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Moments for Fri, 22th Sep 06 :
Wow...its been really super long or rather ages tat i hav ever blog.. Usually common excuses r given, either no time, lazy or many other silly things tat happened tat cuz writers to stop writing 4 a period of time.. I'm of no difference =P. Well time to update loads of stuffs inside.. So where have i stopped? Ah... 20th July 06.... Hmm 2mths... time really flies.. just like the blink of eyes... Many things happened during a split sec, let alone 2 mths of my lifespan had passed by.. Many many things do happened indeed... Let me do some recalling, though some parts might be lefted out...The reason y i stopped writing, was becuz my com in the hse broked down n i couldn't update...Can't even assess to other coms elsewhere, cuz i have stopped work already... Finally, my sufferings have ended from my workplace..Wait a min... My sufferings really ended? No...i would say tat.. cuz... i have now experiencing another phases of my life... New sufferings r back once again....
Well after i stopped blogging 4 long time cuz of no coms, even after the com was fixed almost 2 weeks if i'm not mistaken, the momentum of blogging isn't really there... FInally after rotting n enjoying my life wif the regular gang, my new life started 2nd of August 06... Sch starts... new beginning n many changes begins...Planned to be alone thruout the life in SIM, nv expect to made some friends, males as well as females... However, wasn't really very close to them at all, even until now.. perhaps i'm still the quiet me, which haven't really adapt to the new environment.. Sufferings begin...Supporting myself isn't really a simple thing.. Things happened unexpectedly... Part-time jobs r really very difficult to find... went to many agencies n non were able to provide a job suitable 4 me n my time-table... Wif no jobs, n no finance to support my phone bills n transportation.. being thrifty is really a must.. However, how thrifty i am, still have to experience times where my budget is really extremely tight.. N tat's the time where u really noe who r the 1s who's really ur true friends..
Wif no $, which i experience many times, come to think of it, i can be richer if i nv met wif few mishaps in my life.. cheated by a Malay guy of 4 yrs relationship 4 $1k+ of hp bills debts, met the wrong partner in life tat i'm like feeding a mouth tat leads to lots of debts owed from my friends...& oso my hp bills tat can lead to $200+ a mth cuz of quarrelling many times wif my past... After clearing all these debts, i'm always left wif no savings... Parents always nagged me but i just simply can't express these things to them... 4get abt asking my relationship wif my family members, but all i can say is, i'm not very close to them... However, we really cared 4 each other, but we just dun express ourselves cuz i'm the rebelious type who have my own thoughts, but was severely pressed down by my family's intention, thinking tat wat they planned 4 me is gd 4 me... But i just simply can't grow up like this... HOwever, i really must e grateful 4 the values n principles in life.
HOwever, my sufferings oso included... $ is the root of evil... No $ is 1st suffering, no $, hard to survive... 2nd cuz no $, expensive sch fee oso have to borrow from my mum's hard earned $...some more she dun have jobs now... Even pocket $ i oso dun have the courage to get from her as our financial status is quite bad too... couldn't find a part time job too.. thus becuz of this studying n expensive sch n couldn't find job, always result in quarrels wif my mum... I'm equally feeling as bad as her, but every of my feelings, i surpress inside of me... Really times where i have no cash wif me, those friends of my, whom i helped many times, those ungrateful ppl, i remember the treatment u all gave me when now is my turn wif no $. Didn't really chase the $ they borrowed from me, but just asking them to lend me instead 4 dinner, but instead they turn their backs.. Initially, i treated every1 equally n having my own principles in life to treat every1 nice, if u expect ppl to treat u nicely.. Now this is wat i get.. When i'm back from my breakfall, they shall receive no help from me as in terms of cash.. Tat is the 3rd suffering i get, which is to see the true colours of wat these friends really r. I'm not going to name them, but i must say, some true friends r really still there 4 me, but they r only a few..
Got a few male n a few female friends lol. however not more than 10, from the grp of youngsters, which i always hang out wif.. Wat actually make me feel this way? imagine, during the few days of extremely tight budget, told to come out to entertain them, spent my few bucks left n during the dinner time.. They can actually eat their dinner in front of me, leaving me to watch them eating happily, even though they noe i have no more cash to have dinner... All of them borrowed $ from me, didn't even return a bit... owed super long already n i didn't even chase them to return...all i did was asking them to borrow me a few bucks 4 dinner n they actually rejected me even if they have.. i still remembered a remarks made from 1 of them : "u can't expect me to eat student meal wif u as i want to eat other meals." Lol this is actually "a friend in need is a friend indeed" Many thoughts actually came to me.. but i shall not say further but kept as a secret. all i wish to say is tat is the reason y my previous paragraphs might seems like very harsh in the words....
Anyway, to summarise as to wat i did during the 2mths, cut down on sms n really seldom use phone, travel to town oso lessen unless i went 4 work.. recently just found a partime job at bugis... pay still less...thus currently still searching 4 a better job... playing mahjong increases haha. not to 4get studying n going 4 lesson.. Tv shows r getting interesting too =P rushing to work, or staying at home to play com.. Hmm i think tat's abt it.. didn't really much go faraway places ba.. Spent more time playing wif my sis's baby daughter.. She really very cute. n falls on a day after my b'day.. though sometimes i might get jealous cuz they only cared abt her b'day but not mine.. Haha.. Hmm i think tat's abt it 4 now n will update when i have the time..

bubbles of sadness.