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152th Days Without Serene

When i thought that things will finally tone down, where i'll have some peace.. Things sturred up even worse than earlier on. Why are there always ppl who doesn't even noe the full pic, keeps ranting as though they noe everything? I was so disturbed just now, that i couldn't even have a room to breath in..There's many things that happened in btw, that i didn't blog them down, partly cuz its only btw us..

Have anyone really being able to place themselves in my shoe, use their very own eyes, feelings to feel what i have been thru? Of cuz not only superficially, but really seriously enter my world n see for themselves.. Did they really so concerned abt this matter, that they really listened carefully abt my part of the story? Everything starts at the very beginning.

Its not what things can be write down easily.. Who says the past is not impt? It does have an impact on what we are today.. Without past, there'll not be any present, neither do we have any future to talk abt.. I wished to speak out, but do i have a really attentive ears who can listen to my heart? Or just ppl who assume that they noes everything by being an observer from one of the sides, makes judgement just like this?

Everything happens for a reason.. some reasons can be gd, some may be bad. in my case, after so many -ve things that happened in the past, after we were tog, if its minor issues, i dun mind.. i can forget n 4give.. But i already stated that there's some issues thats really serious n even if one were to experience it, faces difficulty in dealing wif this..

Furthermore, its not only once but few times.. Which explains for the break n patch thingy, n how i ended up to become some1 who i dun even recognise myself.. No doubt she's still her own usual self, but by ignoring the issue of the past, as though ntg has happened, isn't gonna work things out on my part.. It has developed a kind of shadow over me, n i'm not able to deal wif it myself..

By saying this isn't any detailed at all. i dun have so much time for this now.. For watever reasons, any thing has now turn bad on me. I'm only the one seen as the bad guy, a guy who's is the only 1 at fault in the r/s, hence she left me for gd is cuz of my own problem. So what choice do i have? Pour everything out, and stop ppl from accusing me for everything superfical? Or just let tongues go on whacking me? I have suffered for so long, now i tot i have peace, yet i do not wish to go thru this a again.

Everything always has its time n place. its just tat my time n place happens to fall on the wrong side, that's y ppl who see's the surface things, just let them say whatever they like. For i believed there's many kinds of ppl ard, i'm sure to have others who can see things on a deeper side as well. Such type of ppl will be the wants who can easily enter my heart, which seems hard for others.

bubbles of sadness.