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Moments of Thoughts.... (Written at 11th June 07 )(Mon) 3 pm :
Finally, i start 2 blog again..There were actually many things tat happened inside of me..N i'm really feeling very troubled..I seems so lost tat i really dunno wat or how am i gg 2 solve them..A person who always thinks alot..everything in life has the pros n cons..Its gd 2 think a lot b4 u make any decisions,but on such situation, it really hurts...Sometimes it gets so tired tat feel like giving up thinking,yet heart forbids so.. Thinking abt wat?Not abt me but others..

In fact, its not a matter than i think i can solve it by myself alone..If i can do it by myself, i guess i wouldn't feel so suffering instead..It takes 2 hands 2 clap..Tis is wat the prob is..I'm beginning hard 2 understand ppl well..Wat's the real intention in everything?Is it tat i feel the world is getting so dangerous, tat i'm beginning 2 be very cautious abt everything?Doubting everything n starts 2 be so sensitive over everything..My heart usually dun bluff me,cuz my intuition is most of the time rite...

This frightens me when its related 2 a person very close 2 me,n of high lvl of importance..Such feelings brought shivers tat i feared 2 imagine..I used 2 be a very pessimistic person..A guy who seldom laughs..I guy who is always so quiet n down..-ve in my thoughts, until recently, i'm starting 2 pick up n smile..My life has begin 2 be colourful n i'm so happy..can't explain y,but at the same time,i start 2 worry..probably many bad experiences i had..

I do not dare 2 be real happy..Fearing tat happy times i had, will faded away once again..history repeats n i'm like stucking in such cycle.. I'm tired i do not wish 2 feel such pain again..can call me a coward as i guess i'm really am..Useless freaking guy who land himself till such a state..Will i really be able 2 break off tis cycle tis time where i got tis special feeling of happiness different from the past? judging from the circumstances n my position i doubt so...

However, tis time the happiness i receive is really much more stronger than my very few past..Perhaps tat's the reason y it makes me so down..It makes me feared cuz i'm not sure if i'm able 2 let it go, when such a day really comes..Like wat ppl said,the more happier u r, the more hopes u have, the more hurt, sorrows n pains u receive will be much more higher than ever..If all these happiness n hopes were suddenly removed...

If tat day comes, i really dunno wat will becum of me..I do not dare 2 think abt it..Future is really so uncertain n rite now, i just dare not think ahead..Perhaps just try 2 slowly take a step at a time, let fate shows me wat will happen in future..But at the same time,cherish the fate tat came by hard, n do my best...Whether tis phase of life will carry on long lasting, or putting 2 a miserable ending,i really dunno as its still not a prob tat i'm able 2 solve by myself.. It takes 2 hands 2 clap...

bubbles of sadness.