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Last time i'll ever be heart broken

Well losing someone whom you love is really a very tough matter.. Haha i have seen the most horrible side of a human being. Yea, love such thing can appearance in many form..however, out of so many, only rare cases will we see the true love.. Well painfully i have let a ger whom i truly love, go again.. Such processes is really uncertain n unbearable.. For how long, is this wound gonna stay till i heal myself n ready for a new r/s?

Till date, i can't find yet a woman who can truly loves me for who i am, but only find 2 woman, who has enter a r/s wif me, only to find, they love me, yet the love is not true.. Dun have to breath a word, but the heart is able to feel it.. The 1st r/s end very long ago, hence i dun wish to bring anything further out.. Since the 2nd r/s is completely over, i can say out le.. ntg to hide..

My 2nd r/s was better than the 1st 1..yet oso the worst... 2 extremes...it started off 2 yrs ago from now.. well she had a bf of 7 yrs n i noe her thru audi.. ended up out of many incidents, out of my awareness, i become a third party, who ever felt so lowly, wounded n those painful experiences still hurts me as though its ytd..I really hate those days..

Such a r/s shldn;t have continue..i can only blame myself cuz i shld be strong enough to end it earlier, rather than drag it until i was the 1 who end up being hurt eventually..Yea, now she has left for another guy, while our r/s, ended up quite recently.. She has a record, of seeing me while she has a bf, i shld have expected the same thing that'll happen to me in the end..

Yea its true.. I have been keeping this secret for super long.. carrying this all by myself..I'm tired..i can;t take it anymore.. During the last period of our r/s, she has already been in contact wif this jerwin guy for quite some time, even to the extent of behind my back, which i end up finding out the truth myself..She doesn't even spare a tot for my feelings, considering that she hurt me very much tat time when she was wif her ex..

I was treated very badly in the past, n even now it doesn't turn any better.. yup i knew it..they end up tog eventually.. of cuz, that guy got a car, much more capable than me.. i believe tat if a woman who truly loves me, think she won't hurt me so badly to such an extent.. so much hurt was done in the past, including the times we were tog..I can't c any true love in her eyes.. Such a ger, i can't give her any happiness she wans..

I looked into her facebook not long ago, my heart was indeed shattered... Yea can u imagine, the same thing i'm facing yet again.. The last time was seeing pictures of her n her ex, the way she smile, hugging her ex in the photo.. the way she hug me, the way she kiss me etc, then now, its not even long, i saw her hugging this new guy in the photo, smiling like a normal person, who was dating with this guy for a very long time.

THink in this world, there's many ppl oso like her ba.. can u imagine this? I was blind to love such a woman.. Not to say, from the picture, she must have even went to his hse.. I wan to let it go le la..She is not worth my love..Painful indeed... I can't blog anymore now.. this will be the last time i will be so heartbroken i hope.. just dun look at anymore of her things, i hope i'll 4get her completely..

bubbles of sadness.