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*11:48 PM .

Saturday, January 28, 2006

Moments for Fri, 27th Jan 2006 : Though 2day was a boring day at work again, but at least manage 2 noe tat i'm going 2 have a short holidays finally =) Taking leave on nxt wed too, cuz i really dreaded working haha. Well 2day i had lots of unexpected things tat were surprising n at the same time filled me wif lots of emotions... Well 1st of all was late 4 work, ended up, didn't bring my favourte cd 2 lend wen 2 listen.. Well but saw her online cuz she nv go sch *grinz* (ponten) so upload my favourite track 4 her in her blog.. Hmm she said a sentence tat really surprises me.. Hmm let tat be a secret 4 us ba haha. Well was quite happy thought.. as both of us should be able 2 noe wat we r thinking...
Well 2nd was my past... she actually online n talked 2 me... Well its been 1 mth.. i won't 4get... on the 27th Dec 2005...we had a big quarrel on the phone, n its over... its her fault n yet she didn't 1 2 admit it.. 27th Jan 2006... Here she is...msg me in msn... n even call me... Thinking of how badly she treated me in the past, n yet... i'm 4ever so soft-hearted tat i still answered her phone n reply her... perhaps tat's my charateristic ba... well anyway... i believe her appearance sure changed..but wat a pity...her char still remains the same... still as worst as the past... But anyway happy tat she's safe n sound.. n happy these days... I can feel tat she's trying 2 patch things up... but between love n future happiness... i hoped 2 get both of cuz... however i loved my past a lot.. however she couldn't provide me future happiness in future...unless seh really changed 4 the better... I'm looking 4 a serious soul mate...i loved her n just a pity tat she isn't the 1...wif her current char...unless she really changed...
Finally after work... sry readers...these few days blog, i took such a long time 2 update, cuz my hse com was a big insane, as i dunno when my bro change the anti-virus n i couldn't access the internet at home 2 update my blog these days... thus the blog was somehow messy n i just have 2 put the main things inside... other minor things... i'll try n place them inside, if i managed 2 recall... 2day's after work, i'm very shocked n troubled... Wen, Br, me, Kw, Cy.. n perhaps some others, but i just couldn't recall... we decide 2 go play pool...supposed 2 meet at doby ghaut mrt after my work at 5.45pm...however... Cy actually wants 2 meet me at chinatown mrt n go doby ghaut 2 meet the rest wif me.... CUz she went wif her cousin 2 buy things.. Well it makes me think of my past, where she used 2 fetch me after work... But i dun wish 2 see this.... i mean dun wish 2 meet Cy there... Well ended up...no choice, along the way, i try 2 ease the tense atmosphere.. in fact, i had read the letter she passed 2 me...Just tat i dunno how 2 reply her... not ready yet...
Finally met wen n Br at doby ghaut mrt... wat a relief... we went 2 mos burger at ps 2 wait 4 the rest of the ppl.... well we had a talk... but Cy was very quiet n sad... i noe wat actually is the reason behind, just tat i choose 2 keep quiet... went feel very bad tat i didn't manage 2 lend the cd 2 wen, so i just let her listen 2 the music... n i try 2 focus my attention 2 wen n Br... Finally every1 turn up n we went 2 parklane... We had a lot of fun... though 1 person spoilted the atmosphere there...n tat's Cy.. yes... the reason is me again... but wat can i do... some things just can't be helped... i just need a small space in my heart, where i can hide inside n be alone 2 sort things out... Well the game just went on.. yet i lost 2 wen...really didn't manage 2 put my heart 2 play cuz of many things in my mind... how i wish peace.... nvm...patience... 2 bad, billard was full so kw dun get a chance 2 play... Well play finish, i think go mac eat n we headed back home ba... rest of the things...couldn't remember....Btw...almost 4get.. i'm going 2 shop 4 last min new yr clothes on New yr eve n my past offered 2 follow me.... ok tat's all 4 this day....

bubbles of sadness.

*9:59 AM .

Friday, January 27, 2006

Moments for Thurs, 26th Jan 2006 : Well another day of boring work for me... I was late 4 work again...Well after lunch ard almost 3pm, i spoke 2 dawn on the phone... Well 1st time she was so hot-tempered 2ward me.. Well perhaps i pissed her off this time... Well but wat can i do? She say my sms was straight n hurtful, but actually she doesn't noe tat i'm turning a big circle... Well anyway, i does things was always placing others ahead 4 me... Just tat she wasn't able 2 see it wif her heart..cuz such things simply just couldn't be seen wif a naked eye alone... Though everyone r different...but some of Dawn's char...really resembles my past's char...the char which i really dreaded... She wasn't able 2 understand me wif her heart, instead wif her eyes...sometimes, its just the surface we sees, using our eyes alone...without using ur heart, u'll never ever going 2 get a clear pic or understand a person... ah...headache... ulcer in my throat was just nice 2 company me 2 the emotions i'm having now... 2day was the worst day i have ever had... i called many of my friends, yet all were either busy or having a date wif their gfs..ah..gfs...single isn't better? unless i manage 2 find a my soulmates...
Finally pulling myself off from a tiring day's work... Well manage 2 find Terence (monkey) n meet him at doby ghuat..however, becuase he already has a dinner appt, thus i'll be alone at ps waiting 4 him... Well 2nite, i was alone... very lonely the feeling was... Well can't get used 2 having dinner outside alone now... not 2 say lunch in office alone cuz there nobody in the office... Thus i just went 2 ps arcade 2 play while waiting 4 monkey.. Well he will only be meeting me ard 9pm +, thus 4 3 hrs, i'm alone... playing n challenging ppl kof XI, well manage lots of wins though, but my heart ain't happy at all.. Well finally 10pm, terrence call me 2 meet him ard parklane area... Well i was very hungry, so i went 2 buy dinner n walk 2wards parklane while having my dinner...poor me... suddenly feeling very low... Well meet him n we went 2 snookerum 2 play a game of billoard n few rds of pool...Wow...Monkey was an expert...i think he can play against my bro... Wif him, a game of billard didn't take 2 long... thus u should noe how skillful he is... well i lost of cuz...Nxt up, pool...Well i can't recall i lost how many rds, but i only noe i win him once...
After tat, actually i thought of going home, but monkey wants 2 play kof 02 wif me, since so long we nv play le... Well he has shifted away from sem..thus we seldom get 2 see each other very often le... time really flies n change...Thus we played n hmm the joystick wasn't tat gd...so was the button...but wat do u expect from a game which has 1 free credit wif 1 token? Well quite enjoyable..n was surprised tat news abt me n my past travelled real fast... even monkey knew tat i n my past wasn't 2gether anymore... I won't 4get... 27th Dec 2005..the day i was sick... n we had a big quarrel on phone... i couldn't get the love, care n concern from my past's heart, but only words...i have been tolerating this, not 2 say other things, 4 2 yrs +.... everything's gone after tat incident...Well time is merciless, n i had 2 bid monkey farewell, n time was very late...i took a cab home... Something surprising happened...should i call it fate...
I was so surprise abt this Muslim taxi driver... my long journey home was a very fruitful one, cuz i nv expect a taxt driver could teach me 1 factor of the way of life... N looking at me, who's more educated than him, i felt ashamed of myself...However, learning was 4ever, n i listen 2 his teachings.. well nv expect 2 befriend a taxt driver... His teaching was 1, which i thought, i always had in my char...However, i realised tat i'm wrong...The teaching consist of 1 simple word, which its easier 2 say, than done.. n tat's none other than..."patience"... 2 enhance the word... "consistent patience" Well thought i'm a very patient person like wat many of my friends describe me as... who very rarely lost my patience or temper ard... but after hearing his teachings... i dun think i'm a patient person afterall.. Being patient isn't this way...mine was just bottling up, n tolerating...tolerance doesn't mean patience... I told him tat patience had its limit, however, he was against my ideas in a very humble n pleasant way... he told me tat's not patience, being patience doesn't mean u will ever explode... but being patience is being consistent wif managing ur temper... irregardless under watever circumstances...1 must never ever lost ur own coolness... being hot temper doesn't solve anything.. only consistent patience will be able 2 bring calmness n coolness 2 1 self... As long as u mind ur own self discipline, tat's gd enough, not 2 care abt how unreasonable any person treated u... Well i'm not sure whether i explained clearly over here, but... as long as i'm able 2 understand myself is enough =)
Even after i reached my destination, my hse downstair, we were still talking =) n of cuz, we stopped the meter =) Well the charge was 19.50, however, i tell him 2 keep the change, cuz i felt bad tat i kept his time 4 chatting wif me instead of working n earn $..Besides he did teach me something 2 my way of life... N 2 think tat he's even thinking of charging me only $19 4 being making a friend haha.. Well its fate tat i met him n we both wish each other n hopefully, fate will bring us meet again... A meaningful day... tat i'll remembered his teachings 4 life... reached home 1.23am n retired 2 bed...

bubbles of sadness.

*9:37 AM .

Thursday, January 26, 2006

Moments for Wed, 25th Jan 2006 : Wat an unexpected thing happened 2day... Well received an sms the moment i wake up... My past actually sms me... Well dunno should be happy or should i be sad... Well... She sms me, wishing me happy Chinese new yr ended wif a =)... I dunno whether is she sms wrongly or its true the sms is meant 4 me... But anyway, i replied her sms, as i always does, wish her back n not 2 4get, its an impt day...actually, 4 both of us... 25th... is the day when we finally get 2 noe each other, after seeing each other 4 ard a yr... counting 2day, we'll have noe each other 4 2 yrs 5 mths... Perhaps i'm the only 1 who's counting the days right from the very start... N i'll always remember this date 4 life... even if its 4gotten by others... well as usual i woke up late n was 11mins late 4 work... work was same... but this time, i n dawn nv sms... until ard 10am plus, she sms me a gd morning....which she usually does, the moment she wakes up... Well i n her, r really worsening i guess.. Well this time her sms was, "gd morning, if i didn't sms u, u won't sms me rite? i think it won't bother u rite?"Something like tat... well wif so much things in my head, i replied her asap...
Finally lunch time n knock off work... Well feeling very boring after work 2..nowadays... Well planned 2 meet Zhiqun, my old badminton friend, out 4 a badminton game, since so long nv play wif him le... i went back sem, go sun plaza play a few rds of kof XI n saw Cr Duck there... Well told him i'm going 2 play badminton, n he wanna join me later, so i went home 2 have dinner 1st... while waiting 4 dinner 2 b ready, i on my com n msn.. Thus bella chat wif me... N we talked abt many things... til dinner is ready i finish my dinner n bid bella farewell... Well its gd 2 keep in touch wif some friends we dun get 2 contact each other often... Knowing tat they r getting along fine, happy 4 them... Thus i went prepare n meet Cr Duck.. B4 going 2 the badminton court opposite sun plaza 2 meet Zhiqun.. Well saw him n his gf waiting 4 us there...was quite envy of him... esp when i look at myself...
Well long time nv play badminton le, but Zhiqun confirm still playing n improved alot... Well this time, i bet i'll lose 2 him in singles... Him i let Cr Duck play wif him 1st as i always need 2 stretch myself n warm up 1st b4 playing...This time stretch my lazy bones, which nv exercise 4 few yrs... Was quite stiff.. Cr Duck was quite gd O.o! but Zhiqun was much more better..Match ended 15 - 2. Cr Duck was thrashed haha..Well nxt up was me...Well expected my skills have degraded by a lot !!!! Haiz used 2 win him... but now, my body was 2 lazy 2 move, no stamina, n my skills r poor.. Zhiqun really improved a lot... admit defeat... Cr Duck's turn again n he lost again haha.. Finally the 2nd match against Zhiqun... the match was closed.. but not a fair game cuz of the wind sometimes n Zhiqun was losing his stamina.. We even had a tie 14 - 14 n deuce... n i manage a close victory of 17 - 16.. close shave... So i vs Cr Duck nxt.. But because i was very tired... i lost 2 him O.o!!!! un believable... Well the lights of the badminton court turn off at 10pm sharp as usual n so we had 2 call it a day... Though lost 2 Zhiqun now... hope 2 had a match wif him some other day... haha he makes my motivation up in badmintion once again... Will train back my skills n win Zhiqun once again..=)
After the game, we bid Zhiqun farewell, then i n Cr Duck went sp mac 2 rest.. thought of resting down n play cards..but nv expect 2 saw samuel n Ivan there... Thus we end up chatting, while Cr Duck was hungry after the game, went 2 buy food 2 eat... Well dunno y we end up talking abt relationship prob... well n my past was mentioned... Cuz samuel n Ivan are oso my past's friends... Well samuel already heard the news of break up 2 our 2 yrs + relationship... Except 4 Ivan... Thus i told her abt everything..n finally they understand... Hmm heard from Samuel tat he saw my past hanging outside wif a same guy... Should be Clarance Ho i guess... 1 yr younger than my past... n my past claim 2 samuel tat they were just merely friends... Well on this very day, the 25th... heard such news from samuel...haha very funny.. or should i be sad... anyway watever my past was doing now, isn't 2 my concern anymore... well play abit of cards... can see tat Ivan's learning ability was very slow... Samuel is ok ok .. Cuz Ivan has no interest in cards ba haha.. After playing halfway, Cr Duck was very tited, thus he left early n Ivan went 2 buy food 2 eat... Thought of going home, but no choice... have 2 keep my word n company her.. I showed magic tricks n play the fortune game wif them til its time 2 left... Send both of them 2 the mrt b4 heading home...
Well Dawn didn't sms me...only a few... something was really wrong here... i know she's angry wif me ba.. But wat 2 do... Sometimes things r just beyond my control... n i was being forced 2 sms her in this way.. Dun wish 2 talk abt wat things actually happened btw us, but all i call say is, under many circumstances, i'll have 2 do things against my wish n treat dawn, wif sms which i'm not saying from my heart.,.. Hope she understand, but i guess she sure wouldn't understand the reason behind me 4 treating her this way....But my intention was actually...4 her very own gd...
B4 i end this...not 2 4get...2day used 2 be me n my past's day... N yet here i am, spending it alone... well things have changed, but my heart isn't... 2 me, things aren't tat easy 2 let go n 4get... but think abt how she treated me, makes me grief... How i wish her char would really changed 4 the better, n our story would have a better ending... haha dream on.. Anyway... tat's how i spend my day... n wonder how she spent this very day... Wif a new guy by her side? haha.. Wonder y my past can have a new guy so fast, n yet i can't make my heart do it... Dun feel like thinking abt it anymore... time 4 a rest...

bubbles of sadness.

*4:58 PM .

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

Moments for Tue, 24th Jan 2006 : Well... Same old boring thing again in office... But surprisingly punctual 4 work... The office door handle was spolit -.-! Went 4 lunch n back 2 same old boring work... Well Cy sms me 2 teach her maths after my work... Finally finish work n thought of going home 2 eat dinner, but changed my mind..Hmm was wondering y Cy got so many classmates n friends, dun 1 2 ask them, yet ask me, a person who haven't been touching books 4 few yrs...
Reach sem n went 2 take a short walk 2 e cinema, while waiting 4 Kw 2 come...Listening 2 my Mp3 player...Well then went arcade find Kw n Cy when they come... We played kof 11 n i spent $2 on it.. Haha the game was quite ok, didn't lose very badly nor thrash 1 another... Haha so exciting playing wif Kw..except very camp -.-! Then i went 2 play drum... hmm the drums r a bit spoilt...sometimes when i hit, the sensitivity is not there.... Finally we when 2 Kfc n i had Or fillet meal 4 dinner.. Save $ n reduce weight =)
Finally teach Cy a bit of maths, which is on graph...Hmm from the way she asked me, i knew many things... 1st, either she didn't pay attention during class or she doesn't understand the lesson... haiz.. She asked the qn which can be given by the egs given in the textbook...thus the main crucial learning of maths is paying attention in class when the teacher is going thru the egs, go home revise the egs again b4 attempting the qns.. tat'll help a lot... if this carrys on 4 long, i dunno wat 2 say... Then 1 thing very comical is Kw, he dun like the way i teach =) (even though i have many ways of teaching) i point out the mistakes in Cy's work.. She can even 4get basic things on the graphs which was taught earlier in sec sch..such as naming the axis, naming the graph -.-! Then when i saw these mistakes, i say deduct marks, n Kw will gif tat Attitude Problem (AP) again haha.. Very funny when he does tat, as i can't help laughing him.. Not 2 say, Wil was oso there wif us 2gether wif Cr Duck.. Dunno Cr Duck study express 4 wat... Cy ask him the qn, he can even say dunno how 2 do...O.o! William haiz...Do homework like not doing like tat.. Do little bit maths, change Chinese, then listen 2 hp music some more...Then Cr duck always down there dragging me play cards wif him... N wil keeps wanting 2 play -.-! Finally, Kw asked a qn on physics abt Joules... Physical even super long nv touch... end up 4getting my A1 O'lvl stuffs... Funniest thing is, they discuss abt whether 2 go 2 a course or not, discuss like old ppl...take so long... N then its time 2 go home..
Well Dawn n i, i guess getting more further apart le ba..though she sms me tat she's jealous, haha but haiz..Some things just isn't right... Well So reach home n watch tv, on com a little while n retire 4 bed....

bubbles of sadness.

*9:34 AM .

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Moments for Mon, 23th Jan 2006 : Once again, the boring work life begins... THough my life outside work has changed...work life is 4ever still so boring n dead... Ocassionally, will still receive a few sms from dawn n my friends... Well seems 2 me, my relations wif dawn was drifting further apart day by day... Hmm anyway work same, go down interview, n not 2 4get, internet spoil -.-! Thus i can't access the internet whole day, but just forcing myself do a bit of this, a bit of that... Hmm 2moro really must concentrate on my work... Its time 2pick myself up.. cuz time is short n my assignments r lining n piling up 4 me 2 complete...hmm lunch time same, n so is after work... well late 4 few mins again... So knock off later a bit...
Finally after work, but like wat i say, life outside of work has changed.. Well i didn't go 2 sem after work.. i went doby ghaut instead.. Well actually is because, i'm meeting my jc buddy, Kwen at doby ghaut... 1 of our friend has met wif a motorbike accident n was hospitalize.. Heard he has broken a leg..he's jackson, my jc friend oso 1 of my dance buddy in jc... He's 2 injury prone... sec sch broke his left hand twice... he oso had apprentite(4get the spelling) which left a scar on his stomach... n now... bike accident..haiz... very sad... all because during his army times, he was being posted 2 becum a racky (dunno the spelling - meaning scouts) team, where by he needs 2 learn bike...After he ord, he rides a bike 2 -.-! Which landed up in hospital...
I n Kwen meet at doby Ghaut mrt n go Ps 2 buy something plain 4 jackson 2 eat.. Went 2 foodcourt n carrefour... after tat, we travel 2 Clementi by train n meet Eefai, oso our jc friend, at the clementi bus stop...After so long nv see Eefai, wa was every envy of his luv life... During jc times, he was already wif our jc friend, Siripon (Thai)... After 4 yrs, n they r still 2gether, though Siripon won't be coming back Sg n was now in Thai studying her Uni... Yet their relationship was still so bonding, despite the far distance apart... Looking at my own luv life, its a disaster... After tat, we took a cab 2 NUH... Kwen pay the tab.. When we reach there, we saw jackson n entertain him =) Though deep inside me, was feeling very miserable... lucky he was able 2 survive n his injury was all on his left leg... We even sat there n listen 2 his incident... haiz.. motorbike...
How many ppl had actually met an accident in motorbike... even the safest driver is oso prone 2 accidents... Many ppl ard me encounter accidents cuz of bike.. Sec sch, a friend's father pass away cuz of bike... During my army times, my camp mate met an accident wif bike n injured his left hand... n scratches over his body.. My outside friends met wif an accident, injurying his lower part of his body as well as arm... n now Jackson... Just hope he learned a very valuable but painful experience, after surviving such an ordeal... N wish him full recovery asap... After companying him 4 quite long, we realize its 9pm + n we haven't had our dinner... thus we felt hungry n left...Bloody kwen, anyhow walk, bring us walk a big rd 2 the main lobbyof NUH, then we took a cab back 2 clementi mrt area there... this time Eefai took the tab.. n we headed 2 a coffeeshop 2 have our dinner...
We chat a lot n even abt the lovely couple, Eefai n Siripon... How understanding both of them were 4 each other... During holidays, Eefai would fly 2 see Siripon... Well cuz while they r apart, eefai would top up the SIM card 4 Siripon so they can sms n contact wif each other, Eefai would sometimes call her, though its ex... But when Eefai was flying 2 meet Siripon in Thai, Siripon would offer 2 pay 4 Eefai.. but Eefai would always reject... 2 me as a guy, if i have a gf who takes her inititative like Siripon, wifout even needing Eefai 2 voice out, i would feel very fortuanate 2 have such an understanding soulmate... Cuz wat guys actually wants is love... 2 me, i'll reject my soulmate's offer cuz she had the intention to do so is already very contented 2 me... tat's wat gentlemen always does i believed =) very lovely situation, though i believe i didn't describe quite clearly here, so those who dun understand, too bad...
Well dinner was on me n we had curry chicken rice, which earned me a bad throat now haha.. drinks Kwen offered again.. then Eefai offered 2 buy 2 popiah 4 snacks cuz he oso wants 2 pay haha.. after tat, Eefai wants 2 learn magic tricks n since i have cards on me now, teach him some... After tat, time is late n we must leave...Eefai has 2 more mths 2 ord, but he have 2 go back camp n we bid farewell 2 him... Then i n Kwen went 2 nearby pool 2 settle our last time scores again (nv win him at all last time we played, last thurs) Hmm went there but no poll table, so we play billard til there's a vacany...wa his billard though same like me, not accurate, but he's slightly better =) So is our score, i lose him a little bit...halfway, the cashier close our table cuz there's a vacany n we change 2 pool. Haha, he's so shcked tat my skill improved so fast.. we played 3 matches n i manage 2 win 2.. My combos have increased.. though the area was very cramp n stuffy =( nxt time, we'll challenge again if we have more time, cuz time is merciless... I'm beginning 2 like playing pool once again.. Looks like billard n pool r going 2 be my favourite hobbies now =) After tat, we went our separate ways home...
Here's another incident which happened along the way, but i put iit specially in this paragraph... Its regarding Dawn n me... We have been smsing thru out my day... n somethign bad happened... I was already feeling grief over my friend's accident n she was venting her temper 2 me, when i was showing my encouragement, care n concern in a different way(There's many ways 2 care n concern 4 many ppl, always using the same way, chances'll made a person spoilt - experienced b4, thus scientifically proven) Well its regarding her interest, dancing, n she hurts her back while dancing as she has cca 2day... N because she was having mood swing, n she was harshed 2 me wif her words, when i showed my care n concern... I was already feeling low myself, yet i even try n care 4 her n yet, wat i received was this... i was quite upset abt it, but i didn't told her, yet i just say i wasn't angry wif her nor sad when she apologize 2 me... Hmm i n her drifted more apart after this incident i guess... Well wif this, i call it a day...
Missed my past a lot... but i knew tat its very hard... i'll cont 2 try more harder 2 get up.. n cont my journey... each time i felt so sad, i always wished tat my past will be ard me, by my side, 2 support me n have somebody 2 heal my wounds in my heart... yet, my past was always not there... neither r there any1 out there... i'm so alone..in a cold, damp place in my heart, where darkness covers me...shivering....n helpless.... sinking myself deep in2 bitterness n misery...

bubbles of sadness.

*9:28 AM .

Monday, January 23, 2006

Moments for Sun, 22th Jan 2006 : Well, woke up very late, ard 11 am if i'm not wrong.. 4get the time already.. was feeling very weak n i just spent most of my time at home 2day... 1st i watch tv if i'm not wrong... watch until i think ard 1pm, tat augustine called me 2 attend my neighbour, lawrence's (Law) 1 mth yr old daughter's celebration at his hse... Law lived 11th floor directly above me.. i'm only 6th floor... I dragged myself 2 prepare n went upstairs wearing my SAPFU's singlet, a short pant n slipper up. -.-! he organized a buffet n i chat wif augustine most of the time... Well law's friend came 2 n i was surprised 2 see 1 of my sec sch friend. he's not only my NPCC senior, but oso entered the same camp as me during army.. I ORD but he signed on.. Now i saw him in Law's hse. haha wat a coincidence. Then halfway, law's dad come n chat wi fme n augustine. cuz augustine (Aug) had 2 work later, so he left, leaving me n law's dad.. He tell me a lot of things, n he knew abt my relationship has changed.. Got a gd teaching from him, regard righteous n trust in friends =) He told me abt his experience abt lending $ 2 ppl, n if he dun return, dun ask 4 the $ back, if he doesn't return, treat it as if losing the $ in exchange 4 seeing the person's true colours.. n afterall, the person who dun 1 2 return, is just worth the amt of $ he borrowed.. no more, no less.. haha wat a gd mind set he has... He earned my respect..Chat 4 a long time, law finish his things n come chat wif me instead... We had a gd chat til ard 4pm, i went home...
I was feeling very tired, so i went 4 a short nap, nv expect 2 wake up at 5pm... I force myself up 2 bath n applied facial mask after so long nv applied le haha... However, i used the facial mask which my past bought 4 me....just tat i didn't use... bringing back the sad memories again...while on mask, i went 2 tidy my cds...was a mess during the renovation of my hse..but nv expect, still couldn't find where my favourite cd ended up... Wa... heart pain... tat's my most favourite cd... of gone, i'll definitely buy 1 more at all cost...well sudden'y kw call... asking me 2 go down sp arcade play wif him.. well cuz i had a cold war wif my mum, i can't meet him so early.. as i'll only go out after dinner... so he went there 1st n Cr Duck join him.. While i stayed at home n update my blog halfway until its dinner time n i set off 2 meet them after dinner...
Nv expect reach there almost 8 pm...play a few rds of 11 wif Kw, n Cr Duck n Kw left -.-! waste my time.. Well stupid joystick giving prob again.. + Kw play until so camp... lost 2 him many rds... Or perhaps i long time nv play liao... tat's y so weak... haiz.. nvm i just cont staying there until Dennis call n ask me 2 play wif him.. Even playing wif him, i lost more than him...wa.. wat a bad day... We played until 9.30pm n i company him 2 313 coffeeshop 4 him 2 have his dinner.. Wa, he's richer than me, earning 4000+ a mth... Owned a great car, n yet his dinner was very scrimp... hmm he sets a gd eg 4 me 2 follow... He's a great friend, but 1 thing is, he's asking me 2 enter his business... but currently, i'm in no mood 2 work wif him cuz, my current job was stress enough le..dun wish 2 spend my time mostly on work, oso must relax ma.. Well so i told him wait until i'm studying, then i shall consider 2 gif it a try,... He keeps telling me tat its possible 2 succeed, but i noe is very minority of them.... haiz... not every1 can succeed n it involves a lot of risk...thus i dun dare 2 day dream abt earning cash in such a fast way, wif so many risk...So must consider 1st...Then finally, i bid him farewell, n he drive me 2 my hse.. Nice friend...
Reached home early, n dawn wants 2 talked 2 me, thus i chat wif her 4 a while... again the same old thing happened again... well i guess it'll take some time b4 things can be settled... Hmm then was in no mood 2 slp, thus watch tv until 1am..-.-! n finally, call it a day... Hmm Cy ask me 2 read the letter she wrote, but busy day.. haiz...

bubbles of sadness.

*2:51 PM .

Sunday, January 22, 2006

Moments for Sat, 21th Jan 2006 : 2day was a very long day 4 me.. Well can say is a very happy day 4 me, though its very different from the previous outings we had..Well early morning wake up at ard almost 9am.. Dawn ask me 2 sms her once i wake up, but this time i didn't promise her, thus i purposely dun1 2 sms her.. Last night's conversation, something was wrong...yes, we did have some problems arising btw us... Then was feeling very laze n wen n Cy didn't sms me abt the kbox outing, so i thought they overslp, though last nite we agreed tat even if they r not going, we'll still go =) Then i overslp n prepared cuz Cr Duck sms me.. Actually was planning 2 bring my favourite cd along wif me, cuz wen like my blog's music, so i intend 2 bring out n share the album wif her. But cuz time was running out, still couldn't find, i rush out of my hse wifout it.. nxt time then show her ba. Went 2 the usual place where i n Cr Duck bid farewell 2 meet him. N we headed 2 sem mrt meet the 2 gals.. Since mrt left, so i draw $ b4 going up 2 the platform 2 meet them.. had was so shocked tat the r very punctual. Not the type who r late.. At least they r more reliable than the rest of the other friends, (the other 6 guys who nv turn up, so not gentlemens). THus our journey 2 our 1st outing begins...=)
Well starting at the train, the 2 gals chat wif themselves n i n Cr Duck. Was abit awkward initially n Cr Duck was starting 2 gimme lots of problems...He's oso going 2 put me airplane after the K box...2 meet his lan friends... Tat would mean, leaving me wif 2 gals..Omg if tat's the case, it'll another few times, where i go out wif gals... I'm not very used 2 it... then finally the 4 of us chat 2gether n we reach parklane.. Haha starting no1 dares 2 sing, until finally, we get the ladies 2 start 1st.. Haha starting their 1st song, both of them went out of tune.. but after tat, they singing was great.. quite lovely.. Finally its me n Cr Duck's turn...Dun talk abt tat... He totally ruined the song... i n his tune was different... He's like tone deaf... n his singing was dead... makes me dun feel like singing anymore... well my voice wasn't on gd stage on tat day either..was coughing n having phelgm in my throat.. Well was very shy cuz the 2 gals r the 2nd persons i ever sing wif the presence of gals in kbox.. 1st is of cuz...my past... N oso not 2 say, the times where i sing n dance on stage wif so many crowd, when i was in JC.. haiz...still so shy... but overall was quite fun, though angela oso put airplane tat she's not coming. Thus our day was confirmed 2 only have the 4 of us.. Wif the Cr Duck putting me alone wif the gals, b4 the k lunch session ends... (11am - 2pm) B4 i end the 1st part of the outing, i must say the service in parklane kbox was extremely horrible... Btw we all had grilled fish wif fries 4 e k-lunch session ($7) n each of us ended up paying $9 buck each -.-! y i mention $9? Its because later part i'll let u guys noe this coincidence n hilarious thing =) But $2 each of us paid 4 the service charge n other small things, tat's really 2 ex le, cuz their service was so poor tat they dun deserve this extra cost from us.
Though Cr Duck left us, we still carry on as usual =) we went 2 parklane n play billard. We had 2 super long games. Well its worst than the last time i played wif Ns n Cr Duck. We all had difficulty in our accuracy. N the worst was Cy haha. She keep making fouls until i n Wen reach 100+ points.. Wen was quite gd =) she was leading most of the time, until the part where the colour balls r left n i won her in the 1st match, wif Cy last. Thus 2nd long game, starting i made 3 straight fouls -.-! and this time, i couldn't catch up wif wen in the end, even though the colour balls r mostly pocketed by me... N not 2 say once again, tat Cy foul many times again.. But overall we had lots of fun... 2nd game 1st is wen, me, then Cy. I didn't keep track of the time, but i think 1 game is almost 1 hr + 2 complete.. Almost 4get, the 2nd game, Cy foul unitl i n Wen can hit 200+ points, but i n wen oso foul n Cy ended up wif 100+ points =)
After tat, we r hungry, so we went mac 2 grab a small bite, had a drink n sit down 2 chat... Hmm we chat abt many things.. then we oso confirmed tat the airplanes maker confirmed not coming, so nvm. However 1 thing tat made us sick was, Br n his gang r coming.... =( dun like 2 mixed ard wif these type of ppl, if they r coming, i feel like leaving.. Br is of cuz welcum, cuz he's wen's bf. So hope if he's really coming, dun bring his gang along... Nxt up, we went 2 play pool. We play 1v1, wif loser out. Haha was so surprised tat i'm on top form =) my combo was better than last time, but of cuz i oso got lose la. Hmm wen was quite a gd player 4 my standard. Cy has potential, except tat she must really aim well. Play halfway, Br come. At 1st thought only he came, but nv expect he actually come wif the gang... it really makes me sian... But lucky they nv come n disturb us. We play our game, they do their own business. We had a lot of fun until 10.30 pm i remembered, then we went 4 dinner. Well guess wat? each of us pay $9 each. Haha tat's y i mention abt the value. the no 9 is such a coincidence 4 us 2day.
Since we couldn't find any place 2 eat at this hr, we went parklane mac 2 eat... n we chat heartily while eating. Well Br's gang was at mac 2...-.-! But somehow, i noticed a familiar face... He's 1 of my friend or rather schoolmate in my sec sch..Naval Base... Nv expected he changed so much.. even becum the head of the gang... haiz... but anywy i dun care abt such stuffs, cuz all i noe, this type of things r foolish n stupid... THen ard 11pm +, we headed back... on the mrt, chat at lot...btw, Cy passed me a letter n i donated a charity ticket, 4 her sch thing..o.O! Thus our outing has come 2 the end.. Look 4ward 2 another outing, n playing pool wif wen again..
On my way home, saw stanley, carbon n friends. Thus chat wif them.. haha nv expect all having relationship n love problems... Since we r off the same boat, n they dragged me in 2 chat wif them, So i joined them... Haiz... looks like a few pitiful guys sharing their sorrows 2 each other...wat a miserable scene... Then we chatted until super late b4 i walked home... On the way, dawn was waiting 4 my call... So no choice have 2 call her back... but nv expect we chatted 4 1hr + -.-! n time was 2:44am... Dawn n me seems 2 come out wif a few problems... but we just dunno how 2 solved it... Cuz afterall she dun seems 2 understand wat i'm trying 2 say... haiz... worst thing... my mum kept calling...but i didn''t ans... Finally i picked up n she was scolding fiercely on the phone... she even cried... well i knew this time i was in the wrong, but... just tat she dun even understand wat happened 2 me these few days... many things happened tat its more than i can take it...yet, family is always the place where i couldn't voice out my misery 2 them.... I always kept them inside my heart, because my mum doesn't even understand or is unappraochable... i n my mum just couldn't get along well... Her pride was very strong... everything she always feels she's right... n i wish sometimes i can made the decision myself sometimes.. She's unappraoachable when i need some1 2 talk 2, cuz she's not a gd listener...everytime i say something, her voice would be so loud, either scold me or make a commments.... which i really dun like... thus tat nite, i didn't slp but waited in the kitchen until ard 5+, my mum went 2 the room 2 slp... only then, i went 2 prepare n went 2 bed... I noe, the cold war btw i n my mum starts again... i'm oso so stubborn, tat i wouldn't apologize 2 her, even if my heart wants 2... Thus all i can say is i'm sorry...Mum... 4 making u worry of me, by not answering ur call... a total of 21 missed call... Though i noe she won't be able 2 see my blog, these words will still go inside my heart....

bubbles of sadness.

*7:13 PM .

Moments for Fri, 20th Jan 2006 : Well, Same old boring routine 2 work... went down 2 do survey again... then lunch time... then finally waited until after work... Fri knock off work earlier... 5.30pm.. Then meet Cr Duck at sp arcade.. Then we play a while... They rest of them nv appeared, but i saw Ns n kit.. then they went off wifout even a word 2 me.. nvm.. I even received a word tat 2moro's outing they r not going n yet r trying 2 keep from me.. Wat type of freaking friends r they? When they r in need, who's always there 4 them? In arcade, dawn sms me, asking me 2 chat wif her awhile, thus i call her.. then i saw wen up the escalator.. she's wif Bingren(Br). I was so shocked, cuz i read her blog, then see her wif Br, so my mind was totally ??? in the air haha.. Then she come 2 disturb me, but i manage 2 fend her off wif my wisdom.. haha else wait she disturb my conversation.. Then i went back 2 arcade find Cr Duck, n saw wen again.. then tat's the time where wen let me noe abt those freaking friends, who decided 2 MIA in 2moro's outing.. I dun gif a freak abt them, they shall not ever recieve anymore righteous from me as a friend.. Taking me 4 granted n planning this type of stupid shit. This tme my patience has ended. Then Cy sms me 2 abt this incident.. i say nvm, from now on, i'll stand 2 myself n not showing up 4 them whenever they r in need anymore... They doesn't even deserve my treatment 4 them as friends..
After playing, i n Cr Duck go kfc 2 have dinner, n i had Or fillet meal =) We play cards 2gether n i won him a lot =) but cuz kfc closes soon, thus we switch 2 mac n buy ice-cream 2 eat n cont our game... Cr Duck lost a lot this time n sudden'y William appeared n he play cards wif us until i think almost 1 am b4 we went home.. n call it a day.. 2moro's outing whether they show up or not, is not my prob... However Kw did tell me b4 hand while i was at work tat he will company kit go buy tat album (got $ buy album, no $ return me) Then he said he wants 2 join me after our kbox at 2 pm. i dunno la... but afterall, Kw did sms me n i'm not so angry wif him... But upset...

bubbles of sadness.

*6:57 PM .

Friday, January 20, 2006

Moments for Thurs, 19th Jan 2006 : Life is so dead nowadays 4 me... Same old routine...going 2 work..late 4 work again... Go office no mood 2 do work cuz of many matters deep in my heart... Then its time 2 go down conduct surveys, facing the nasty lawyers again.. Hmm dawn was online again cuz she's on mc 2day as well.. Well was quite mad when she come 2 chat wif me... Chat halfway, always seems MIA... So can't be bothered some times.. But just can't help missing my past... HOw i really wish, my past 2 be wif me, except her char can completely changed 2 be a better person...Though it can only happen, when miracle comes n my past was standing in front of me 1day, completely changed n coming back 2 my heart... but seems like its impossible now...
Lunch time same, headache again facing stupid com 4 whole working day... sick n tired, yearning 4 some1 who truly cares 4 me... esp my past... not 2 only use words but use the heart n actions 2 care 4 me, but i always didn't received tat in the past... only words... finally finish work... but oso ntg 2 do nowadays... Intend 2 ask my badminton friends, Zhiqun n Kenny out 4 a badminton game, but 2 bad, the nite isn't gd, can foresee the rain is approaching... n oso zhiqun is still in poly rushing his assignments, so some other time.. THus i called Cr Duck 2 company me go sp later...
I went home 4 dinner n was surprise 2 see my big sister's 3 mths old baby =) haven't been seeing her lately cuz was so busy wif many problems n stressed in my life tat most of the time, i'm not at home... nor even visit my big sister at her residence.. Well so i went 2 entertain her n see her as much as i can, cuz i dunno when will i be able 2 see her again... after having dinner, the sky was shedding tears again... Not sure Cr Duck got keep his promise 2 go arcade or not, so i call him, n was shocked tat his hp was off.. thinking he was slping at home n tricked me, so i stayed at home later 2 company my sister's baby, b4 coming out 2 sp arcade... well was so shocked when Cr Duck sms me... wow he's really a friend who can be trusted n i misunderstood him...Feel sry abt tat... he actually was at the arcade waiting 4 me, but his hp batt went flat -.-! SO since the nite is still yougn n rain has subsided, i persuade him 2 come find me again at sp arcade haha. Not 2 4get on my way 2 sp, i saw my neighbour thomas, who live above me... well long time nv see him le, so we had a chat... Well he noes abt my situation n even gif me valuable teachings i remember by hard...
After playing, i n Cr Duck went 2 mac 2 play cards... Saw my past's sis working there again -.-! Well nvm weplay n from 11.30pm say last game, until 12am haha cuz Cr Duck is losing =) In the end he lost 30 points 2 me. haha.. well all this while, Dawn was smsing me... n she said a lot of things... hmm all these shall be kept 4 me alone... *secrets* Well got happy got sad things but, dun anyhow think, as we r friends only. Well after reaching home, prepare 4 bed n i call it a day...

bubbles of sadness.

*9:41 AM .

Thursday, January 19, 2006

Moments for Wed 18th Jan 2006 : Well Same old thing to work...late 4 work... And broing work starts... Well this morning at 10am, drag myself 2 conduct the stupid surveys regarding those arrogant lawyers. Y i saw arrogant? later u'll noe y... Went out of my offlice, n go down 2 approach them... They all wear complete western suit wif a tie, but me, only normal office wear without tie n blazars... Feel very out of place n shameful being wif them.. Thus i start 2 approach them 2 do the survery 4 me.. Got 1 stupid lawyer, sitting down there, he was reading a magazine... he just take the paper from me n place it at the other seat next 2 him n say he'll do the survey when he is free later.. wat can i do? wait 4 him... So i went 2 the other pace 2 gif the survey 2 the other lawyers..many rejected me.. Then while waiting, i went back 2 the previous place 2 c if they had completed the survey.. Now tat particular stupid lawyer call me 2 appraoch him as if i'm a waiter -.-! Then he start scolding me o.O! He noticed a typo error made by my superior n i didn't even noe it ma.. He scold me 4 making him waste his time filling up a survey tat has a typo error -.-! U think i want? Waste his time on really his magazine? So unprofessional he is.. Not only tat.. the other side, i went 2 collect back the rest of the survey,e xcept 4 1 lawyer, he was talking n doing at the same time, making me waiting... After he completed, he keeps chatting wif the other lawyers until its his turn 2 enter a chamber (a room dunno 4 wat purpose, probably the lawyers taking n discussing cases he is handling now...) After he come out, then only he bother 2 return the survey 2 me... Wat a day n 2moro still have 2 go down again..
Now the rest of the day after lunch was same... afternoon i was 2 lazy 2 go down 4 survey... But tried a new game which is online pool or snooker, but cuz of high security, i can only play wif myself..But ok la, make use of this time 2 practice the angle 4 my pool.. Then play until headache... feeling feverish.. Hmm get 2 noe a friend on friendster... hmm we had a chat, but she's always like afk n her reply was getting late n late... dunno wat she's doing.. She's on mc 2day tat's y i can c her online 2day.. Else she mostly online at nite, but i'm outside most of the time..So consider lucky ba... Then finally knock off from work.. on my way back 2 sp, intending 2 meet Cr Duck 4 movie.. Hmm was so surprise she sms me.. during online, dunno y her reply so late? or maybe is my web msn so lousy n slow ba...
Hmm reach sp n play 02 n kof 11 haha..then William find us a while n we play drum 2gether.. he 2 funny sia.. but on the 3rd stage i press wrongly n he got a difficult song n lose haha. so i compensate him wif a 3rd song on my credit.. he lose 2 -.-! made me cannot play the last stage... Then jx come but i n Cr Duck go eat dinner at mac... til jx come find us n we play a short game of cards.. Cuz i was smsing wif my new friend, her name was Dawn Tay.. So my reply was sometimes late... cuz i was wif my friends, but cuz she say she wanna talk 2 me, n she can't chat after 10pm, so at ard 9.25pm, we left n i call her lo.. So we had a chat, n she's funny, wif her cute, lovely voice, esp when she "hmph" haha.. Funny.. chat abt 1 hr n i went home... n prepare 4 bed..after so long, finally i reached home earlier than usual.. ard 10.30pm.. Hmm ok i guess tat's all ba...

bubbles of sadness.

*9:29 AM .

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

Moments for Tue 17th Jan 2006 : Another boring day at work.. But exception for 2day is, i'm actually punctual 4 my work.. Same thing as usual in work life.. HOwever, 2day i'm super stressed.. I'm already over stressed by my past... n yet work just doesn't 1 2 let me off n gimme a break... i'm already rushing a 2005 end of yr report, monthly daily returns checklist, n keying in database...even many things more cuz i was being told 2 assist a colleague of mine, wif her work...N more work just keep piling.. i was being told 2 go out of my office 2moro onwards 2 conduct surveys... this time the survey is 4 lawyers... after survey, still have 2 no. the surveys n key in 2 the database... Wth is going on wif this world.. Y can't ppl has their freedom n do things of their own choice? i Dun even enjoy my life at all.. losing all the colours of my life n losing my hope on this dreadful world n ppl...my life is only black n white... Right now, i really had no mood 2 do anything... not 2 say these boring work... or even pick myself up...
Finally, i pulled myself thru the slow time passing of my work day, til its time 2 knock off...not 2 say lunch time is always the same..However, after work, things aren't like the past anymore... Well i meet up wif an old time buddy of mine, in Yjc, the only chinese guy wif me in class.. He's kwen.. Meet him at chinatown Mrt n we headed 2 Doby Ghaut 2 draw $ n headed 2 a coffeeshop near parklane.. Well we had our dinner n i only buy 2 plain prata... we chat alot on our old times n how he has been doing..haiz..he now happily in SIM studiying, me? Perhaps this yr July then only i can decide ba...Kwen n i always used 2 go k box, pool or eat during jc, thus we decide 2 play 3 games of pool only n headed 4 kbox after dinner... cuz kwen say he long time nv play ler...
After inner we went snookerum 2 play pool, cuz he dun 1 2 play billard as he dunno -.-! Hmm 1st game i lost... 2nd game is the only closest match i had ever get... but i hit the black ball in2 e wrong pocket when he still got a few stripes.. So long nv play, he is still so gd.. Still remembered the times where i played wif him in the past, my skills n his was levelled... however, after jc times, he still got play a lot n even got a friend who teaches him lots of tactics...n strategies.,..until even long, he stopped...so after three games of losing 2 him...n since so long nv meet him up 2 play pool, we change our mind n spent the remaining time 2 play pool instead, since we warmed up already =)
Guess wat? we started from 7.25 pm n played until 10.30pm..i didn't even win a single match o.O!!!! even got few match i was heavily trashed!!!!! remembered got 1 match, i didn't even scored a single ball..Haiz... the match was very much different from wat i played wif Ns n friends.. haiz so long nv met kwen n his skills has already way up superior than me... Wat a noob i am... But overall i admit defeat n learnt from my lost =) hope 2 have a rematch wif him some other time...Though lost every match, some match was very close though =) However the most skillful is my own bro..haiz... still remembered playing pool wif him, n i dun even have the chance 2 use my cue tat often -.-! so overall the price is 22.30... which we share, ex but meaningful. after tat, we headed on our way home =) Thus i call it a day...

bubbles of sadness.

*9:31 AM .

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Moments for Mon 16th Jan 2006 : Early on a Mon morning, is wat we call Mon Blues.. Cuz i felt so sick n tired of going 2 work once again, after my weekends of enjoyment..Its like after venturing out, u still have 2 return 1 day n back 2 do things tat u really need 2 do...wifout any options 2 choose... same old routine coming back, starting of the week, n waiting 4 yet another weekend 2 come.. Life is getting more or less meaningless as each day passes by... same old boring work.. i reach office late again... Then start 2 update my blog abt my weekend.. Cy said she has a test 4 me during lunchtime..
My lunch routine the same, com company me eat, then Cy sms me a test which i find this kind of test very absurd... the test require an honest ans.. yet the qn isn't tat accurate at all, how 2 gif an honest ans? The qn is wat type of drinks listed do i regard her as. (something like tat cuz the qn is in chi) Thus i tell her tat my ans is dunno or nil cuz the ans i gif must be honest ma =) unless she tells me each drinks refers 2 wat, then i'll be able 2 gif her an honest ans. So she has no choice but 2 gimme n i choose 1, red tea, meaning a friend.
After lunch, tons of boring work again n i was very sleepy.. ever since my past has left me n changed completely, life has really been very lost 4 me.. in such a short 2yrs, i experienced so many things n see so many things, feeling abit old haha.. Finally dragging myself, its time 2 knock off from work.. well my life after work is getting quite boring recently... ever since Ns n company starts school n preparing 4 their Os this yr, they aren't like the holidays tat free already.. i was beginning 2 feel abit lonely.. my only source of support during this type of down times, depressions r getting weaker n weaker... Friends weren't there 4 me soon.. Even kit, who studies in ITE, oso starts sch 2day... wonder how he is, n he'll change in2 a strong or bad person under this type of extreme environment... nobody noes the future.. Wish him all the best..
2nite reach sp, wif only Ns, Cr Duck n kit... The rest all like disappear already, but i understand tat each have their own life 2 lead n studies 4 their future is more impt... Kit is here, but he have 2 go home early liao..even manage 2 get william down 2 join us a while... Ns is feeling a bit sian i guess.. cuz nobody 2 play cards le.. soon, maybe the play cards party will be gone 2.. there's always a change in each n every part of our lifes... its how we r able 2 adapt 2 the changes or not.. those who can't outwin the changes, will suffer like me, cuz i'm a very sentimental n emotional person... who sees things very imptly.. n cherish watever i had... cuz i noe, ntg last... n have a short lifespan...even ur luv ones...
Thus we play arcade, challenge 02, n make kit very headache again wif my billy, athena n yuri... Ns try playing wif me, but oso ganna thrashed by my billy haha. Cr duck 2.. Hmm then 2nite got offically made a new friend.. HIs name is Xiang rong n we play kof 11. this time he oso gimme his contact no, so in future, we can challenge each other skills. he is a gd opponent, cuz i have no full confidence in winning him, but my % is still a bit higher of winning =) Finally, we went 2 foodcourt 2 have our dinner...sit down there like ntg 2 do, very boring, until william come join us n we head 2 mac 2 play cards... play only a short while, have 2 go home liao... haiz..Here's the result anyway..Cr Duck 1st, followed by Wil, Kit, me n biggest loser Ns...
Saw my past's sis finish work at mac... But didn't manage 2 talk 2 her.. She promised 2 help me located my past n settled everything n fully, but end up didn't.. wonder when am i going 2 get back my $... Though times passes by, i still can't 4get my past...always in my heart...missing my past very badly.. N the things we had done... Memories tat i can nv 4get... A person can change completely over a nite, is really very horrifying 2 me.. yet i still miss my past so much...THen i went 2 meet lawrence my neighbour at sem mrt, cuz he helped me last mth by lending me cash 2 buy a new working pants, so i'm returning him the cash..$30..Cr Duck was wif me all the while =) So nice of him.. then on the way home halfway, Cr Duck went separate way from us n i n lawrence went 2 our hse downstairs 2 have a chat... on the way, say augustine another neighbourhood friends... So we 3 of us sat down n talk.. Augustine now works at country manna haah he promised 2 treat us a main course if we come haha. Then we chat abt many stuffs, including the change of my life... lawrence's baby will be 1 mth old this sun, so i was invited 2 his hse... THen its time 2 go home cuz augustine granny was worried 4 a 17 yr old grandson haha.
Reach home, went 2 pack my things tat was very messy during the renovation period.... Didn't realised tat my mum threw away many things which r precious 2 me.. But i managed 2 retrieve some back... maybe some was completely gone... even my sec sch memory, she almost threw it away... omg... i was very heartbroken... cuz my things r being mingled wif... So i spent some time 2 search back my things n precious... Finally, sms Cy cuz she say she got something 2 tell me... end up, she say she wants 2 chat wif me -.-! Chat until 1 am cuz really not gd 2 slp so late as she has sch n i have work nxt morning, so tell her 2 chat nxt time.. gif her some advice...hopefully she really listens n remember by hard...wat a very boring day ... i guess i'll have a change in my life soon, tat is 2 find my Jc n other friends out after work.. cuz in the past, they ask me out but i was not free n was most of the time wif ns n friends... even my past... Thus this time, it's my turn 2 ask them out ba.. n oso my badminton friends.. Going 2 train back my figures, since i'm single n free now =) getting little out of shape lately.. Hmm ok tat's all 4 2day i guess....

bubbles of sadness.

*8:43 AM .

Monday, January 16, 2006

Moments for Sun 15th Jan 2006 : Early morning.. we r supposed 2 wake up n meet 10.30am at sem mrt cuz Ns, kit, Cr Duck n me have agreed ytd tat we r going 2 K box, K lunch package...11am - 2pm.. BUT, i 9 + scarifice my slp n call Ns n kit, but 2 no valid.. Really call unitl i almost 1 2 explode. Only Cr Duck was very punctual but i must say even early.. End up, i keep calling while Angela(An) ask me 2 online regarding my blog as i need 2 send her the pic which i requested 2 be the backgrd of my blog. Then suddenly she invited Wen 2 the conversation n i was told 2 send her the pic 2 =) So i think it was 2day tat we formally become friends. Then dunno y i tell her abt my past in msn.. n the renovation of my blog was passed 2 her 2 do 4 me. Finally after everything, n calling until i'm fustrated n feeling bad 4 keeping Cr Duck waiting 4 2 long, i went down ard 2 pm 2 sp arcade 2 find him.. The K lunch session is obviously cancelled n i was very fustrated wif the 2 of them.. Kit more worst. 2nd time put me such a big airplane. N he claimed tat he's sick, so nvm lo. he say sick then sick ba haha. Ps.. look at his blog on Sun haha.
I was feeling very boring at arcade sia... but i tried a new hairstyle (my hairstyle keep changing) looks ok 2 me starting =) i was boring cuz nobody 1s 2 play wif me kof 11.. finally get a few challengers n Cr Duck say he wants 2 save $, cuz i told him we change plan 2 play billard instead haha. Trying out new game which all of us nv play b4. Ns finally call n ask us 2 wait 4 him =( he's happily slping at home n we have not enough slp. So while waiting, we went 4 lunch at foodcourt n went back arcade wait 4 him. even my friend dennis came but 2 bad cuz we r leaving as Ns has come. End up, still have 2 company Ns go foodcourt n wait 4 him 2 eat finish. i and Cr Duck play cards while waiting. Hmm saw a gal, which i noe i the past there. dunno her name, but she used 2 work at mac, during my sec 3 - sec 4 times.. her nick was E.T., called by my sec friend who worked in sp mac at tat time too. Weird nick haha. But 2 bad, i dunno if she still recognise me or not, but she did look at me 2. o.O!. Hmm then we headed straight 2 parklane wifout wasting any more time.
Almost 4get abt an incident tat happened b4 Ns come arcade find us. I received a call while i was playing kof 11. THus i didn't pick up. THen when i'm done, i notice the miss call was a hp no. not in my phone list. Thus i call back only 2 realised tat it was Bing Ren. o.O! i was so shocked as 2 how he get my no. n y did he want 2 call me 4? Then only 2 realise tat he call at 1st regarding abt wendy -.-! but he say now ntg liao... hmm youngsters nowadays.. So just tell him tat wendy is helping me wif my blog lo. -.-!
Finally our 1st billard game begins.. we played almost 3 hrs, n yet wif only the 3 of us, we only managed 2 played 3 games... Billard was very long man.. But 2 me, it was much more challenging n fun. Well the balls r smaller, the pockets too.. table was much more bigger than the pool. But its very cheap, cuz 1 hr cost same price as pool. $6 per hr. 2day was not Ns day ba haha cuz he must be sick. the 1st 2 game, i won, wif Cr Duck 2nd n Ns last 4 1st 2 game. Then at the last game, i lost, CR Duck, who was grumbling at the start, begins 2 like the game ba, then he wins the game, while Ns was 2nd. =) Finally its time n we headed 4 dinner.. i bring them 2 a nearby foodcourt, no idea how 2 describe the exact location, but i noe how 2 go cuz.... it was a place where i n my past, had been b4 2 have our meals 2gether... Cuz Ns was sick n its not wise 4 him 2 eat fast food... After dinner, we headed back 2 sp mac n company Ns, cuz he doesn't want 2 go home so early, so i n Cr Duck play cards while waiting 4 him 2 finish his homework. Then we 3 play cards 2gether. THis time, I'm the biggest loser -.-! Ns 2nd n Cr Duck was the big winner... THen almost 12 am n its time we retire 4 home n prepare 4 2moro sch or work.. haiz...work again... But we planned 2moro nite 2 enjoy ourselves 2 cards game after our boring day's work or sch. haha ok tat's all.

bubbles of sadness.

*11:48 AM .

Moments for Sat Jan 14th 2006 : Well... 2day was a special occassion 4 me n my past... 14th is the day where i n my past went 2gether... Which other foolish guy will be like me, 2 go n remember the dates where i finally get 2 noe her after seeing each other 4 abt a yr (25th August 2003) n the dates where we r 2gether..(14th Sept 2003) 2day... if we r still 2gether... it'll be 2 yrs n 4 mths... wat a memorable day where i thought girls will take note of this, which r suppose 2 be minor things 4 the guys... Yet i treated this 2 dates very seriously n importantly more than her all the while... n deep in my heart..even by mths ...
My heart will always ached very much... when this 2 date comes... n the day is hard 4 me 2 pass by wifout crying deep inside of me... n acting a strong front in front of all my friends n family members.. Another 'knife' had just stabbed deeply in2 my old wounds, or rather i should say, the wounds r still fresh n not recovered at all..to me... I think she might now be happily wif her new bf or wat... But here i am...suffering alone in silence.. still unable 2 get up from this torments... but i'm trying hard... trying very hard, 2 source out some1, who truly luvs me, n i'll gif her the happiness n luv wholeheartedly...n the feeling of luv will come back 2 me 1 day...
Thus... because of all these, i was late in meeting kit... feel very bad tat i kept him waiting at the mrt, n he purposely dun 1 2 wait at the shelter but stand in the hot sun..making me feel guilty more. haha. n 2 think tat i ask him 2 meet me at arcade cuz angela will be coming wif us, yet he refuse 2 come but ask me 2 go sem mrt 2 see him at the hot sun, waiting 4 me haha!!! funny kit. Thus i owe him a treat because of this.. And not 2 4get, i wasted my breath finally 2 get angela 2 come out wif us 4 the outing, cuz she's going 2 start sch on mon, thus while she's helping me wif my blog, i persuade her 2 come. Gd old me, always has my way in psychoing ppl haha. Afterall, i always have great influenced 2 the ppl ard me.. But dun worry, its always the gd stuff n won't led ppl 2 astray =)
Once at arcade, we play kof 02 n kit was very headache at my new team haha. Athena, billy n yuri ba. haha then we went 2 play percussion freaks.. he was there by my side 2 guide me n accompany me cuz i didn't dare 2 play tat game, though i played a long itme ago, during my sec times, where my friends r very pro in tat game n other music games.. however, my best music game tat i ever mastered from my friends n even outdone them is dance maniac 2nd mixed. i played marathon course (28 songs back to back) n hit 6000 + combos =) well however after so long of not playing... i dun even think i can complete the marathon course again, not 2 say breaking my old records haha. those were the days..where many ppl will stand behind n watch, will make many noises like "ouch, woo..." when i missed n my combo was stopped... n even get 2 noe some female friends who asked me 2 play the marathon course wif them haha..Hmm back 2 present, kit's turn 2 play drum. =) he's a pro in this game. But, somethign hilarious happened. he played a song tat he couldn't past, but even b4 tat part reach, his right drumstick, flew off from his right hand comically. haha should have take a pic of his reaction man.. his face, his reaction when he went 2 pick the drumstick up from the floor, so clumsy, n very shy look on his face.. n at tat point of time, a lot of ppl was there cuz startnig, his drum skills attracted many passerby 2 watch him play. HAHA wat a kit!!!
Well 2day's meeting for outing was completely a mess.. 1st i was late 4 meeting kit... then we had no idea when angela will come, n ns they all, their flag day ending at 4.30pm... Every1 comes in 1 after another.. Initally, i n kit planned 2 go parklane n played pool til they come, cuz last pool matches, i won every1, BUT lost 2 him -.-! But cuz every1 come 1 after another, we end up waiting 4 every1 2 come sp arcade b4 we went on our trip 2 parklane. Well 1st time Cr Duck was coming wif us 2 play pool. He's not even 16 yet, thus we needa smuggle him inside haha. N not 2 4get a new member 2 our outing. N tat's wendy, i think is Ns n company's friend. Well 1st time knowing her so i dunno much abt her. Reach doby ghaut mrt quite late n william like a small kid, wanting 2 go n play basketball game at the arcade very near the mrt... So we let him go play. Then wendy, whom i only noe her 2day, was i felt very bad 4 troubling her wif my blog... haah so i thx her again. my request was very fussy n troublesome haha. =P
Finally reaching our destination, due 2 10 ppl 2day, me, kit, ns, Kw, Cr Duck, Jx, Wil, Cy, An n Wen. We thought of opening 2 pool table n start our usual league cuz just nice, 10 ppl. But tat extra jx, cuz scare wait 2 long, act clever go n open 1 new table.. n so he n wen go n play tat table... haiz lost 2 opponents 4 our league... So nvm we carry on wif our league n we had quite a lot of matches, but cuz Cy have 2 leave early, the three gals left 1st... So we play a short while until ard 10.30pm, we left 4 sp mac AGAIN 2 have our dinner n chat a while b4 heading home... Hmm heard they say wen's pool was quite gd.. So hope nxt outing she's here n we can really have a 10 ppl league n tat jx dun act clever again =) Hmm kit n i saw 1 scene when wil vs Cy in the pool, n while wil was aiming, Cy was standing just beside him, bending her body 2gether wif wil. They both wear white colour top, so the scene looks very couple like sia HAHA!! ok tat's all readers..

bubbles of sadness.

*11:07 AM .

Saturday, January 14, 2006

Moments for Fri, 13 Jan 2006 : Dear readers, because my blog was under complete renovation wif the help of my fellow friends. They r Kit, angela n wendy =) Special thx 2 them. Thus while posting, i always post my blog 1 day after my incident, but the previous posts, my title went missing, thus now on, i'll post my title 2gether wif my blogs, like the above. Thus this blog i'm posting is for fri =)
Well after the sky has shed tears 4 3 full days, finally it stopped.. maybe it has shed until no more left or wat haha..Well same boring routine of going 2 work, standing in the mrt n late 4 work.. then boring whole working time.. but lucky fri is the only time where i can knock off 1/2 hr early from work, which is 5.30pm.. However since i'm 3 mins late -.-! So 5.33pm.. Reach sun plaza n meet friends play kof.. If i'm not wrong, got william, Ns, kit, me, Cr Duck n Jie Xian (Jx). Well after playing arcade, we went 2 mac again -.-! 2 have our dinner. And starts 2 play cards. Haha i was the biggest winner, follow by Kit, Jx, Wil, Ns then Cr Duck. The 1st time i win a lot in a card game. Finally, its time 2 go home at ard almost 1am if i remembered correctly. 2moro is Ns n company flag day, so i n Kit will meet up 1st. =) tat's all.

bubbles of sadness.

*12:28 PM .

Friday, January 13, 2006

Moments for Thurs 12th jan 2006 : As usual, woke up late and my hse was in a mess, cuz of painting n polishing of the marble floor in my hse 4 the past few days...Again, the weather was wet since last nite... thus i have 2 use my umbrella on my way 2 work...Reaching Chinatown mrt, i was surprise 2 see a female colleague (not in the same department from me), walking 2wards subordinate Courts, late as me. Well she didn't bring umbrella, so i offered mine, n sheltered her 2 the Sub Court.We have saw each other many times, from quiet n seems unfriendly, to exchanging smiles when walking past each other n 2 now, finally we chat a little in the small shelter of the umbrella.. finally after marking attendance (8mins late this time), she said a thank you 4 my help n we say gd bye 2 each other n headed 2wards our own department.. haiz.. when she thanked me, dunno y i'm at the loss of my words... y am i always like tat in front of the opposite sex? hmm really have 2 work hard 4 me as a man, who is so shy, otherwise when will i ever find my soulmate, who can company me thru the thin n thinks of our life?
Hmm ntg much 2 talk abt my boring work...Cuz everyday is the same.. Morning no mood 2 do, go do my own things on the net, n from now on, i'll be updating my blog every morning in my work place.. Well, Some particular thing happened during my lunch time... perhaps life has been so meaningless these days tat i'm not at my usual self... I'm getting so 4getful..Loss of love, is like really having a loss of colours in ur life.... lunch time, same thing, nobody 2 eat lunch wif, n besides i'm feeling very slply, so i take 1/2 an hr of my lunchbreak 2 take a nap.. then went down 2 buy my lunch at the same stall... this time, upon payment, ah... i 4get 2 bring $ wif me.. but lucky being a regular cust, he say nxt time when i come down then pay =) thus i better pay him nxt time.
After lunch time, back 2 boring work, in fact, loss of the power of love, everything is boring n yet can bring oneself 2 do anythings... On this day, i must specifically point out 1 person during my workplace.. later then'll tell u readers, y i say him.. His name is dennis.. got 2 noe him thru kof n he lives in woolands, age 25 =) well he online n we had a conversation.. he have a car, n say tat he's driving 2 meet me outside my workplace 4 dinner 2gether... wa so nice of him.. So finally its time 2 knock off from the damn boring work.. n thru enough, he's outside waiting 4 me... n thru indeed, the sky is still shedding tears...which seems weeping 4 a pathetic guy like me.. entering my soul n feel the feelings of my heart, sharing my sorrows..adapting an atmosphere which suit my feelings at this point of time... So cold, yet so miserable n wet...wif tears in my heart...
WoW... his car is blue i colour... n very nice-looking.. how i wish i will have a car like his in few years times, which i believe is every man's dreams.. then he bring me 2 tanjong pagar 4 dinner near his workplace... when i saw him tat time, i was so shocked... y? Cuz all these while, i thought dennis is a friend of mine, whom i noe in yishun funland while we r playing kof 98... at that time he was a noob... but until 2002, years where i long saw him, he reappear in sun plaza n his kof 2002 skills have greatly improved... Well in the end, dennis turn out 2 be a friend of mine, who was oso in yishun, but is stanley, panda's friend.. He play kof XI using shen woo, iori n beni... no wonder his age was 25... cuz the earlier guy which i mentioned (98 tat time), isn't older than me...Dennis's birthday was 1 day after me, but he's older than me by 4 yrs.. Libra 2 haha... charming person wif a charming car =) wow tat's wat libras r =) but me, oso a libra... haiz...
Ok every thing sure have happy n sad times.. now all the amazing things becomes ...-.- hehe he bring me 2 1 coffeeshop i guess, 4 dinnner..then he didn't withdraw $ from atm, so...i pay 4 him... counted as giving him a treat... Then while eating, a topic where most ppl, including me, likes 2 avoid apppears... Multi-network marketting...-.-! He told me many things which though i agree with him, tat this type of thing, if successful, can reach my target in 2 yrs time rather than using 5yrs, getting a degree n work hard 2 reach teh same equal target..However, i must say is, different ppl, different future... some ppl r cut out 4 this, while some r not... ya 2 be like him now, is wat i envy.. but prob is interest n whether i'm cut out 4 this kind of job... Some more, this kind of job, has a greater risk.. If u succeed, the rewards is handsome, but wat if u fail? So i rather plan my path solid n firm 1st b4 thinking of taking these short cuts n risks, just in case, if i fail, i still have a backup path 4 me 2 walk...n move on...its kinda hard 2 reject a friend, so i just listen n follow him up 2 his office just nearby only..-.-. Well the office was quite nice, but just tat i have been 2 so many types, n this is similiar 2 1 which i company some1 4 job interview..at Apex tower, oso at tanjong pagar... same thing, ppl there wear formall western suits, looking very successful, show photos of successful ppl getting cars 4 successful sales... young ppl become successful at such an early age... like wat i say, not every1 is successful.. they only show the few minority who succeed, but did they show they majority tat failed?
So after tat, i say gdbye dennis n headed to tanjong pagar mrt n headed back 2 sun plaza find kit , Ns n Cr Duck...haiz.. felt a wasted yet meaningful trip.. haha weird me, having mixed feelings..Then find them there n we play kof...played mostly kof 02, n we headed 2 mac AGAIN... The 3 of them haven't had their dinner yet, so i just company them. While they r eating, Cai Yu(Cy) sms me saying tat she got somethign 2 ask me... So i'm afraid tat i'll be back hom elate n the next day she has sch, so it'll be ok if she were 2 ask me now, while they r eating dinner, since i'm free. After long sms... finally she called n ask...-.-. Yet didn't ask in the end... cuz she say she dunno how 2 ask this qn... n drag n drag 2 no valid...so i let her think abt how 2 ask me, then we talk again..then they finish dinner n we play cards =) This time, i'm the biggest winner, followed by kit, Cr Duck n WoW Ns is the biggest loser this time haha.. Finally its time 2 go home... Reaching home, its a mess again..seeing my hp, i realise i 4get 2 reply Cy's sms...thus i called her... n until now, she still cannot bring herself 2 ask me tat qn-.-... Hmm so weird... But nevertheless, we have a short conversation until 1am, cuz she have sch n i have work next day. Dun 1 2 tire each other.. Tat's all my readers...2 be cont...

bubbles of sadness.

*9:38 AM .

Thursday, January 12, 2006

Moments for Wed 11th Jan 2006 : Hmm ytd was some how boring day 4 me... cuz my life has already been dead... Y do i say so? Cuz the routine was there ever since my new life has begin... It wasn't as colourful as wat i used 2 have in my life... Ytd morning as usual, overslp n drag myself 2 prepare n rush 4 work, standing in the mrt all the way from sem mrt to doby ghaut, hoping 4 any seats available as i'm very tired...but each time if i manage 2 wait 4 1, only 2 find either a pregnant lady or elderly ppl, tat i have 2 allow them 2 have the seats, wif a "smile".. how i wish i'm so hard-hearted like some ppl, can dun care anything n do things they like... While walking 2wards sem mrt, saw my neighbour living just above me.. seeing her makes me remind of her lovely daughter =) haven't been seeing her 4 a very long time.. shall make a day vacant 2 pay her a visit upstairs.. however, i'm feeling very awkward 2 those ppl who have been ard me in my life all htis while, cuz they doesn't even noe tat there's a change in my brand new life..Or as more days goes by, they might get 2 noe or find out themselves, as i do not have the courage 2 tell them so... wat a weakling me, where i wish i wasn't this weak enough 2 face my present life....
Reaching office,at chinatown mrt, as usual, i'm late 4 work... this time late 3 mins...Though i have many things line up 4 me 2 do, yet i just dun hav the mood 2 start my work... perhaps i have just lost the path of my life...roaming ard targetlessly wifout any aim... i have nv feel as lost as this b4... n this kind of feeling was rather weird, yet so cold n pain... thus i went 2 surf net while listening 2 songs n doing work at the same time... This time, i visit kit's blog n found tat his tag got angela saying, thx kit 4 helping wif her blog... Kit help her n yet i ask him 4 help, but 2 no valid =( Hmm since ntg 2 do, n kit got link 2 angela's blog, i went in 2 read...Finally, i have decided, since kit dun 1 2 help me, i do so myself =( *Thus my dear readers, pardon me 4 my blog is still quite dead as my life is now, but winter will die, flowers will bloom n spring will come. My blog will change n upgrade in time 2 come =) Be patience pls. Thus my blog was finally published ahead of those decorations which will be left out 4 the time being.
Finally fighting off the Zzz monster(my JC times terms of sleepy), lunch time reached... n because my colleagues r only females n my department r small, wif less than 10 ppl, + my only male colleague have left 2 briston 4 studies (future lawyer-2-be). lunchtime is oso very lonely 4 me... well maybe of my char ba, tat i'm dun dare 2 join my female colleagues 4 lunch... THus i always go 2 the same old coffeeshop 2 buy miced veg rice....(life is so dead, even eating food oso dead), then i bought back 2 my office n had my lunch alone n the only partner that company me thru my lunch hr is... none other than my lousy office com... though lousy, cannot install msn due 2 high security n have 2 use lousy web msn whereby i get dc without even knowing, n was scolding n swearing like hell when my friends didn't reply me, only 2 noe tat i was dc... loading was very slow.. sometimes even my friends chat wif me, but the dialogue box didn't even appear.. So they oso think tat i'm so ignorant, dun 1 2 reply them... screen was sometimes yellow in colour... but luckily now monitor changed 2 lcd screen =) Thus this lousy com plays an impt role during my lunch break always 1pm - 2pm.. Cuz the office is left wif me, i can on my speakers n listen 2 my music while eating... then do the things i want...
Once my lunch break is over, afternoon there's a different event 4 me in office... VIPs r coming 4 a visit to Subordinate Court n family Court... N because this few days have been a rainy season, a task was given 2 me... in case of wet weather, i become 1 of the umbrella party...tat's is...2 carry umbrella my usher the VIPs when the r exchanging locations from Subordinate Court to Family court which is a few 100 metres apart...-.-! Wat a task i'm given... was told 2 wear full dressed western suits... without the tie this time, so as 2 be formal in front of the VIPs... 4get 2 mention the boring meeting at 9.30am wif regards 2 this VIPs visits... the meeting room was cold, but luckily i'm prepared wif a jacket...N the room was very small... wif only few chairs...some chairs even have 2 be brought in n 2 ppl still have 2 stand....luckily during meeting, i wasn't feeling sleepy at all...OK finally VIPs visit is over, i go back office n back 2 work, til its time 2 knock off at 6.03pm...
The way back to sem by mrt was boring... stand again... Reach sun plaza (Sp) n go arcade find Nelson (Ns).. Then play kof XI...while Ns play 2002 super -.-! Then played a while, copyright Duck(Alex) comes as he just wake up n come sp find us.. He challenged me XI n keep losing this time haha, cuz i noe how 2 counter his moves le. Finally got my revenge =) then after tat kit comes 2 n we play kof 02 Normal 2gether... Ns as usual, lose 1 game, run away, dun dare 2 challenge, thus left me n kit n sometimes copyright duck... i'm sian of 02 le cuz dunno who 2 use n skills getting lousy cuz i'm 2 used 2 the new ver of kof XI le...Thus i play mirror match wif them -.-! They use beni... my beni in 02 sucks... THen halfway, ah Bee(Nugget King) comes, oso use beni... sian... then dunno y we switch 2 playing kof 2001, i was really very lousy in 2001 cuz its during my Jc times n i didn't play tat much when this game was out... so naturally, i lose 2 kit..-.- wat a bully.... Then we went 2 mac have our dinner n play cards wif Ns, Kit, Copyright Duck..Game consisted of hearts, Bridge, Taidi, UNO n Go!Go!Go!..I'm supposed 2 be the biggest winner, followed by Ns, Kit, then Cr Duck.. wif the least number of lost... But after calculating the scores, Biggest winner ended by 2 be kit -.-!, followed by Ns, Me than Cr Duck... Haiz wat a day...
Finally time has come n its time 2 go home n on the way home, raining again... haiz...But just nice, the wet seasons n atmosphere just suits my life now... perhaps its because the weather has been weeping wif me, sharing the pains in my heart, feeling my sorrows over my wounds... Many drops of tears falling down the sky, feeling great empathy over a lifeless soul wandering home... Grief 4 his changed of life... Grief over his pasts... Hoping 4 another spring 2 come...After dragging my tired body home, its time 2 preapred 4 the next lifeless day...Thanks readers 4 having such patience reading this...walking thru this words as if passing this very day wif me by my side wif ur eyes, feeling my emotions wif ur heart.... Stop here n 2 be cont.....

bubbles of sadness.

*10:29 AM .

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Introduction : Well, first of all, hmm...i'm quite new 2 this very own blog of mine... In fact i always believed in writing every every part of my life in2 a very own personal diary of mine, so as 2 always enjoy the joys n pains of my memories alone n having the last laugh even until the last breathe of mine in this world... However, another part of me, have been rising a thought in my mind... That is, some of the ppl ard me, be it my friends, some1 who r concerned abt me, or rather some friends who would like 2 noe me more n even friends who i usually dun get 2 keep in contact frequently, would like 2 noe how i have been n any happening news tat happened 2 me..Thus this blog was created at this very day (In fact created long ago, just tat i was 2 busy or taking a long time 2 decide whether 2 post blogs or not),in hand wif my personal written diary of mine, 2 do some moments sharings 2 ppl who wish 2 noe abt me =). However.... some things tat will only be belonged 2 my written diary alone, i regrettedly announced 2 my dear readers, tat i couldn't publish some deeper feelings of mine, which would be kept a secret just 4 me. Well perhaps those who really real well n r closest 2 me, might be able 2 read my mind, wifout even seeing my blog or diary ;-). Ok, enough of intro n welcome my dear readers, my blog stories beginned now... though unfortunately, my past was being unrevealled, which will be kept just 4 me alone.... Just treated it as a brand new life 4 me... ok without wasting time 2 those impatient readers, let the story begins....=)

bubbles of sadness.

*4:55 PM .

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