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(11/12/08) Thursday

Hmm didn't have much to blog lately, hence I didn't really blog.. Maybe consolidate everything, then start blogging ba.. well let's start wif work.. Well terminated from job due to the current boss.. been sending resume, didn't really have any news.. went for an interview at I-models International for the post of management trainee after work yesterday (10/12/08) Wednesday. Waited so long, only to find tat its retail hrs not suitable 4 my studies..Expected tat they'll persuade me into modeling.. Hmm well if they really want to help me, they would already have ways to ease the payment of the port folios..

Ntg else on work, except some jobs emailed me to send the resume, recent photo to them.. tat's abt it so far.. my HP is still silent.. at job still enduring the boss's face n attitiude.. but at times its relax till I'm super bored cuz I can't even do anything even if I'm bored...Finding work is always the case, where the jobs which I desire, didn;t get back to me, only those which I'm not really keen but trying my luck upon reached me.. which turns out not gd..

Family, had a big commotion over the weekends.. mum nagging n scolding me for long hrs.. of cuz some1 act big in the hse, got do stg la.. anyway i'm super stressed.. yet I have nobody who can comfort me.. instead, I felt worst.. some more at tat point of time, it was a hell at hm n I can't wait to leave the hse.. if really I have the cash..i wouldn;t feel so trouble.. I dun have to c ppl's attitude at work, dun have to c faces in the family, I can go out rent my own rm, I dun have to owe anybody a favours n end up enduring their attitudes as though I owe them my life..

Money just sucks.. I hate them yet I need them badly.. r/s wise, ntg to update.. as usual its gg up n downs.. gd times turn bad times again.. it has always been a cycle.. i'm so tired... at such times, I really can't afford to add on stress to myself.. if the r/s is gg to add on to my load, its really too hard 4 me to handle... I'm currently experiencing a very rough time in my life.. I seriously nid some1 supportive n understanding.. dun have to lighten my load, but at least dun add on to it..

health, is still fluctuating.. ppl ard me coughing, i'm oso coughing,.. now I'm still coughing.. having an irritated throat.. the doctor's prescription still haven;t cured me fully.. sian lo I wasted dunno how many $ on doc le.. now currently dunno wat's wrong again.. ytd I'm having a flu, today i'm having a burned lips.. Wonder when will I fully recover from the illness.. being alive on earth, is really tough...

As 4 activities wise.. actually is boring.. but wat to do, besides this, there's ntg I can do.. cuz other activities nid physical $.. and my $ is getting lesser n lesser.. the only thing is doing unwise activities but at the same time, dun nid to spend too much.. but its a gamble ba.. I mean even if lose, dun have to pay immediately, unlike gg lan, or go out like tat.. the $ is flowing out immediately, depending on the amt of $ I have...

Wat else, mahjong n cards is wat i'm playing over the weekends n some weekdays nite wif wil.. Sian lo.. maybe i'm not smooth in my life tat watever I play, I didn;t win..erhmm but this super long weekend, I so called got recover a bit of my losses la.. sat I went serangoon to play wif kwen n his frds mj, well I managed to win 20.. recover my losses for the previous week.. I lost almost 50.. overall stilll lose la.. but yet I have to take cab hm.. waste $..

Then sun play wif wil, ben at bro's hse.. Ser played b4 she went 4 the frd's wedding dinner.. we won 4.80 b4 she left.. I take over.. wa.. hard luck.. in the end of the game, I lost 4.50.. wil was so lucky cuz duck is a horse.. so brings luck to wil who's a snake.. it has been tested cuz tat time bro's grandma, a horse oso brings luck to wil.. n he won a lot.. duck 1st time join us, breaks my record of having losing the most.. In actual he lost 83.. but since he 1st time here, they nv times 1.5 to his lost..

Well cards game I lost to wil as usual.. Nvm,, wait 4 ben to finish his exams, n its time we 3 play tog, n I have to dep on ben to recover my losses too haha.Anyway other game is PSP which ding lend me.. I'm not into Bleach RPG game, I started playing n feel the urge to complete it.. Sian i'm worried i'm not able to complete b4 26 dec, but promise to rtn at tat time, so have to rtn by then ba.. but he wants it back to borrow his cousin, so c whether he can hold until 26 dec then take back or not hehe..(begging ding)

Erhmm think tat's ntg else 4 me to blog le ba.. can't think of anymore things to blog..i stop 4 now, n awaits the weekends to come again.. endure a few more days my suffering at the workplace will be over... but comes other sufferings...I lost.. I dunno which path I can take in my life.. Felt so helpless.. Just hope 2009 will be a better year ahead..

bubbles of sadness.