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201th Day Without Serene

Memories of 9th July 2009 (Thursday)

Hmm lots of things happened in 1 single day that I’m packed with activities throughout the day. I just finished preparing my things and hence here I am blogging down what happened, while waiting for my hair to dry. In the morning, I spend time reading a mysterious ger’s blog. Haven’t completed since last night, I tried to finish it. Some of her post, really were so interesting n caught my attention..(Abt life, love, studies, meanings etc..) set me into thinking at times.. To some extent I agree wif some things, to some, it sets upon reflection..

Besides that, are my routine stuffs in the morning. Insufficient rest as I’m disturbed from my slp every weekend, early in the morning. (slp quite late recently) Well baby nephew is slp this few days, having fever to abt almost 39 degree n so I have to be extra helpful in helping my mum to look after the baby. Cuz she’s tied down wif the other baby niece, having to help her prepare her things n bring her to sch..

Hence recently morning is the most tiring.. Since I have to wake up early, I on the com, while looking after him, listening to this favourite song, from ‘the Man in the Vineyard’. (song I upload in my blog. See video) Well the song was so sentimental that my baby nephew likes the song too. Being tog for some time, of cuz u’ll gradually noe what are his likes and dislikes, if u use ur heart to do. The same theory applies even to a baby..
Moral : The quality of your actions, depends on how much heart you put in in your effort to do it.

My mum is falling sick too. Her throat is feeling painful, so do i.. I’m starting to feeling sick soon. Sinus problem starts again, this time, I’m feeling very heaty inside my nose.. The air tat comes out from my nose, feels hot.. My tongue was having the feeling of ulcer, yet I seemed like having a flu. Starting to cough a little to, n I begin to monitor my temperature, but only this seem alright..

For the past few days, it was like raining. For instance, day 1, was raining whole day, and I rmb I didn’t even left hse tat day. (A record cuz usually I’ll leave hm ard late afternoon, close to evening time to sun plaza etc, depending on my activities.) I was feeling cold, n heavy head that I uses my blanket to cover myself wherever I move..Day 2, the rain become heavy but short.. however it come in few times in tat day itself.. Did went out in the evening time, but short period only.. cuz I dun feel well..Day 3, dark clouds, but ended up sunny day throughout.. Weather seem weird so tat could be the reason I’m feeling sick.. But, whether its heaty or cold, I’m not really sure..

Btw my voice changed..Ppl’s voice usually chg in a coarse voice due to the throat infection. But in my case, it’s the nose.. So chi chars (bi2 yin1) is what will occur when I speak.. sounds funny though..

Interview wif Prudential

Well I have received many calls from this agent for a very long time, since I defer her call several times.. I first received her call many months ago, I think ard few months back while I in the revision of my exams..I can’t rmb which frd of mine, sabo me by giving her my contact no..So I told her I have no intention of having any plans until I have a stable job when I grad, as I have many other priorities for me at this current moment other than having long term savings..

I did tot abt it as it seem like a gd move to have long term savings..however, its quite impossible for me who is unemployed for more than half a yr, living on my depleting savings, to talk abt savings plans now. Furthermore, I’m still giving up my nxt yr study in exchange for sch fees for the nxt yr. Hopefully I can grad asap n complete my last stretch of basic studies. (at least a degree on hand, more degrees or further studies, talk abt it way further in my life)

Ok dun off track too far as I have more to blog.. So after my exams, she really called me to follow up again.. times after times.. at 1st I dunno the no. so I answered it, only to noe she’s from prudential. So my job at nus happened to stop work as the project has put to a temporary stop n only left is waiting for news from them, which seemed like nv return any call..(Btw I even dreamt on 1 nite tat, they found a new ppl le)

So she tried to plan an appt so I told her I’m waiting for calls so I can’t cfm wif her when. So she said she’ll call nxt mon to cfm wif me again.. So this time, I tried to be clever, I saved her office no. So mon comes n she really called. I saw that no, I tried to ignore it. The no. call several times (diff timings) in 1 day.. so irritating.. Besides, it went on even for a few days.. Until 1 day, I saw another unknown no, I went to receive it. (I’m looking for job, so all unknown calls are very impt to me)

She caught me.. So I tried to shift another day by telling her tat I’ve yet to receive call from my employer.. So she just say arrange a time. So I say ok on 1 of the weekdays on tat week.. I told her in the same polite manner that i dun wish her to waste a trip down as I really dun have the intention to have any plans at this moment until somewhere along the path in the nxt few yrs, when I’m ready for that..

But she still insist.. So persistent.. So anyway on that day, I actually dun feel well, those heaty n feeling cold.. So I told her I’m not feeling well n she noes my routine as I explain to her that I’m not free as I have to help baby sit for my mum at some timings in the weekdays. She sounded understanding n ask me to take care n arrange another appt wif me.. Well I’m embarrassed abt ignoring her calls n delaying it many times, besides her persistent really makes me feel her sincerity partly, but oso I wanna end this misery of receiving unwanted call. Fulfilling her wish for wanting to make a wasted trip, so I fixed it on this day itself.. At ard 2.30pm, where she come down to mit me.

However, when its few hrs from the mtg time, I actually dun feel like gg again.. Besides I dunno y suddenly today I have so many activities tat came last min.. When there’s none, I can really be bored until I feel sick n lazy.. last nite, though I missed nel’s bd cele, cuz its way too exp for my budget, n many complications here n there during the organizing, I decided not to go. So I sms him abt my reasons n he asked me out to go sing k today. His bd is today.

About 8th July, Wed activities

Speaking abt ytd (8th July, Wed) I oso have some activities, went for a cheaper place to eat wif wil, duck n ding. (I only knew ding join us at the last min when I met them.) We went to seoul garden to have student steamboat. Its way much cheaper haha. But too bad, ding nv told me earlier that he’s gg, so I can’t help him abt the student price (He’s in NS)

Then we enjoyed ourselves there, eating, joking ard, n chatting lots of stuffs n finally headed to catch transformer 2 as I have promised wil to watch wif him.. Its my 2nd time watching, but this time at a better seat..however, cwp cinema, really not gd la.. uncomfortable seat. But nice movie is worth catching 2nd time. Got few touching scene where the prime died while saving sam, n the part where sam thought was dead. It didn’t fail to touch me a 2nd time. (Haha libras are emotional n sentimental ppl)

Anyway the movie was so long n we watch it at 5.15 timing. Ding n duck had promised to go for the steamboat at novena/Newton for nel’s cele at 7.30pm.(they both were crazy to be able to eat 2 steamboats at 1 day. Maybe they are having puberty now haha.) This movie is so long, n obvious they’ll be late. N of cuz the bd boy is unhappy. So anyway tat’s abt it for this day.

Back to 9th July, Thursday.

Ok so supposed to sing k wif nel, but ended up receive no calls from him, except for an unexpected call from my sec sch bro. Think he’s the only sec frd I’m left wif to contact wif. (mtg him occasionally). He asked me out for lunch n the idea of push the prudential appt strengthen. However, 1 must keep promise la..So I’m stuck at hm initially as mum need to run some errands outside..so can’t cfm the mtg time.

Finally, I packed my things n decided to bring my laptop out to watch movies at sp. Met sec bro, Derek and we hav lunch together.. We anyway out mtg have comes up wif lots of several unexpected activities, which I shall say ltr.. So after lunch, we sit down n chat while waiting for the agency to come, since I’m early..(unsually shld be the agent waiting for the client. I’m always experiencing the oppo case, I’m waiting instead of her. Dunno shld I call myself lucky or unlucky). So after awhile, finally she’s here. I dun wan Derek to be Sabo, or drag down by me, I asked him to wait at the arcade, as she told me tat the mtg will be short..

Mtg wif the agent, Jennifer.

Hmm as expected, agent use their secret weapons, appearance as a first impression, for a gd presentation. I must admit, I’m attracted to mature lady, esp those in office wear. (However I’m totally turned off by those revealing, act sexy woman. It makes me feel more like a lust than really beauty. Seemed like a loose n indecent feeling instead. My personal preference la. Beauty does not lies on how much flesh u reveal, in my personal opinion. Even the simple, conservative type of attire, wif natural look (no make-ups ; natural appearance) is gd enough. Make-ups are like a mask to me. Natural beauty is good. Anyway beauty lies in the heart rather than the appearance. A very beautiful appearance lady, wif a bad heart, makes a ugly woman.)

Ok back to track. So we sit at mos n have our presentation. She’s really skillful indeed, she didn’t go immediately to the proposal but talking abt other things n seemed as though like a very gd friend of mine. However, deep inside me, I can c her commercialise mask on her face..She trying to hide it wif a face of a gd, close frd.. But I just played along, as its not gd to embarrass some1, n its rude when it comes to social interaction (something to deal wif when enter working life ; social interactions btw colleagues etc. Not like casual talk wif some real close frds, so have to act professional during interaction.) This r some skills even an introvert like me, is forced to learn when I enter into worklife. No matter how much I hate to talk to strangers, I have to talk as there’s only me n her in the conversation. Of cuz, it sounded more like a work than some heart to heart talk wif close frds where I feel at ease..

So finally sometime, she managed to bring the conversation leading to her proposal.. Well it’s a health policy, something to do wif cases when u unexpectedly admitted to hospital. The fees are high, but wif the amt u pay yearly from the medisave, in your cpf, u will be covered to a large extent in the hospital. Some more is private de, got better service as well. (Which I hope so, as I nv been to any private ones b4) .

Since medisave can nv be touched throughout your lifetime, only for hospitalization use in future, some more I dun have to pay any cash in hand, n its worth it to cover my self so as not to burden my family wif my unexpected admittance to hospital, incurring unexpected huge sum of fees.. So I decided to accept the policy ba.. (The jogging incident, the unexpected injuries, during my down times, cost me lots of money for treatment) so I think its better to take up just in case..

Of cuz she tried to talk many things to me la..n ask me lots of things abt me as well..Well, really like an old time friend..She’s oso a leo.. No wonder I sense strong leo personality in her. She behaved some what, to an extent, similar like my ex. So sociable n can talk so smooth wif any strangers they met.. Some more got 1 part more interesting, She is just like my ex in her past. My agent is in a long term r/s of 6 yrs wif her bf. (Mine condition wif my ex was she n her bf was tog for 7 yrs when I noe my ex)

Hmm agent’s bf is 1 yr younger than her. Ie, of same age to me now. But cuz of some issues, like she’s working in this industry, has no time for him n were having lots of conflicts n probs.. Her bf was trying to tie the knot n settle down, but her mindset still not stablise fully.. Scary hor? Of cuz she has her explanations la.. But its just like wat happened when I met my ex.

Well anyway, history is not gonna repeat again. That’s definite! Even when I’m ready to embark a new journey, this is not wat I wanna exp again. Who noes its just 1 of leo’s presenting skills again. Pride n ego r leo’s main thing. Being center of attraction n always wanting to present their best to the ppl them, so naturally they wan to look gd to others la.. So this time I will not believe any words so easily anymore. Anyway no more leo gers in my mind haha. At this point, I’ll think that some1 is gonna say that I’m stereotyping again haha. Well stereotypes can be gd or bad. But at least, it helps me from getting hurt again by the same things.

Unexpected activities

So the chat which supposedly end not more than half an hr, took from 3pm to almost 6pm.. Felt very bad for making Derek waited so long at the arcade. So when I go to find him, he’s playing his virtual striker game. I happened to saw duck there. So I played SF4 with him. Sian his skill getting better than me this time, so is my turn to lose.. However, I won him in the beginning when he’s using his main char, Ryu. I started losing when he change to Balrog.

Anyway its late, so duck keep asking to go eat dinner, so the 3 of us went for dinner tog. Then while having dinner, received a call from Ding, asking us to go prata place to eat with nel n wil. Well I was complaining that nel always last min haha. Say want to sing k, ended up, nv call me as promised to inform me of the time. Then Derek suggested partyworld, So I jokingly ask them whether they wanna go or not, cuz Derek is treating.

Since he said that the price is 48 bucks for a room, for 4 hrs.. (He didn’t go for a long time le). So we were discussing abt it here n there, thru phone, interrupting my dinner. As usual my sec bro is so on, that he say ok, sending us in astonishment. I told him I was kidding but he went ahead, but just kip scolding me in a joking manner. Since we have already eaten, we decided that nel, wil n ding can go prata place 1st, then I can go hm n put my heavy laptop n bring a jacket along.

But ended up, cuz wil n ding took so long to come, the time was so late. Derek went to book the room at woodlands civic centre. And found out that it closes at 1am today. So latest we can go is 9pm. But ended up, they took abt almost 9 to reach arcade.. So they chg their dinner place to sun plaza instead and we headed down by cab. There’s only 4 ppl gg initially, Derek, nel, ding n me. But some how, they managed to pull wil along, who always dun like gg to k box.

Since Derek is treating everybody, so he went, since Derek is gg to order some I dunno wat to call it. Liquor, beer or wine. It’s the 2nd time I drink such kind of things, called ‘Chivas’ I think. Its mixed with green tea. I only drink red wine, this kind of alcohol (not very gd in such fields) but only very seldom on special occasions. The 1st time I tasted chivas was last yr, during my bd, when my jc bro, brought my frds along, n brought us to a pub (oso my 1st time gg to such places) , he often go. There go open ktv, where each table rotate after 2 songs. The gers there dressed so revealing, of cuz its not my cup of tea. That’s y I nv go to such places like club or pub.(I preferred peace places where I can sit comfortably, and listen to live piano performance. This kind of places, I dunno what they call, but think its very costly too.)
So we reached there think ard 12 to the partyworld, so no choice, wasted an hr. Some more, reached there , only to find out that its so ex. I told Derek to forget it, but he insisted.. Of cuz 48 bucks is so cheap.. think dunno how long he nv go le.. The price was abt 200+.. Hmm well thanks to my bro, the rest of my other frds, can enjoy this exp treat from him.. There’s no free meal in this world. Of cuz, when I’m up again, I have to treat him back in rtn.. Owe him a favour le, but we did enjoyed our nites tog singing, just tat its not worth it singing for short hrs..

Hmm anyway it’s the 1st time I hear wil singing. What a nite! Well of cuz I have to carry my heavy laptop all the way, some more wifout jacket, I was wondering how to fight the cold there. Luckily got the liquor, it helps me keep the warmth. After which, Derek suggest for supper..Wa..1st time eat n eat n eat..No wonder his size like tat la.now then I noe his lifestyle like tat… Had a very sinful day.. Cuz of the past r/s, injured leg n plain laziness, I haven’t been keeping my figure in shape..

This nite, is gonna be heavy. Hence have to reduce my food intake back to small servings for the rest of the following days.Aw..i missed those days when my figure was at tip-top condition.. Better start training back, losing those unnecessary fats, b4 I ended up like Derek.. I actually wanna go hm after the k session, but since the rest are gg for the supper at Sem Blk 313 coffeeshop, I joined them since its nearer to my hse..

Chat there n shall call it a day.. Wow it’s a long post n It took me so long to finish this post..This is the price of not being discipline to blog often.. But its my nature to keep blabbering lots of things down, the moment I started to blog.. (Free flow of whatever tat came to my mind, My brain is functioning complicatedly? Rubbish!) Anyway its so late so I stopped at 4.30am n slp at the living rm, n my slp was disturbed again in the morning…So after babysitting, I finally got the time to finish this super long post. Time, 10.04am.

bubbles of sadness.