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Memories for 27th Feb 2007 (Tue) :
Hmm didn't really make full use of the time on this day.. Laze ard in fornt of my com till its time to go to the library to study... Didn't go to woodlands library cuz i didn't have the mood to go there.. So went to sem library instead.. Well then i stayed there until ard 4pm plus.. of cuz study till i felt slply n dozing off for few mins here n there...
After tat, went home to make an impt call.. yup tonite supposed to go to Khatib camp again for my remedial training.. However, i didn't managed to do so cuz nxt day there's a mock exam for me n i have lots of readings not completed.. thus i didn't go. Instead, i stayed at home for dinner, b4 coming out to study again..
Omg nv expect meeting nel in the arcade.. Tell him i'll play a short while wif him of kof, but instead... played till 10pm... Then i faster rush to mac to study... Saw newspaperboy there doing his assignment wif his laptop... Ok then here my study starts... Until ard 12am, i received an sms from some1 i haven't heard for long time to me... The ans has already been found, which i thought i noe the ans already...
Of cuz spent 2hrs + i think, talking on the phone, leaving me heartbroken n agony.. Dun mind spending time talking becuz i might nv get to hear it anymore or for a very long time.. which i knew it... expected it to happen.. Thus just cherish the remaining time we have left.. Emotionally tired i am.. physically tired.. i really dun have the strength to move forward anymore.. Can i really stop waiting? i wish i can do so... but i can't...useless me..
i shall nv forgive myself...back to study, no matter how hard i tried, still couldn't do it.. Guess the only way to relieve myself from this agony, is to disappear.. Til death everything comes to an end.. life comes to a stop.. free from every sufferings on earth... However, i couldn't bear to do it.. not becuz i fear death... Death is a normal thing on earth.. Birth, aged, illness n death... Its just tat if i were to leave, the burdens will be shifted to others..
Thus i wouldn't be so selfish to do this... i shall carry the burdens on myself n wrecked my souls n body.. Tormented n tortured i shall felt.. But gritted my teeth, i shall moved on... I have losted the most impt element of my life.. love... wat's tat to me? i really dunno... neither am i very _ve abt it anymore as b4... Shall hide inside my own world n nv step out once again.. Till some1 else manages to find me once again..

bubbles of sadness.