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125th Day Without Serene

Another a quarter of 100th Day has passed. Hmm haven't been updating abt my news for this few days.. Movement was so hard, hence i got moody quite lately..Life wifout a leg is extremely tough..Furthermore, its my master leg which was injured..I was so disheartened.. What will happen to my dreams? Dancing, Modelling? Dun say abt dreams..Even doing the things which i want has become impossible..

Friday, i spent the whole day at home..dun even feel like doing anything.. my at times still leave me at home to take care of baby newphew..Its really tough..to chase after newphew when he wakes up from his slp, on dunno wat to call it..Something which is hanging on the air..Fear tat he kicks his way out of the thing, n fall on the ground.. Or when i hear noise, i have to move to there to shake him to slp again..or when he's awake, i have to carry him (he's chubby n heavy like me when i was a baby).Cuz he now dun like to lie facing up or down..

Other than tat, going to bath n relief myself.. Going to places at my hse to get things.. I felt so helpless n useless... Changing clothes was worse..esp my shorts..i can't even stand to change it..Ytd saturday, luckily my Jiefu sent me to marsiling wif his car for my appt at the chinese doctor.. to changing bandage, to massage my leg..i was told to go for another appt on mon..sian lots of money gonna wasted again...

He told me my leg was dislocated..1st time i ever dislocate my bones..the experience was horrible..Its better than the 1st day...so i can walk very slowly, wifout the clutches.. Ben n wil come to fetch me at home to sp, to eat lunch.. so i play cards wif them b4 they fetch me back home at night..The bandage cuz me to itch a lot...

bubbles of sadness.