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(29/09/08) Monday

Its work again.. Basically ntg much to blog today. Rush my work and blogging in ofc. I was so tired.. Went to eat subway for lunch cuz long time nv eat le. Hmm btw the government budget thingy come le.. so lucky got a little more $ to spend b4 my pay day comes.. day after day, need to think abt many things, managing my wealth.. Yup no doubt everytime pay comes shld be happy, but I have to headache again, need to plan my expenses n savings.. I need to return my mum cash for helping me to pay my sch fees this yr of 1200k.. Of cuz have to pay by installments back to her..

I hope I can get out of my poverty cycle soon.. so the budget of $275 from the government, goes to my mum of cuz.. hmm tonite actually wanna catch “My Mighty princess” wif wil n ben. But cuz of that wil, wanna eat at hm, cuz us to miss the movie.. The latest time is only avaiable at 7pm.. Think its gg to finish soon.. Ended up I had OCK for dinner wif ben while waiting for wil to come PS. Ben ate burger in addition. So we start to play cards...

Hmm ben says this mth is my lousy mth, my luck not very gd,not a smooth mth.. Oh no.. yup thru out the nite, my winnings decrease by a great deal... Wil owe me $40, ended up he owe me none.. ben owe me $103, ended up only left wif $80.. But luckily ben return me some cash as his budget comes too haha.so now left $30 wif him n the rest of my frds..Hmm played till 11.15pm, burger king close le.. So off to hm we go...

Sigh Wat a waste... Yea..come town, end up nv watch any movie.. I wanna watch “My Mighty Princess”!Dunno say want to watch many times, end up no chance to watch..Yup this mth really not very smooth hor.. nel gg to Ns on 7th Oct.. Jim oso gg in on dunno 6th or 9th Oct.. Wa.. y like tat? Hmm I shldn;t be sad ma.. for the past 18 yrs since I was born I oso nv really cele bd ma, its only for the recent yrs where I started to cele only.. Anyway its just another day only..Want birthday, any day is
oso a bd..a start of a brand new day, is oso a birthday.. a brand new life.. haha..

still rmb 1 nite when I n nel was walking home, I was complaining abt his date to enter Ns.. then we even joke abt the cpl watch which I bought during genting.. cuz we had a bad thing which happens on kit.. Not gg to talk much abt it, but just say tat the gifts we helped him choose during genting, ended up lie in somewhere in his hse for keeping, just like me haha.. So we were just talking abt storing those gifts.. So I was joking to nel tat, if any ger were to cele wif me on my bd, i'll gif the cpl watch to her..

well, then that stupid nel, faster tease me tat CY or XY oso can.. Then I was like.. Ahem.. of cuz not any1 la... Anyway it was just a joke.. Well, So I think the day was ended, wif that wil smiling thru out the nite, from losing until winning.. wa... well I had been thinking stg ever since last nite at lan.. Although its not the 1st time such kind of incident has happened le.. but I have always been pondering, How can a person be so ignorant that she doesn't even noe how badly she has hurt other ppl?

Fancy showing up wif that new account to hurt me? Of cuz I noe she's not a maniac who likes to hurt ppl ba.. But I think is she's just loving herself too much that she doesn't even realise what actions n words said will hurt other ppl.. She doesn;t even noe how to spare a tot for other ppl's feelings.. I'm always being placed under such situation wif her, since day 1 when we started to date on that nite wif the very 1st kiss.. I oso wan to care abt myself le.. of cuz say say only la.. its comes from indivudual characteristics n our own mindset.. some in build personality, which is hard to chg, but can only be done by the own self, whether the heart wanna chg or not.

Well I experienced that b4 during my sec sch times. Yup my inner self change cuz of true love for my 1st love.. well of cuz cannot say the rest of my 2 r/s there's no true love involve.. I'm a person who only step in a r/s when there's true love coming from my side.. As for the female's side, true love or not, its hard to say.. well 1 thing for sure, I performed better cuz my 1st love didn;t hurt me to such an extent that its so painful to do anything.. Perhaps if my 1st love were to hurt me so much, then I think, I wouldn't chg so much either..

Well true love comes from inner self, n can;t be force.. From the person's actions, u can tell how much love from the person is really true.. can;t love 2 person at the same time.. And the 2 person includes self.. There's a word saying love yourself to love others.. but shld not be love yourself to only love yourself..This is stg which looks hard to achieve, but actually its very simple provided the true love was there.. Forced r/s is tedious.. but natural true love coming from the heart, is so soft n natural..Anyway blabbering abt again.. shall stop here..

bubbles of sadness.