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113th Day without Serene

I'm feeling extremely lousy.. Ytd was indeed a lousy day for me...Everything Doesn't seems to go rite at all.. I'm sick of my life..i woke up unhappily again...I watched unborn on the internet, fast n furious 4 with 30mins left.. To my disappointment, both movies were just average..I came across a new card game, but i dun have time to learnt it well, so i just add to favourite, for me to review it again..

Well, nxt, i went out of the hse unhappy, listening to my mum, reprimanding n nagging at me wif many things tat my head just felt burst..1st was abt my supposedly formal gf, which doesn't exist now..how to reply again? She has left wif another man..happy to hear tat ans? i dreaded each time they/she said, siding after her, telling me how gd she is, to cherish her..Come on, things weren't so gd as they have see..

I admit she's gd in some ways, but some of the major things cannot be neglected..she has done quite a no. of things tat a couple who experienced this, finds it hard to forgive n the r/s is permanently gone.. I have forgive her all the time..no matter how hurt n painful i felt.. And now, she has left for another man... Its really too much for me to bear.. i can't bring myself to forgive her another time..

During the times when we were still together, i saw her still mingering ard with that guy, i already forsee such outcome.. i warned her, i plead her to do stg abt it, if she cherish our r/s.Instead, ntg was done, except pushing the blame on me..Now things have turned out this way, i wish her happiness.. Dun wish to talk abt such pains again...

Leaving the hse, i went to arcade to played my 3 tokens..play wif this boring person street fighter 4, i won't none, cuz he really pissed me off.. i felt so lousy..seem like ntg i do, was smooth n i'm not capable of anything..ben n wil come, we headed to play cards..I was just playing like a mess..of cuz i lost in every kind of games i played...

Finally until the end, ard 3am, something unhappy happened again..Well i'm a person who likes every thing to be fair n square..UNder such circumstances, whether i win or lose, i felt its worth it, the results comes out wifout the hinderance or influence of other ppl.. Even if i lose, i admit it honourably, as i deserve to lose.. we play taidi as our last hr game b4 we headed home..

I was the 1 wif the most cards in tat rd..ben was left wif 2 cards, n wil was left wif 9 cards..on the drawing pile, its a remainder of 1 card for wil to draw if he decides to pass..In this case wil will be left wif 10 cards.. n i'm left wif 12 cards if i lose.. the game play is, 10 cards n above remaining on the hand, when the game is ended, will e a double..13 cards above remaining in the hand when the games ended, will be a triple..

the big 2s were all used up..left wif aces. ben obviously let out a strong hint that he's gonna win n trap somebody..wil knowing that i have the most cards, will be more affected to take the card despite getting a double of 10 cards.. furthermore, he got the highest card left in his suit, he don't wish to guard him..that's how they game.. its obviously a pair up against me..

He shouldn't remind wil n as a fair play, he shld be keeping quiet abt it.. when i have the remaining highest card in my hand n was abt to game, i didn't disclose it up, until i let the card out myself...looking upon this i'm not satisfied wif the results..injustice was the feeling i have.. anyway to solve this issue, like wat wil suggested, 1 buck for the winner, n the game forfeited.. anyway i paid for the injustice lost...

bubbles of sadness.