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122th Day without Serene

Shocked that i'm able to blog today at such time, when i'm supposed to be at work? Yeah, i didn't go work.. Its really happening lately..Not on the bright side, but on the down side again.. Hmm things always turn so bad for me... What's this time again? Well ytd i'm supposed to go for work, but cuz my mum was sick n i have to help her tend the baby while she went to c a doc...

Since the whole 1st half was gone, i didn't go to work the 2nd half.. Ben called me n i went to mit him n wil for cards sessions.. 2 sad incident occurred...1st incident was, gr bro came wif sara n baoyu.. I'm of cuz happy to c them after a long while..So was jx who came suddenly to chat wif them... Well what upsets me was, bro says, i'm fat..yeah i admit i have grown fat, after all those slacking n stuffs.. a lot of things happened n i got no mood to do anything...

Ppl at such time, shld be heavily training up, shaping their body so as to find a new better gf.. However, the me now, was like, didn't wan to bother abt anything.. i really start to neglect abt my own image like i usually does.. the me now, just eat n slack.. i have no interest shaping up my figure.. of cuz to stay healthy is impt la.. my clothes like can wear as i'm too big..

So bro's words stuck me, though all these while, i have been disciplining myself to go jogging n exercise but lots of things have been gg ard in my head, tat i didn't got any mood to do anything... wonder when i can move on like how she did, fast n swift.. hard too.. i missed her even till now..love her so much..that its hard to take my love back asap..but no turning back now..Ok leave bro's remarks to 2nd half of the story in the night..

2nd sad thing, i'm not sure whether this person got read my blog or not, so i shall not disclose the names until that day passed.. the 3 of us were playing cards at mac, then i was so astonished to c some1's gf approaching me at mac..of cuz tis person is we all noe the la.I even went out wif him n his gf a few times..She came in the absence of her bf, telling me tat she want to give him a surprised birthday party..if cuz we need to help her in keeping secret n the preparations..

ben n wil faster said so envy...the gf is so sweet...Haha of cuz, who weren't envy of such a nice gf..We also thought that it'll be great to hav such a gf..it was a total surprise..i always love such kind of surprises.. yup tat's the 2 sad thing..other than tat, was i played cards wif them, teach them a new game, called wyoming cowboy..its fun, but they said not nice.. sian.. always play same game..

So play until 10, i win 7 bucks..wil lost, ben win..ok then since we end early, i decided to go 4 a jog.. bro's word, also helps to firm my heart to exercise.. Since its night n the weather is much cooler, i dun have the discipline to wake up at 6am everyday to jog, i decided to change n went for a jog..Ended up.. i got a swollen right leg as a gift for jogging..

I warmed up b4 jogging, i only started jogging a few steps, i was blocked by a group of youngsters walking towards my direction. Hence i decided to move to the grass area to get pass them..ended up, i lost my footing on the grass area, there goes my right leg..It was a bad sprain..my leg go numb at 1st n the pain starts to come n it gets painful till the extend tat i could walk..

I tot my leg was dislocated n gone.. it was so painful tat i remove my shoe n sit pathetically on the floor..i could't stand, even i sit there, the pain is still there..no matter how i position my leg, the pain just wouldn't go off, there's no comfort zone for me to put my leg..i pressed on it hard n my luck was really so bad? Few ppl passed by me each time, just looking n staring at me as though they were watching free show..

Even got 2 woman walked pass n 1 of them said to the other, "wat's wrong with tat guy?" What the freak..nvm, i dunno sit how long there, n those stupid big red ants kip coming to bit me..i have to kip whacking wif my damn shoe.. Furthermore the wind was blowing so strongly n the clouds were so red.. Yeah..at such time, its gonna rain heavily...I really felt so helpless n pathetic...

I'm lost, i feel like giving up.. my cellphone was at hm, cuz i dun bring my hp along when i jog.. Freaking ridiculous..finally i grab everything, n hop myself, struggling back hm.. as usual, only reprimanding, n no concern which i yearn for from my mum.. Tat's y, i'm seeking for a type of concern which i can c from my partner for life.. Bet if she's still wif me, her reaction will be like my mum.. Scolding, then showing mild concern by passing me the medicine to rub my leg tat's all..

bubbles of sadness.