once let go, just happily move on n treat as if ntg has happened.. Anyway life now, though lonely n looking at so many new couples ard me, do makes me envy them a lot.. However, at this thru this lonely time, am i able to catch a break n do the things which i wants to do...Ok tat's abt it.. Moving ahead slowly =) and much more lighter.Taking this time to recuperate my wounds til its ready to take in once again.
Hmm thus at mac i played cards wif them n i emerged the biggest winner haha.. the 2nd, Ns was ard 48 cards, Duck 3rd, Hy 4th n NB biggest loser wif 100+ cards haha... OK we had a great time n its time to go home.. Well my preparation 4 the b'day celebrations was almost done.. Really couldn't wait tat day to come fast.. Hmm couldn't imagine how creative i am or rather i am already creative haha.. Imaginative,, =P I'm always out wif so many ideas.. this young kids really must be grateful to me tat they enjoyed so much when i'm ard.. Wed will have a briefing wif them to confirm the rest of the things.. N hopefully by sat morning things r fully prepared..Hopefully the games turn out to be super duper fun...

bubbles of sadness.