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(13/11/08) Thursday
Reporting back to work, I was told by my boss to clear most of my things b4 gg for my reservist nxt Mon.. Well I might not be able to blog 4 a long time I guess.. Army is always so troublesome..Only gg to defer till i'm able to go, end up must make it so tedious.. Most likely i'll have to really go thru the whole of the reservist le.. Though it doesn't seems to be very tough during this time's reservist, but its really disrupting many of my task on hand..My work, my studies etc..
well some1 sms me again claiming wanting to mit me tml b4 I went in army, but the sms just die thruout the rest of the day, wifout any piece of news.. I dun see any seriousness or sincerity in wanting to me mit at all..I really want to gif up completely le...It defeats the purpose of me only interested in sincere ppl. Shuang jiu sms, bu shuang completely ntg, I dun even wish to be frd wif this kind of person..
I went for the lesson, learnt topics on attitude.. the 1st half of the lesson I was feeling drowsy n slply.. oso checked that I can't do anything to my lessons.. think i'm gonna miss 4 lesson in total cuz of this army stuffs.. I paid for my lessons..Its so ex lo.. Army gonna paid back my fees? I miss impt lessons.. if can;t do well for the exams, I waste more $, is army gonna pay me..
I learnt something in the lesson, and just realised that I have got high dissonance in me.. Which is so unhealthy... meaning to say i'm always being placed in high dissonance by the people around me.. Must find ppl who doesn't cuz such high tension to my mental state, else I'm gonna suffer a lot.. which leads to depression..staying +ve is wat I must remind myself.. No matter how ppl reflect badly upon u, nv gif up on myself...There'll definitely be some1 out there who'll accept me willingly..
Go hm after tat, watch some tv, b4 washing up n slp..

bubbles of sadness.