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Updates from 23rd Nov – 29th Nov, Mon – Sun.

Mon was supposedly the resuming of work at Tiong Bahru, but cause of work over the weekends, I feel lethargic that I am reluctant to wake up, hence I decided to rest the day at home. Instead, I cleared my emails n actually become active in facebook, which I usually dun. Well colleagues over at Tiong Bahru, has been encouraging me to play the game, Farm Ville and Farm Town, to become their neighbour, so that I can help them earn things.

Well looking at them talking over this issue over at lunch, I just can’t helped amused by their behaviours as though they r small children. (They are over 30yrs old already.) Well so I decided to try it out n see how much addictive it was.. Of cuz, I am not really into this game as some of the factors do turns me off. 1st, no doubt is the speed of the loading of facebook in my house. So playing facebook sometimes does make me feel frustrated at times.. In addition, I seldom use facebook as there are really too many applications for me to handle.

2 of my colleagues were arguing tat either 1 of them were much more interesting to play. Hence in my own personal preference, I would find it interesting to play Farm Ville more, as it is more easier to play n the graphic are much more nicer. However, the other colleague also has a point to farm town. The char in Farm Town looks much more nicer n realistic. The interesting part was, there’s a marketplace to sell ur harvest.

For me, a more simplistic game is much more easier to play, but anyway I still played both game, but won’t be so addicted like them as I have other activities to do in my life, other than facebook all day long. Besides this 2 games, I tried other applications as well. If I am not mistaken, its some thing to do with Café n Zoo. The café game seems interesting, but the application is far more lagging than other applications. Zoo was easy n not bad as well.

However, 1 of the applications, does attract me to play. I think 1 of them is the Word Challenged, but I think my vocabulary knowledge has decreased a lot as my score is very low.. The other much more fun game is “Who has the biggest brain” where you get to play for sections of the game, 1 of which is counting or analyse, which object is heaviest. 2nd round is calulations, 3rd round is memory and the 4th 1 is testing on ur observations. It keeps making me try again n again as I wanted to beat my frd’s score.. However, I really wonder how some of them play, until their score was ridiculously high. (Cheat Code involved?)

Lastly about facebook, is the Spot the difference game. The game I must say, was super hard.. The photos are not very clear n I have to strain my eyes to look at them. Its not like arcade touch screen where you can spot them easily.. Anyway these are most of the applications my frds have sent me n I have still almost 100 more applications to clear, which I dunno how long I will have to take.

Evening time, I headed out to meet ben n wil for cards, since I am not working, ben n wil dun have to wait for me to reach back from Tiong Bahru, after their work. So we decided to meet n play cards. I have fun n I think my winning is back again. After which, I think I headed for my nite jog if I am not mistaken.

Tuesday come n I am almost an hour late for work cause I think work at SSC really makes me adapt to the job timing. So now I will have to readapt back to waking up earlier again. I actually set my alarm wrongly tat I woke up an hour later than I am supposed to wake up.. Luckily, they did not fault me for that, but I make up for the hours by knocking off late.

My routine comes again, but I must say this week was quite a boring week, esp the weekdays as I dun really hav much activities gg on, except for routine task like gg to arcade to relief stress, gg home to prepare n go for a nite jog, which I have been doing so for everyday.

Finally until Thursday, it’s the last day of the week as Friday is a public holi. I didn’t expect the stock for the Sliming Gel from my colleague comes today. So I will have to pay her 25 bucks for the Gel on Mon. Sad to know, Mon’s short pay of 5 days, comes in the form of cheque, n I will be having addition probs like this, on when n where I am able to bank in the cheque n getting the cash.

Lots of bills are tight on me again on month ends n start n so far, all the temp assignments I have worked so far, I will only receive my pay on Mid dec. So have to endure here n there, but inevitable expenses like transportation n drinks during work have to be spent, adding more frustration to my situation.. Oh ya, speaking about this, site track abit, back to tues nite. I dunno when things happened, they come in a row.

Tues nite, if I rmb correctly, I saw my 1st ex’s sister, after my nite jogging n cooling down at SP mac.So I chat with her awhile. Then the following day, on my way to work, while travelling from Sem Mrt to Tiong Bahru, I saw my 2nd ex’s frd, Joey. It should be awkward, but surprisingly, we still managed to chat awhile wif each other. I noe she has already switched job ever since econ crisis last yr, where she was a victim to the economy like me.

So just asking how each other were, etc, without spoking anything abt our past. She pass me a namecard n I kept it. Well thinking about it, since I n her has got nothing bad gg thru in the past, except for the arguments, which involved in the r/s, since she has not done anything wrong to me, so I am still able to speak wif her n regard her as a frd ba.. Anyway I wish her all the best in her new job, though my relative did worked in this line for a few yrs I guessed, but quit as this line needs strong social contacts wif many ppl, esp rich ppl..

Ok back to where I stopped, I tried the burning gel over the weekends, still thinking what is the timing to apply the gel, as the gel only need 1 application each day to the body. The reason y I was thinking about an appropriate timing, was because this wasn’t just any ordinary gel that you can apply as n when u like. I tried applying it late at nite, b4 I slp, but after trying for 2 straight nites, I think it doesn’t seemed like the rite timing…

Though after applying the gel, u have a lot of restrictions, such as having to wash ur hand immediately after application, the gel cannot be applied to the face etc..However, no matter how much soap u apply to the hands, the hand is still retaining the effect of the gel.. Cuz the moment I accidentally rubbed my eyes, it was burning hot n I have to quickly run my eyes wif water as the pain was unbearable, making me hard to open my eyes.

In addition to tat, eating with hands is oso another prob as i will be tasting ‘chilli-like’ taste together with the food I am eating. For info, I am not a person who likes to eat spicy food that much.. An application a day, the effect can last for many hours, which I feel tat its more than half a day.. that is the reason y I planned to apply it during nite, where I will be slping, not eating anything, n my hands won’t be so itchy to touch my eyes or wat..

However, the 1st nite of application after a reached home n bathed.. I applied the gel on to my thighs, butts, tummy, waist, chest and my arms. Of cuz the beginning of application, it seemed ntg at all, so I just happily apply n apply onto my whole body.. Hear comes the set back.. It was horrible.. Cuz I applied without wearing my underwear, the gel which I applied to my inner thighs, rubbed against my ‘balls’ and it was burning hot! The pain was so unbearable.. That it sent me jumping around, even though I have my clothes on.

I was thinking since it was nite time, the atm shld be cooling already.. Ended up, I felt like surrounded by raging fire.. The air was still, I switched level 2 of my fan at home, blowing straight at me, but it just doesn’t helped at all.. at the moment, I really regretted applying it, but I guessed that’s the price of slimming down ba.. In addition to the burning effect, it just seems tat my tummy was painful as well..

It took about a couple of hours for the burning effect to wear off. The price of slimming back to my original size is really too much for me to bare, but delicious food in this world, is really too irresistible for my taste buds. Anyway, day 2 of application, I tried to be more careful, wearing precautions while applying it, but I was still not able to get used to the burning feeling, like wat my colleague told me. At this point of time, I can’t helped wondering, whether my colleague is a freak or not.

She was so kiasu tat she told me, she apply it every day on to her whole body some more. No wonder she was always complaining the office air-con not cold enough, while it seemed like winter to us. I really wonder when does it starts to feel effective like what she said. Anyway, just endured it ba, I have ordered 4 in total, so just tat she’ll be giving me 3 more when her other colleague come back from Malaysia.

Enough of this application for the time being, Friday was a holiday, but I spend the day at home instead, cuz I just simply dun have any activity on, so at nite, I carry my laptop to mac as usual to use. I completed “Beautiful Life” n “Revolutionary Road” for Movie n it was really disappointing. Revolutionary Road was acted by “Titanic” Cast, Kate Winslet n Leonardo Dicaprio, but this time it was boring. I think its not because of their acting, but the story just doesn’t interest me.

Next up was “My Girlfriend is an Agent”, a Korea movie. I catch it while I was having dinner at mac on Friday nite n it was hilarious haha. It sent me laughing n I can’t helped noticing the surroundings, in fear tat the others find me insane, laughing n chucking to myself, in front of the laptop, but it was really funny indeed. Finally I catch Michael Jackson’s Live in Burchart concert.. His dance move was really fascinating, I really hoped to master his moves 1 day.

Sad to say it was only Part 1 of the Concert as I am not able to find its Part 2. Ok next up, was my card sessions on Sat with Ben n wil. We met in the afternoon after lunch n beginning playing at mac for many hours.. Initially we planned to play only until last nite rider around 3am +, but ended up straight until morning again, where we have breakfast at KFC as usual. It was really tiring indeed.

This time i was on winning streak n I won quite a lot, to ard 800+ again. Wil’s winning streak was finally broken n he falls below me again. but the most severe damage was Ben. Though for the past few sessions, he managed to reduce his loss to around 1.2k, this session, pull him back to square 1. So we decided to carry on with our game next sat. I was so tired tat I knock onto my bed straight after washing up.

However, I only slept for about 4.5 hours n woke up around 2.30 pm n use the internet.. Until nite time, I come out again after dinner. For info, I applied the gel this time round, as I was thinking tat since the nite was so cold n I dun have to bring a jacket along since I will be freaking hot. I made the wrong choice again.. I am freezing cold as I am blogging now at mac.. (29th Nov 11.26pm)

Though initially, I regretted applying cuz I realize tat its not the rite timing as well.. I did not managed to apply my whole body this time, as even though I managed to take precautions by wearing something on while applying, i dunno how, but “it” just accidentally touched the gel n I was in deep agony. My both legs are super hot n I really can’t stand still n began to sweat. The burning sensation is still there even when I am sitting down n blogging at the same time, but not ask hot as compared to moments after just application, where It took me sometime b4 I am able to leave the hse.

This time I was not able to apply my arms as the ‘pain’ forbids me to apply any more gel onto any parts of my body.. Put this aside, now to the work factor again. I have managed to buy stamps so tat I can post the timesheets to the agency for them to process my pay..As for the full time job, now is another troublesome matter to settle, which is to obtain the licence for me to operate my full time job.

I tink there’s gg to be another interview, this time for the licence. The documents to prepare, was like so complicated.. 2 hardcopies, a softcopy in CD-Roms.. I have to prepare a document sent by them, b4 gg for the interview.. I am so lost n have to settle this alone… Urghh… This is really terrible... Wonder when all these nonsense will end n just let me start the full time job.

Finally to the finale of the long post b4 I start watching “Saw 1”, for this past few days while I was at mac, the ‘regular cust’ were here as well, including to nite. 1st nite, she was wif her family members? They were having dinner tog.. Then the 2nd nite, she came to study while the 3 of us were playing cards, which was sat nite. Some signals were received from her, but I am not confirmed whether the signal was correct or wrong. Anyway, as usual, I have no courage at all to approach her.

Come to think of it, there’s a high possibility that she is 18 yrs old, too young for me. The frds she mixed with, weren’t really gd companies as well, though I shldn’t judge any conclusions according to my eyes as I studied JC as well, but my companies also have good or bad.. So this time rd, she chose to sit just behind me. Zzz. Anyway it’s a ‘NO GO’ for me. I am not gonna make any movements, as I personally feels to let things go naturally.

Right now, I am not in a gd situation to be involved with any females.. But if fate n destiny were to come, I will be more than willing to welcome them as who noes the rite 1 might just be around me somewhere.. anyway that’s wat I think at this point of time. I shall stop here. (11.41pm).

Add ons..

Missed out 1 event on Thursday evening, which is gathering with my SIM friends at Marina Square, JusAcia (not sure spelled correctly or not). After catching up, we headed to buy some fruit wine, b4 walking to esplanade roof top to drink n continue our catching up, tog with some photo takings. It’s a pity, my hp camera’s nite view is somehow faulty, as I have drop quite a few times recently n the phone is not functioning properly.

A frd of mine have brought a camera, so used hers. Wonder whether she will be sending them over to me or not. Then I shall post the photos here…

bubbles of sadness.

*8:47 AM .

Monday, November 23, 2009

Photos for CMA work at SSC

The work at SSC is finally over. So i did managed to take a picture with my new friends. Well thanks to their push carts, they managed to gimme idea on what to buy for christmas gifts for my nephew n nieces, as well as my frds? Some were quite exp as well..zzz hope they can gimme a little bit of discount.. haha. Anyway here's the photos.

First of all, this is my working partner. Discard all the tiny little unhappiness, she's my new friend from India.

Next up, is my new china friend, i think her name is Joyce? Cuz we seldom spoke to each other for the 5 days, except for the exchange of smile n her asking me to how brooch is to be spoken in english. I think i have planned to buy some gifts from her stall.

Last but not least, the other push cart mended by Richard n his frd. Malaysian frds.. Well i looked so fat in the picture..OMG..But nvm la, think its the camera effect hor? the rest of the picture also not so fat leh.. Cuz my partner take the picture la..Haha joking. Anyway, tat's all for now..

Wait for my Tiong Bahru photo then.

bubbles of sadness.

*11:28 AM .

Nice Videos

Here's a video which i received from an online friend, Shze Ling, who share this video with me. The song is quite pleasant to me. Its by Taylor Swift (never heard before), Christmas song? - When you were mine.

bubbles of sadness.

*11:24 AM .

Random updates (start blogging on 22th Nov at 1.33pm)

Here I am at Starbucks, blogging down my stuffs. Hmm Ytd was sat n I have to work, the feeling was really terrible, having to work on weekends. I have to get used to it, when I start working at MBS, but recently I received another news from them, tat there’s another interview to go n all the troublesome documents to go thru again, to obtain the license. By then, wonder when can I really start my full time job?

Though ytd at SSC was boring, I saw a few ppl I knew coming to SSC. In the morning was Bingren. He companied his gf here n headed for the gym. After which, in the afternoon, comes some1 whom I noe, but dunno the name. Followed by evening time, Jason Bear & his frd, Bui Liu Liu come n saw me there. They were heading here to have dinner at Ajisen Ramen. Had I tot I have some1 to company eat dinner, ended up they go to some exp place to eat, of cuz exp to me now, as I dun wan to waste too much $.

So I headed down to SP n have my dinner at Mac with the company of my Laptop. Hmm the ger I have been talking about was there again. Wa notice tat the previous day n now comes 2 diff guys. Nowadays, ppl just hang around with diff guys back to back. Not only tat, differences in terms of education is not a factor for such a trend, cuz be it Uni, Jc, or Ite, they just have such category of ppl ard. Now is A’Level I suppose, so tat ger, most likely shld be from Jc.

Anyway NewspaperBoy come n joined me on n off n finally I have done with my things, I headed back home. I planned for a jog after reaching home, but since it looks as if it was gg to rain heavily, I dropped the idea, but stayed home to clear my mails instead. I think I was so tired tat my eyes were fighting hard to stay open. Eventually I give up n off to rest…

Until morning comes, I planned to wake up early to jog b4 gg to work, I ended up the opposite..Overslp n woke up super late.. I even have no choice but to skip my breakfast. Well this is the 1st time I tried walking to Sem Mrt to take the shuttle bus, ended up I found out tat it was a wasted effort, carrying my heavy laptop bag there, as the bus did stopped at my hse downstairs bus stop, b4 heading to SSC..How silly it was…

Anyway I endure until my partner come at 1pm, n headed for lunch, tat explains y I am able to blog now. Anyway, I have some dissatisfactory about my partner.. I find her ok in Day 1, but as days goes by, seems like I am tolerating her presence. I find it comfortable in the morning when I was alone..Minor things were we had diff interest, she is very into hindi stuffs, like movies, music etc.. So I bring my laptop was like…wan listen songs, also not very rite, wan watch movie also not very right..

For me I dun mind diff interest la.. Interest such things, shld come from self, so I nv force her to like my things, my music, my movies.. But ended up, she tried to let me watch her hindi movies, n some other things la.. She was a very active facebook user, while I am not.. I think she was trying to be nice la, but I dun wan to remove the working mask on her face, so I just stay polite n tolerate wif her, since its only 5 days of work.

But I can sense tat we were actually tolerating each other la. Cuz we were like talking about, hey u wan come later than 1pm I am fine with tat, then she would say, u wan go home early also nvm.. But so far we nv la, except she comes late for ard 15 mins, I leave early for about 15 mins. N she was like dun wan to work like tat, the prospectus were finishing soon, n she can’t wait to go home.

So jus now b4 she arrived, she keep smsing me, asking me about the count of the IPOs left, n asking me for news on the cust svc side, whether will there be replenishment of the IPOs or not. Then she reached here, she still asked me how? Then I asked her to call our supervisor Mei, n she still asked me to use my HP to call her.. I was like feeling irritated in my heart, cuz I called the cust svc a few times for her n now she still wan me to call Mei. So I just ask her to call herself, since I am fine wif working full until 7pm, so she wan to go home, she can call herself.

But ended up the way she sounded on the phone, like so desperate wan to go home like tat..N I was like being pulled inside.. I regretted letting her call, as the words she used, sounded terribly wrong. Anyway the instruction was no additional stocks coming in, but have to stay till closing. Haha anyway I have to go back to work again. cuz she told me she wan to go do something for her brother for few hours n I ask her b back by 5pm…

Stopped blogging at 2.02pm

bubbles of sadness.

*10:49 AM .

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Updates for 20th Nov, Friday (Start Blogging on 21st Nov at 2.22pm)

Ytd I was late for work, as I seemed tired as days goes by. I have tried to wake up early, to walk to Sun Plaza to redeem my Kfc breakfast b4 heading to the shuttle bus transport at Sem Mrt Station. However, things do not go as planned, as I woke up late n have to rush everything. Eventually I decided to take the breakfast n took a cab to SSC, however, something annoying happened.

Perhaps usually I dun feel frustrated over such things, but its when at such point of time, when u r in a need of rush in time, tat patience level dropped to a lower point. Logically when u approached a queue, ppl tend to head towards the queue which is shorter, so since I am kind of rush, my always working mind, just decided to take a short cut, n headed for the shorter queue, which I usually will stop awhile to think abt it, wondering y the queue is so short, compared to the rest of the queue.

Perhaps under my own opinions, I tend to choose which service crew is better, so I won’t mind having to wait a longer queue for tat ‘extra’ good service from the crew. Perhaps it could be due to the customer as well. The queue was ridiculously short as it only consist of a malay couple, served by a crew which I find it ok. But the other queue was like having around 5 ppl in the queue. Seems so weird from norm, so naturally I choose the shorter queue.

What happened was, I ended up only to be served when the 6th customer of the other queue was served. The reason was simply because the couple was like asking lots of question, ordering here n there n then after tat, order additional items again, after they were served. Guessed what? In total, their amount to be paid was, ONLY $8.20. Its not as if the other counter has no large amount orders, but they were served even faster..

Obviously I was late by the time I was served, n the crew exchanged ‘body language’ with me. (The crew recognize me as a ‘occasionally’ customer as KFC’s chicken is 1 of my favourite food.) After which, I headed for the taxi stand which was empty earlier on, only to find tat there’s a queue..I waited at the stand while looking out if the bus no 980 has arrived at the bus stop or not. I saved the taxi fare even though I was late.

Work was alright n I have conversations with some of the workers there, as their booth are nearby. So nothing much to talk about my work, but after work, I headed to Sun Plaza mac to meet Ben, the card game tonite was not planned in advance as I didn’t noe ben’s activity was cancelled. So I went to have dinner wif him, while waiting for wil to come. So after which we started playing, grateful tat there’s no conflicts as we managed to talk the terms out b4hand.

After playing a while, I have to go home to bath n take some things from home to them as this card game was last min, n I did not bring them out to work. B4 gg home, ben n wil play among themselves while I went to arcade to play sf4 for a while. Planned to go home at 9.30pm, ended up cuz I was winning, the whole game ended till closing ard 9.55 n I rushed home. After which I headed back to meet Ben n wil again.

Game was alright n after 1 whole pot of game, the result was not varying. Ben finally won tog wif me, wil is the only 1 losing. But he only lost 50 bucks, which I only managed to win 10+. Anyway we saw something, which disappoint me quite a lot in the middle of the game, but its only for the 3 of us to noe wat its all about. Who wanna noe, can only ask me in person, privately.

They wanted to play overnite until morning but since I have work on a sat morning, we only played till 3am + where ben took the last nite rider home. That’s all for the day.

Stopped Blogging at 2.52pm

bubbles of sadness.

*1:05 AM .

Random updates (start blogging on 20th Nov at 2.26pm)

Here I am blogging at SSC Starbucks during lunch time. I had a heavy breakfast, so I decided to skip lunch n blog instead. Retail life is kind of slacking actually, it’s a pity tat my laptop’s wireless system is not working so I am not able to access to internet. Earlier on, I saw my bro at SSC, I thought he was working so was wondering how come he showed up at SSC. He told me tat its his off day today, so he will be gg 4 interview afterwards, so decided to come here to take a walk.. Hmm…

Anyway he managed to talk a little (We seldom talk at home), n I found out tat he is working at Tiong Bahru Area, so he offered to drive me to my workplace on Mon, if I managed to leave hse on time wif him. It’ll be great to be able to save on my transportation. Hmm it was 2 nites in a row tat I went jogging late in the nite. Felt refresh n I can’t wait to really slim down.. There’s a pant which I used to wear n I hope to be able to wore it comfortably like I used to, in the past. It is my favourite pant..

Well I do not have any interesting stuffs to update today, but since I have been blogging wordy posts for this few days, I have decided to come up with some pictures on my last day of work on Sun. With take some pictures wif some of friendly ppl, who worked with me this feel days. There’s a shop beside me tat sells toys for children n it does helps me think of several presents to buy for my niece n nephew. Hmm Christmas is near n I wonder how am I gonna cele? Until now, still haven’t got any plans.. Wonder how many presents shld I buy?

Stopped Blogging at 2.34pm

bubbles of sadness.

*1:04 AM .

Friday, November 20, 2009

Does Luck Really Exist? (Blog on 19th Nov at 8.28pm)

I finished my work and currently I am at SP Mac, Blogging down my feelings at this point of time. What makes me really think about the topic of luck, is due to the things I have been gg thru lately. Does luck really exist, or is it just an excuse for people on the things that had happened? Well it is not to my level of knowledge to really explain about it.

What had been revolving about me have been so negative and I really can’t helped thinking that this has to do with luck? Take for instance, everything I have been doing lately wasn’t really smooth at all.. In terms of work, though I got a couple of temp jobs coming here n there, even if I have it, things just dun last. Imagine, the temp jobs keeps ending earlier than the predicted time. In addition, my full time job just send me waiting full of uncertainties when it actually starts. Even if I found a nice temp job, it was too far, or interrupted by other temp offers, which send me off my balance..

Gambling? Bought little 4D, so far only strike ibet of 20 bucks. I bought ordinary numbers, the numbers keep missing by sequence or few numbers. When I came across at time when I have no time to buy, the number actually come out.. Or when I decided to buy Ibet, instead of ordinary number, it came out.. In terms of mahjong, I have explained in my mahjong session on the few post ago. In terms of cards, I have explained in my previous post…

In terms of game, well its either the button wasn’t working well, or my performance wasn’t there. Like I finished work earlier, I headed to Sun Plaza to relieve my stress, ended up only to keep losing to a player whom I used to win.. I keep losing at the last part, the game was so close n for some reason, I just couldn’t execute the move that I intend to do.. Was it really cuz I am unlucky, or is it because I am too tired? I am not in the mood to play? The button or joystick wasn’t working well? These seems as excuses given by me, but which 1 was the right reason? Is it all the reasons or actually none of them r true? I really have no idea at all..

What about my love life? Well dun say about the past r/s, the ppl I have come across.. Really makes me feel like she’s a weirdo… Fate was like so funny.. The ones I managed to contact wif, either makes me feel awkward n weird about them, keep smsing n pestering me non-stop, until I feel breatheless or it was like a long distance away, having lots of communication difficulties, which ended up having lots of misunderstanding n misinterpretation of the meaning of the sentence. The people you hope to at least noe in your life, just lies in front of my eyes, but yet it seems so near, yet so far.. Either I am blocked lots of barriers or something just stopped me from moving forward.. My inner fear stops me, or the outer person, just didn’t send me a ‘GO’ sign for me to move forward…

All these could be due to my own self, lack of confidence, lack of self esteem, or it could be any other reasons? Is my luck really down? Or is the problem on me? WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? I hav to stop havin all those negative tots, but each time I tried to get up, each time I tried to be confident again, building up my self-esteem, I was just beaten badly on the ground. Like sf4 earlier on.. I was confident tat I can win him, but the results keep losing…Lose until I begin to doubt myself.. doubt my confidence.. Doubt everything.. Y are things so rough, tat it seems tat my path ahead was full of pains n sorrows.. It got so painful that I could hardly move forward anymore step, not even a single step forward.. I jus wish tat this could end.. I’m suffocated n feel as though I am buried under a pool of traps.. n they just keeps pulling me down, like heavy weight, dragging me deep into the sea, I could hardly surface, n the lights from the surface of the water just keeps getting further away, as I sink deep into the endless depth, wondering when will I ever feel the seabed..

Stopped blogging at 9.56pm

bubbles of sadness.

*2:22 AM .

Random Updates (Started blogging on 19th Nov at 2.55pm)

Surprised that I am able to blog again, even though I am working throughout the entire week at SSC. Anyway I shall explain that as I continue blogging from where I stop with. My first day of work at SSC was quite unexpectedly alright to me. Well this is my first time experience, working in a shopping mall, at timings different from my years of office experience. I was thinking, tat its gonna be serious as said during the briefing, however, things weren’t true at all.

I was told to report at 9am, earlier than usual days as I need to do the packing of separated items into a goodie bag for the IPOs (Initial Public Offerings) for their New shares released to the public, including the Prospectus. Luckily I worked at a stock brokerage firm during late July – Early Sep this year, thanks to Sim friend, Angie. So such terms as IPOs & Prospectus are not new to me, though I dunno really noe the meanings..

So I am in the morning shift, while my partner, Sandy was the afternoon shift. I arrived at 9am, n saw the booth was located just rite at the entrance. I reported to the Manager in charge but since the stock has yet to arrive, so I was told to walk around while waiting for her call. It was so early so all the shops are closed. Hmm having live at Sem for so many years, though SSC is located within walking distance from my house, but I have only stepped into SSC not more than 3 times ever since it has renovated n reopened.

This is simply because there’s a much more convenient shopping centre than SSC, which Is Sun Plaza. But anyway, since I will be at SSC for 5 days straight, no harm to walk around n c the new shops available. I walked every floor n seen all the shops, but I notice there’s no fastfood around here. My favourite subway is here, so I decided to try it during lunch time later.

It was already 10am but the stock have yet to arrive, so I decided to spend my time sitting at Starbucks while waiting, when I was surprise to saw Sammuel working there. (A frd who used to work at SP mac many years back) So I spoke to him n was planning to have lunch wif him since he knock off at 2pm+, which is around my lunch time. Finally it was only until 11am+ tat I received the call n headed to the office to pack the goody bags.

It was a whole lot of 100 copies.. It took me quite some time to finish packing, which was around 2pm + and carry all the way down to the 1st floor to the booth. My 2nd shift partner has arrived at 1pm. But since I came down late, he has left the place, so I have to eat my lunch alone. I headed to subway, but was disappointed that there’s no egg Mayo offered there, but since I ordered beforehand, I told myself it’s the last time I’ll eat subway there. It doesn’t satisfy my taste buds, wifout egg mayo in the sandwich.

So after which, I headed back to the booth n we entertain each other by talking until my shift ended at 6pm. Under usual timing, it will be 10am – 7pm. Afternoon shift will be 1pm – 10pm. Sun I intend to exchange my afternoon shift wif her, since mon I hav to report back to work in the morning at Tiong Bahru. Finally, it was time to knock off n I went to SP to mit wil n ben, to play cards..

It was a disappointing outing.. cuz something unhappy happened during the card game n especially its on me.. Well u noe its involved in $, and if it’s a fair match, I am the kind of person who admits defeat if every conditions are fair n square. However, this is not so true at all for tat particular round.. further more, the amount I lost is pretty heavy.. So after which, it really affect my entire mood, n as u noe, typical Leo ppl r self-centred, who doesn’t care about others.

Yes he was so unfair in the game, n he give the game away, but still refused to let the game be forfeited. Tat’s y I was so unhappy wif him. Anyway, in future, if such a thing occurs again, I told them beforehand tat I wan the round forfeited n the person who give the game away (spoiling the game) will be forfeited. If not I refuse to pay for the losses which I dun deserve.

Well so there goes my nite, n ended it around 10pm. Then Sherman came n we played his PSP tog until around 11pm. After which, I headed home n prepare to go 4 a jog, since the weather is fine. After jogging, as usual, I headed down to Sun Plaza Mac to sit n have a drink.. Well you noe there are ppl on earth, when u saw each other many times, they just have some form of Magnetism field, which attracts each other tog…

There’s a ger who have been at mac studying for months, which I dunno what exams or wat level of education is she now. As I was a frequent mac visitor wif my laotop, cards sessions wif frds, studying for exams etc.. seeing each other was not a day or 2.. But it was only this few months tat we see each other, n she doesn’t really exist at all in the past. Ie, I have seen many regular faces, but not hers..

Well dun worry, there’s ntg chemistry going on at all. She is not really the very pretty type, neither she is the ugly type. She gives me a feeling of hardworking ger, but yet dun think she’s a very nice, decent ger feeling, but I think its those wild, playful type. I think she’s only studying n working hard cuz it’s the exams period I guess. Anyway neither 1 of us approached each other, n its just gonna be the end of the story. I am not the kind of guy who is initiative..

Some ppl existed n dun have to be tog as a couple, but it just seem like a regret in this life, not being able to noe each other as a frd or so.. Will fate or miracle bring us a chance to talk?

Ok anyway back to work, enough of slacking around..

(Stopped blogging at 3.33pm)

bubbles of sadness.

*2:20 AM .

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Updates for 13th Nov – 17th Nov & few days plans ahead (blogged at 27th Nov, 9.55pm)

I have decided to blog this earlier from normal weeks (I am usually only free on weekends onwards) because starting from tomorrow onwards, I will be undergoing another short changes in my lifestyle. People undergo different form of changes all the time, depending on time n place of the environment surrounding them. Hence under such phases in my life, I am facing several changes, especially this yr.

Changes can be good at times, but can be bad as well, depending on the situation. Of cuz for my case, its usually more negative than positive. This yr indeed was a very tough yr, but having pull thru so far, its not the time to give up, else everything will be gone to waste. On the surface, changes might seem positive to me, but its really very hard to adapt as it was quite rapid n pack.

The latest update was I am working temp at tiong bahru for few weeks, while waiting for my full time job, which until now its still uncertain. (Latest informed was thru email that I will noe by late Nov. I am still counting down the days. When exactly will be the time I receive their news?) So from tml onwards, I will be working at SSC for 5 days, dealing wif some IPOs for Capital Land. This week is gonna be tough for me as my weekends will b burnt and on Mon, my Temp job at Tiong Bahru will resume.

Back track few days ago to last weekend, initially I was hoping of enjoying it before this coming week comes. But this Ben, did not wan to come down for our usual activities. Well if not for Wil calling my jc bro for mahjong session, ben would not have show up. However it was something I dreaded, overnite again.. Since its been a long time we played Mahjong, so I agreed.

In my previous post, I did mention it, so here comes the results.. It was a complete disappointment.. Its not because of the rustiness of my skill in the game, but something just seems weird.. it’s the same as in playing cards game recently. My luck seemed to be very down lately n my credits have been dropping so much that even wil have surpassed my winnings..

Of cuz in a game, when someone loses, definitely there’s bond to have a winner.. No 1 can say to be super lucky thru out his/her life. If there’s really such person on earth, I wish I am 1 of them (It can’t be true). So from wat I have said above, obviously the super lucky 1 is Wil. As for ben, the ans is quite obvious wif the description made. He’s the only 1 who have been losing thru out this entire yr.

His bad luck starts ever since the start of this yr, keep losing n losing until such shocking results. At certain occasion he did managed to make a comeback, however, the lost is always higher than the winnings. Anyway this tough yr is gonna be over soon. Compared to him, actually, I rather be bad luck at this card games we played n be smooth in my daily life. No point winning so many credits, wasting so much time playing on it, but dunno when those credits will turn to real cash.

So back to this mahjong thing, I meet wil at sem at around 7pm+? Then we headed a long journey, taking train to Yishun n transfer bus 969 to Tampines interchange, meeting Ben there. After which we took bus 72 to Ray’s hse (JC Bro). U can imagine transportation fee would be high n travel so far just to play mj..Its a pity tat nearby our houses, there’s no frds we noe who could play mj tog. Even if we do have, the rates are astonishingly high.

So we begin our 1st round at around 9pm, well this time I am quite satisfy tat my bro has changed the seats to those which have back rest. Actually its not thanks to my bro that we got a better chair, but its cuz his relatives were playing earlier on, so tat accounted for the better chairs. Seriously I am not very happy wif the treatment of Ray, as he has been causing a lot of happiness to my weekends or activities, like cancelling activities at the last min (A lot of times, wasting our trips there)

Ok I just skip on.. So we played a total of 4 full rounds and for all the rounds, I just have a common action.. Tat is, opening the drawer n giving out chips thru out the game. My luck was consider the worst thru out the game. Why I said tat its not cuz of my skill that I lose, its cuz no matter wat kind of tiles I get, I seldom throw the winning tiles for other ppl to win the game.

When I get the lousy tiles, ppl already start to listen, while I am still having diff forming my sets, cuz the tiles I drew was lousy indeed.. By the time I managed to start listening, the rest of the players won already.. I am consider a balanced strategy player, defending n attacking at the same time. But usually more towards the cautious type, tat’s y players sitting after my turn, have diff feeding on my tiles.

Now, even if my tiles are nice, I couldn’t even win, cuz my drawn tiles were just poor, even if I start waiting, ppl won away.. Or if I have ‘water $’ from 4 tiles of the same or biting flowers, I just give them back to the rest, cuz ppl sure have ‘water $’ as well, plus winning the game. So end up, nothing goes into my drawer left. The only happening thing in the 1st round was, Ben makes a mark of himself by ‘Za Hu’.

Its really surprising tat ppl can ‘Za Hu’ easily. Actually I was quite slply n tired n for tat round I was sitting oppo of him, so I didn’t really pay attention to his tiles, when he flash them open. Cuz I have been paying, so it was like a habit for me, when I hear some1 shouting ‘Hu’. Then Ray n will caught him n he paid 6.40 chips to each player. Cuz our rates are 20-40 times 1.5 at the end of the game.

Well the 6.40 he paid to me, wasn’t even enough to recover my losses as $ keeps going out, but nv come in. So the 1st game, leading was ray n wil. N of cuz wil has been on luck recently, he won n all of us were shocked (cuz he has nv won each time we play mahjong) His was the most latest to start playing mahjong. Seriously speaking from wat I observe, his skill actually nv improve lo. Still anyhow play, but its cuz tat he’s so lucky tat he managed to escape n won..

Well so we played on, I was getting slply n really dun have the mood to play anymore.. In the 2nd or 3rd game, wil actually was chosen to be sitting after my turn. I really guard him so tight n even so, he can keep self draw n win the game.. This was really so frustrating.. So this lasted until morning n the results is very clear.. Wil is the only winner out of the 3 of us for the 1st time..

But the rest of us, the results were quite surprise. When morning comes, my luck starts to recover a little n I managed to recoup. Ray’s luck is oppo from me. His luck starts to dip as each round goes by.. As for Ben, it was fluctuating badly.. So Ray lost the most of around 42, wif me down by 36 and Ben only 21 down if I am not wrong. The results are after multiplying 1.5 to the original chip count.

Even though Ben paid heavily at the beginning, his luck was pretty gd. But anyway at the end of the game, most imptly we did satisfy ourselves cuz we get to play mahjong after such a long time. So we went to have our breakfast at kfc, ray did not join us. The rest suggested playing cards after eating breakfast, so we played till ard 12pm b4 gg a long journey back home..

As usual, the results need not be explained.. I went home wash up n slp till evening time where I woke up n headed to sun plaza a while after eating dinner at home. I meet newspaperboy n played awhile of street fighter 4 n headed down to chat for a while b4 heading home n prepare for work. Mon comes n it was a day of work at Tiong Bahru, b4 I stop for a week n carry on this coming mon, so it will be a temp farewell to my fellow colleagues..

Well Mon nite, I actually went to do something which I dun have the courage to do in my life. I went to meet a female, whom I noe online. I still rmb a conversation wif my colleagues during lunch time about online ppl.. ya its really ridiculous, n u can be surprise the kind of ppl u will meet thru online.. Online really hard to find a nice ppl around..well but I think part of me have changed a little ever since my past r/s have ended..

Yup its true tat 1 ppl’s beliefs n mindset will change depending on wat things they experienced.. Before a r/s starts 1 have a certain kind of beliefs n mentality towards something. When a r/s starts, cuz 2 diff ppl come tog n influence each other, a new beliefs arises..Whether this mindset can sustain until throughout or not, depends on the 2 person in the r/s. When the r/s falls, 2 ppl separated n have diff sets of mindset again, but it will definitely not be the same as before..

Yes my mindset has indeed changed..or its still the same? Its quite complicated though.. I am terribly dishearten towards love.. It was hurtful, I dare not touch it. My attitude towards such wat was beautiful thing on earth, has withered dark n grey.. There’s no such things on earth anymore.. ppl in this world are just horrible creatures. The ppl I have encountered showed me horrible things n everything turned ugly in the end..

There’s no more true love, but only masks after masks tat ppl r wearing. Ppl like to flirt around, like to play n fool ard, y can’t i? so after work after several attempts this ger asked me out, I decided to mit her.. I shall call her sheep as she has addressed herself. I have nv see her photos b4 but my photos were displayed on my Msn. I must really admit tat this ger was really very weird in my opinion. Mentally emotional n it frightens me, but I decided to meet as I am always curious..

So it was planned at Vivo City n I meet her at last.. Of cuz I noe during conversation tat she’s not the type of ger I wanted, as she’s sounded open.. The 1st thing we confirmed our identity on phone, she did something which takes me aback.. I was so shocked tat she holded my hand n grab my arm n begins so touchy..It was such a horrible feeling tat turned me off at once. Is this how ppl flirt around? How can ppl take such a kind of encounter?

Immediately at once, I really feel disgusted by it.. Holding hands wif some1 u truly love its completely a diff kind of feeling.. I can tell it straight n feel it wif my heart.. I recall the times when I hold my hands wif my ex, esp the woman which I loved the most dearly so far, which is my 2nd ex.. She really gave me the most comfortable feeling I ever have being wif her..(dun say the bad feelings she gave me) I really loved her hugs n stuffs..
But this bad encounter was like an extreme oppo..

She was very down n upset, but refuse to tell me wat..as a friend, I tried my best to lend a listening ear n comfort her as she asked. I hated it when she keeps grabbing my hand n arm even though I struggled obviously wif a strong hint.. but it was in the public, I dun wish to make a hu ha n attract unnecessary attention. Anyway she intro me to a place for dinner, super hotdog at vivocity. Can’t really rmb the name, but I tasted a grilled fish burger n it taste great.

So after dinner, we went to the place where we can see the river view. Indirectly, thanks to her tat I get to c a nice Christmas tree there n some nice scenary.. Its been a long time since I went to vivocity already. How nice if at such a time, I am wif the ger I loved most, enjoying this scenary.. Here comes the lousiest part.. She actually cried on my shoulders…I felt horrible, but Its kind of bad to push her away.. so I just sit like a rock n pray in silence tat such a moment will end..

So I just comfort her by telling her about my own encounter, n I mean diff ppl have diff ways of overcoming it.. The more hurt the woman u love gave u, the most faster u wan to get over it. I admit tat for the start it was really tough n each days were so miserable, 1 feel like dying..The worst is, even after she left me for another guy, her frds n her still hurt me more, n gave me hell in my blog n their own blog.. I can’t bear it, I close down my blog for some time n switch it to another address..

Having overcome it, I kind of prefer my life now.. though it was lonely at times, but I dun think I will be like her, going else where n just find any gers n fool around.. I jus keep myself occupied n busy..Doing lots of things myself, to keep myself from not thinking abt her n only reduced to tearing every nite b4 I slp.. Yea it is definitely not worth to even drop a tear for such a woman..

Well of cuz I keep saying all this, is actually to hint her la.. Though I think her life is really quite scary enough n I am really terrified as she seemed mentally unstable.. So anyway as promised I sent her to her house nearby at kovan n faster depart there n left for home.. I tot tat my body language has already sent messages to her tat I am not interested in her, I can just be her frd n show her comfort when she need a listening ear..

Initially she sent me an sms after we departed, I tot the sms was like ‘Dun worry, I will keep you as my frd lo.’ Tells me tat its gonna reside here, but ended up it seems like I am giving myself additional trouble.. She begins to irritate me after I replied her. She sounded demanding n insist to mit tomorrow, cuz I was very frank wif her when she asked me about my schedule the next day. I told her I would be attending a briefing in the morning n thank goodness I received a call during our meeting time from my boss, whom I used to work wif him at NUS.

So I sensed something amiss, I sort of decided to keep away from her and told her tat I am not sure the wat time the briefing will end n I might have to head down to meet my boss to discuss the project he have for me. So very likely I might not be free to meet her.. I will be very tired as well n the next day I will be working for straight 5 days, burning my weekends n mon I have to straight away report back to work at Tiong Bahru..

Well anyway I keep pushing her away n my messages becomes shorter.. It seemed so persistent n irritating. I recall on Mon lunch wif my Tiong Bahru colleague, 1 of them told me about her experiences. Diff ppl saying the same thing to u, has got diff feelings. If you love tat person, wat ever the person says, will sound so sweet n loving, but if you dun love tat person, u feel disgusted, whatever the person says to u.. Yup I really experienced it..

Well so this morning I woke up n hurried to Tanjong Pagar for the Briefing.. I got assigned to Sem Shop Centre (Thank goodness) for this coming 5 days to mend the booth there. My task is to just give out IPOs to investors who might be interested to invest. So which means Wed to Sun I will be working at there lo.. I gotten my working Polo-T n after the briefing, I headed back home.

Of cuz, I called my Boss as he told me to call him this morning n cuz I am tied down wif my Tiong Bahru work, I might not be able to help him wif his short project. So he would give me an ans whether he can wait till 1st Dec b4 I went over to help him out. Everything actually ended b4 12pm, but her sms n miss call really frightens me.. It keeps coming n I have to reply her after she sent a few sms.

I just replied that the short briefing turn out to be a training n I will be heading over to my boss work place in the afternoon n I will be tired after all the travelling. But her reply was, where is ur workplace, I come over to find u.. My hint was really obvious tat I am not meeting her today. I even purposely take a long time to reply her, but she keeps asking me where am I now, etc..

I reached sem in the afternoon, my frds all were not able to eat lunch wif me, but my heart tells me clearly, I rather feel more comfortable eating myself than to have lunch wif her.. anyway I reached home after eating n played wif my lovely nephew, and online, blocking her in case she online. She then send me an sms, tat she go out wif her frd to vivocity to walk..

Her life was really very complicated, like hanging out wif lots of guys.. But anyway I dun even care about her lifestyle, all I advice her was, find a proper r/s n get on wif life, no point leading such a messy life.. But I am not sure she was able to catch my message or not. I tot I have peace then on.. Ended up after she went out wif her ‘frd’ for a few hours, the message starts again.. asking me where am I, wan to come over n have dinner wif me at my boss workplace..

I told her I am really very tired n most probably I will be gg home to rest, not eating dinner. Her last sms gave me a chance to send a strong signal to her. She seemed so concerned abt me n even ended her message wif ‘muck muck’ as though I am already her bf.. My replied was super short, I completely ignored her last message n wrote ‘errrr….thanks’. Thanks is only referred to her concern as a frd. Finally no more reply from her.. Finally I have peace, like I used to have..

Actually I have gotten used to not having my handphone by my side all this while le. Not waiting for any messages like I used to when I was wif my ex..at work, I can even put my handphones at the drawer n go around the offices n come back after my things only to check for miss calls for news from my jobs. Not like I go anywhere I carry my handphone along, waiting for messages like an idiot, yet while I was waiting, she was smsing wif another person..

I hope this horrible ordeal has put to rest for now..Just worried tat tomorrow morning I won’t get the same thing again from her. But its thanks to this encounter, I somehow managed to find back myself a little.. I really wonder how can a person flirt around wifout even feeling weird n uncomfortable? Definitely, such kind of life really doesn’t suit me..i tot I can be equally bad, from wat other treated me, but eventually I find tat I can’t…

I shared the news wif Ben, even him also say, he will feel very weird lo. If I wan a hug, if I wan to hold a ger’s hand, it has to be some1 I truly love. The feeling is the most comfortable n the most happiest..I won’t 4get the feeling I have at tat time in my life.. It was the most memorable.. So I hope tat I would be able to find such feelings again 1 very day.. Anyway I guess I shall stop here.. I decided to blog now, cuz I am worried tat I might not have the time to do so, since I would be busy working this few days..

Stopped blogging at 18th Nov 12.02am.

bubbles of sadness.

*7:27 AM .

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Updates for this week (9th Nov - 15th Nov)

Well actually its supposed to be from last sat until ytd, fri on my updates la. But i lazy to change, so i follow my previous blog date. Now i dun have time to blog very frequent wif my laptop at mac. Seldom use my laptop ever since work begin.. Anyway so i can update on a weekly basis. Hmm i think i managed to watch a few movies last sat n sun.

Movie Review: Nightmare on Elm's Street 6

Well this movie, i think i catch it wif Newspaper boy at mac, while having dinner tog. Even he also said that the series gets better, scarier n horrible than past series as it increase. this is by right the last episode of Nightmare on Elm street,but i notice tat there's a final episode which is 7. but anyway i have no time to watch it recently, so i shall put on hold. But anyway this series, it says, freddy is dead. Anyway its not a bad movie afterall. Reminise of the past movies.

On Sun night, i was hanging out wif newspaperboy again. Well this time i was feeling restless cuz mon hav to work again, then some more i have yet to finish my batt of my laptop, so decided to catch a dvd movie, i brought from home to watch. It was The Phantom of the Opera. End up Newspaperboy company me to watch. However, becuz the movie was longer than 2 hrs, the batt is not enough to last until ending, so it went flat towards the very ending part, where Raul is chasing down to the dungeon to save Christine from the Phantom.

Movie Review: The Phantom Of the Opera

This movie, or rather 'Musical' Which i prefer to address, is one of my most favourite Musical piece tat i won't feel bored watching n listening to the songs over n over again, that i can even recite the lyrics wifout looking at the subtile. Well of cuz this is by far, the most recent version of 'Phantom of the Opera' far from the original version.. No matter wat, i still like it. The female actress, who acted as Chirstine Daae' is beautiful n suits the role..

However, the most disappointing was the Phantom.. his voice wasn't great as the original vocalist, which sounds more man, more strong n filled wif emotions.. However, this musical nv fail to touch me every time i watch it.. Cuz the ending was tragic for the phantom.. I like the phantom role, rather than the love rival, christine's childhood frd, Raul..However, the ending was really deserved this way, had phantom not go to the extreme of killing a person..Which horrified Chirstine..

But if the story nv goes on this way, i think the story is hard to go on.. or rather a different ending would be made.. However, phantom's big generous heart in the end, let them go, leaving him suffering alone, n even visited chirstine's grave at old age, when she passed away.. phantom's whole life was really so tragical..nevertheless, i still love this movie made...

Monday

As usual, It was monday blues for all working ppl.. the same goes for me..But anyway everything was fine. After lunch, around 3pm, a colleague of mine, Alyssa, introduced me a gel, which she has been using for a long time. She apply it every day, on her whole body. the gel is for burning of fats and she n her frds who used it, finds it effective, n she can eat a lot. Unlike me, i have to eat little n control my diet. I have been eating fish soup everyday at lunch in office.

So she ask me to try once, if i like it, she will help me take order n wait her frd go malaysia then buy for us. Each tube only cuz 25bucks SGD. Its much more effective than those Saloons, which costs a bomb. Anyway, i tried it n as what they warned me, starting won't feel anything cuz inside aircon room. But after wards i will feel very hot. So i went to apply on my arms, tummy, thighs n butts. True enough, when i apply it, i feel ntg.

Only slowly it gets to be icy cool. Then cuz i was late today, i stayed abit late, but nv expect to be late. Cuz last min, ben n 1 agreed to catch a movie at doby ghaut Cathay. It was Saw 6. Since there none of my frds who hang out wif me are above 21. Only ben, the rest are not very close or busy wif their life. So decided to catch it wif ben.

Hence i rushed walking to the mrt n take to doby ghaut from tiong bahru. SInce last time lesson, waiting for bus is not a gd idea, i walked. But nv expect.. the burning feeling is so strong tat i almost jumped aboout n feel like stopping. The heat was so strong tat it seemed unbearable.but nevertheless i rushed to have dinner wif Ben at Long John Silver. Its been long since i have LJS. It tasted like heaven haha.

Anyway i asked ben to help me buy, cuz i was still 'jumping' around. Though LJS tasted like heaven, i dun get to enjoy it cuz of the heat, esp on my thighs..Furthermore, we r rushing for the movie..

Movie Review: Saw 6

Saw 6 was alright la, as usual horrible lo.. However i think some of the parts were boring n it makes me feel like slping..THink too much of this n the same stuffs..although they are creative wif its traps n games la.. but some are really impossible lo.. can't imagine 1 person or 2 can do some many things, n wif proper police systems, i doubt they will have so much space n locations to do such acts..Some more while capturing ppl, they make it seems like they are ghost.. n the success rates of capturing their targets are 100%.. However this episode is still alright to me.. But its not like the beginning original jigsaw...

After the movie, we have some time, we go to plaza sing burger king to play 2 hours of cards game b4 gg home..Since the movie was not suitable to relieve stress from work.. Well i think i was having a headache.. 1st round i was losing badly.. thinking that my luck really so down recently.. But thankfully, i fight back n managed to lose only by 2..Heading home n even until the time i slp, the burning is still there..

Tuesday & Wednesday

I woke up n the burning feel was gone. Hmm i think nothing interesting happened today. Except for me being caught in 2 temp jobs.. cuz they were extending my job for higher pay..But i have other job at capital land for 5 days.from 18th Nov to 22 Nov.. Could be located to different shopping mall.. But prob is it only pay me 7 bucks per hr n i have to work weekends at the same rate.. I managed to found a replacement so i can cont my current temp.. but he put my airplane..

So ended up i have to work lo. next week my weekends will be burnt away.. Sian.. Anyway i think nite time i just do my usuals, go arcade find Sherman, a sf4 frd, n go eat dinner n he show me his laptop n Psp games n we play tog. Then wil com n play cards.. i won this 2 nites. This is great.Luck is coming back again.

Thursday

Hmm wil is working tonite, so i think i went jogging after returning home from arcade..If i am not wrong, i managed to take some pictures of my office desk. However, its not really so big as it sees, cuz i have problem getting the whole view of desk wif a further distance. If i went outside to take from outside view is possible. but i scared i will be seen by the rest as slacking..So i dun dare.

Nvm next time at the last day, i'll use as an excuse to take pic wif them n go take a pic of the office. Now just tahan wif not so precise photos, which i have to take it wif cautious as though i have a big office, its windows are glassed.

Pictures of my desk

Thats all.

Friday, was boring for me.. nothing much to talk about, except my sec sch bro, Derek asked me out to dinner n also nel n his gf. So the 4 of us, just decided to have dinner tog. I wanna jog, but it was raining tis few days, so i dropped the idea..

Hmm later i'll be going to jc bro's hse to play mahjong.. Since they organize n its been long since i have played.. Its gonna be overnite again.. i dreaded tat though, but ok la.. since ntg to do, so just go lo..hope i win^^ else i hate wasting my precious slp.. haha..

bubbles of sadness.

*1:03 PM .

Sunday, November 08, 2009

Recent Updates for the past Week (1st Nov – 8th Nov)

Its been long since I have the time to blog, once I have started my temp assignments. Since its been long time since I am able to online, It just clearly shows that my workplace has…no access to internet and stuffs… First of all, I would like to share about my temp assignment work environment, the pros and the cons.

Cons (WHAT TURN ME OFF!)
1) The workplace is located at Tiong Bahru area, not near the mrt, at the industrial area.
2) The pay is erhmm, not to my expectations, yet the distance from my house to workplace seems like not worth the pay to work there, but since its only for 2 weeks, while waiting for news from my full time job, I decided to accept the job.
3) Each day was like harder n harder for me to wake up early n travel long distances to work..
4) There was no internet, so no music for me to listen while doing boring admin work..
5) Despite having a ‘luxury’ working environment, the room is dusty and have a strong unpleasant smell, so having a sensitive nose, my sinus prob tend to occur frequently.

Pros (WHAT TURN ME ON!)
Fortunately, this job is some how different from other jobs I have worked before.
1) My colleagues are surprisingly friendly, consist of 3 females, who were much more older than me.
2) Its been a long time since I have my lunch together with my colleagues and chat happily with them. Usually I would be packing lunch from outside and having my lunch alone with my office computer.
3) My work desk is by far the best ever been assigned. Imagine 1 big room, with a big table, though no computer, but its all just for me. For some moment, I feel as if I’m a big boss haha.
4) So after day 2, I decided to bring my own laptop to workplace so that I can listen to my songs. I am very satisfied with the working style there.

Some other good and bad news I have to update about my jobs issues.

1) News from my full time job finally came. Though its only an email, but having news from them is better than none. Though the email stated that the start date could not be confirmed, but it was stated that by late Nov, they would be able to tell us when the training is gonna start. I just hope that my uncertainties feeling be cleared soon so that I can have a better idea on how to plan my things b4 I start work.
2) I actually have plans for another job which is a 6 days assignment, from 18 Nov – 23rd Nov, after my 2 weeks assignment, from 2nd Nov – 13th Nov) I went for the interview n was surprisingly confident of myself during the interview n I speak smoothly. The interviewer confirmed my position immediately on the spot, but have to go thru the procedure with the agency.
3) However, I am faced with another dilemma. The current temp assignment I am working on hopes to extend me until end of nov n they are willing to pay me at a higher rates after the 2 weeks. However I have been confirmed of my other jobs, so I am like being caught in the middle.
4) Since I dun wish to waste the effort of my agent helping me so hard to find me a job, I managed to find a friend of mine, to replace me. My agent will be arranging my frd for an interview on coming Mon, so I hope he managed to clear the interview, then I can concentrate on the extended assignment till end of the month cause it pays higher n I dun have to be bounded by cut off time from the agency n having to wait longer to get my pay. I have lots of bills n stuffs needing me to clear every month, hence I can’t wait too long for my little pay to come.

1 of the day, my colleagues happened to saw my screen saver on my laptop, so they came to see out of curiousity. They were like, wah when u I looked very handsome at tat time, before I ‘Fa1 Fu2’. Cuz we were talking casually, of cuz I was being questioned about my personal life. So they wanna see my photos. They commented on the photo I used to took with my 2nd ex’s while I was celebrating her birthday 1st time with her at Billy Bombers. Thinking back, it was like year 2007. There was a photo taken tog at billy bombers n they were like ‘wa Ni Zhe Zhang Zhao Pian Hen Hao Kan Lei!’ It was the 1st time I received such compliments. Haha. Of cuz the me now was like a little out of shape. They told me tat pic, my figure is just nice. Not too big, not too slim. They like the photo which I scanned the small neoprints into the com. It was nicely taken. Of cuz not to forget I was being teased. They encouraged me to slim down back to tat time, which in fact I am trying hard to..

That’s all I guessed for my work updates. I shall moved on to my life. I shall be taking some pic of my work environment n post them here next time.

Well since work is always boring, stress relief activities cannot be less as well.
Since wil is so free at home, we decided to meet up at sun plaza to play cards after my work. Well, I dun understand y, recently he’s so lucky that he’s been on a great winning streak.. Ben is too far from us n busy, hence he cannot be coming down often. As for me, I am really down on losing streak, exact opposite from wil..

This is extremely sad for me lo.. the highest credits I managed to win is 1.4k plus from both of them. Of cuz they were on credit only, cuz we were all poor man. Ben is the most unlucky 1. He owe the most or in fact he is now the only 1 owing us cash.wil originally owe me 400+ while ben 1k+, but recently cuz wil is so lucky that he keep winning until fri nite, we play overnite until morning n currently the latest results of the 3 of us is, ben owing wil 1k+, instead of me…Ben only owe me 500+ left..Meaning to say, my losing streak has cuz me to lose about more than half of my winnings..

From 1.4k+ until now 500+.. I have lost almost 1k of my winnings. Our game play is always fixed.. 1 hr of taidi, 4 piles, each pile taken by 3 of us n the 4th pile is the drawing card, should either player decided to pass, have to take a card from the pile. The rules of double n triple applies n this means, there’s very high chance of getting stuck triple.. We played each card 20 cents.. with four of a kind played out, each player have to pay 2bucks n royal flush 4 bucks from each player.

2nd hour, we switched game to wat we call ‘Ah Cha’? It’s a game we learned from frds n it seemed like normally old ah ma like to play this game. Its some how similar to mahjong but its easier to play. Its like each player has 5 cards each, only dealer have 6 cards. So u have to match 3 pairs of cards to win. Meaning any Ace matched wif any 9 to form a 10, is consider 1 pair. So respectively, 2 with 8, 3 with 7, 4 with 6, 5 wif 5, 10 with 10, J with J, Q with Q n K with K. So the game play starts wif dealer discarding a card from his hand to the discard pile n if the next player wants the card, he will pick it up n discard another 1, like mahjong. If he dun wan to pick up the card, he pick 1 card from the draw pile n discard another card.

Under normal condition, the person who throws the winning card, have to pay 2. our stakes are 1 – 2 bucks. So the other player who did not throw out the winning card have to pay 1 buck to the winner, just like mahjong. Ours is custom rule cuz we find that its really unfair if 1 player anyhow play, so a rule of ‘Fang Pao bonus is introduced’. Other special conditions are winning doubles, 2 bucks – 4 bucks. Means the game is won with 2 pairs of the same, eg u win with 2 sets of 2 with 8 n another set of other matches. For triple, Is u have 3 sets of same matches. For Picture cards, 5s & 10s, get 4 of them n a different other sets is also triple, with the rate of 3-6.

For the 3rd hour, is change suit game which we managed to come out wif. Each of us were distributed wif 10 cards each, then we take turns to draw cards from the draw pile n discard 1 card, without showing the players wat the card is, until there’s no more left for us to draw. Think each of us can only draw 7 times. So after which, we will form sets of 5 cards. 1 higher n 1 lower (texas poker style – high card lowest, 1 pair, 2 pair, 3 of a kind, straight, colour, house, four of a kind, then royal flush) So we compare the highest set we can make among the 3 of us n see who has the highest. Then we compare the 2 set which is the lowest 1 to see who wins. The win are calculated, a player who wins the highest set, gets 2 bucks from each player. The 2nd set will get 1 bucks each. So if a player wins both sets, then only the winnings would be high cuz the amount will be doubled. Meaning 6 bucks from each players. The same special conditions apply for extra cash like four of a kind n royal flush, 2 bucks n 4 bucks each.

The 4th hour is usually our favourite game, Microsoft Hearts! But cuz only 3 players so we have 1 pile being discarded away making the calculating of probability difficult. Shooting the moon still applies, winning will be higher. Greedy people lose more if the failed to shoot the moon.. The game play is more on a person’s knowledge to the game, technic and experience. OF cuz each of us have become skilled players in this game.

The last game is what ben call it ‘No brainer game’ cuz we dun have to use our brains to think in the game, but more on luck. The no brainer have 3 game play. 1 is black Jack, 2 is Thai Black Jack n 3 is ‘4 cards’. We rotate each players for each game to be a banker for 5 rounds each. After this game is consider 1 pot of game. So depending on the time we have to play, we set how many pots of game we can play. Anyway tat’s all for game.

Next is PSP which Ding lend me. I have returned him as he needs to lend his frd who is going oversea..so now, no more games for me to play while travelling long distance of work.. Sigh.. Cuz recently I am very hot about a tennis game called virtual tennis 3.. It was so fun, especially I can play with my frds.. I managed to play it well, except some moves I dunno or not very good in executing them. I did consider to buy a PSP next yr, but prob is, I think It might not be worthwhile just to buy a psp for the game but ended up not using it in the future…like waste $ just for 1 game..So Should 1 invest in a PSP or not?

Movie Review: Nightmare on Elm Street 5

This series is much more interesting n not lame than 4th Series. Its quite scary, overall I feel that its nicer than 4th. This time they managed to make a different ending. Usually the main role of the previous Series, end up dying in the next series, this episode, the main lead actually managed to survive in the end. Not bad, I shall await for the next series..

Movie Review: Michael Jackson’s This is It

Well it has been a long time since I went to a cinema to catch a movie. Well finally Michael Jackson’s last movie is shown in the cinema for only 2 weeks.. I was worried that I cannot get to watch it, hence wil helped me buy a ticket during his lunch break at cine leisure a day before the actual screening. Meaning we catch it on thurs, wil went to buy it on Wed.

Sadly, I really can’t trust wil to settle things for me, without having probs… The seats he bought was like…to the side? Dun talk abt this 1st.. Thurs was a bad day, cuz I was 15 mins late from work, so I stayed back 15 mins. The show was at 7.20pm. It was raining tat day.. I thought of taking bus to tiong Bahru Mrt, instead of walking, thinking tat its faster, but the crowd at the bus stop n the traffic proof to me tat, I make a wrong move.

I could have reached station at 6.35pm by walking, but ended up I reached at around 6.50pm by bus.. Regret to the MAX!. So I rushed all the way to meet wil, so ended up rushing everything just to not miss the first part of the movie. (I prefer to not rush things). Here comes the seat part.. Everybody bought the middle seats..except only a few of us sitting at the sides… its not tat the middle seats were all taken..Dunno how he buy the tickets.. Think everytime I am the 1 running the errands, so they took me for granted..
Now ask them to buy for me, all buy until like tat..

Anyway, back to the main issue. MJ has always been my idol in music industry. Naturally I would love to see his fantastic dance moves n was very sad when I noe that he is gone.. So I could not afford to miss this movie.. It was a documentary or rather a filming which was going on during his rehearsal for his final performance during mid of this year? Anyway cuz of the mishap, the rehearsal was not put to live..

I watched this 2 hour movie attentively.. His dance moves were still fantastic n just like his young days.. However, he did not show his moonwalk as well has his rounds of spinning.. I guessed probability he was old already, or it was a rehearsal hence he dun wanna display them. I managed to catch all of his Favourite songs and some of the parts, I can’t helped getting a little emo that I almost grief for his lost.. but of cuz, I managed to control my ahem..a tear or a 2. It was touching n heart warming indeed. Just to look at him during the rehearsal, I wish I was there too, receiving guidance n patience from him..
A movie which I love most n I hope to keep it in future to watch again n again….

Anime : School Rumble

Well this is an anime which I repeatedly watching it on n off until I dunno where I stopped. This anime was introduced to me by my ex gf.. So I only watched a few episodes, hence since I have no more anime to catch at this point of time after I finished Suzuka. I decided to complete this School rumble. I have yet to complete it, but soon. Stopped at episode 24, almost to the end of season 1. Well, I like this anime n there’s 1 think which sets me daydreaming again..

Yup this is especially so for Yakumo’s special power in the story. It was something for a guy like me, which lacks confidence, craving for such power.. it would definitely be great to be able to see the mind of ppl who loves me, rather the truth from the heart, behind the words spoken out from the mouth. So if I have interest for a ger, I dun dare to move forward cuz I fear rejection. The 1st step is usually the very tough move to make. Unless I can read the person’s heart n noe tat she loves me too, I will definitely go after her n confess to her..

However, thinking negatively as a balance, having such power such Is tough too.. Just like Yakumo, giving in a lot to her elder sis, Tenma.. Of cuz her sis is also very good n caring towards her, worrying a lot for her.. It was a heart warming kind of anime, I love such romance animes. Another bad thing about this power was, it would definitely be very hurtful, if u were able to see ur love 1, lying to u.. Such pains I have experienced b4 when I discover them, was very hurtful to me. Trust were broken n hearts shattered..
Looking forward to 2nd series, School Rumble 2.. I wonder how the ending is..1 thing I hate about anime was, the story, they make until the r/s so complicated n the end is, everyone was left dangling down there wifout any outcome. Nobody got tog..

bubbles of sadness.

*12:05 PM .

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

A Short Post

Well Work starts and i haven't got any time to blog like usual. Sad to say, though i have a big office n a big table to myself, there's no com nor internet to use. Besides the bad smell of the room as expected from the industrial area.. Anyway tml i am gg for a short interview for my next short assignment after this temp job. its late n i got to slp. cuz tml have to wake up early n travel for interview n back to work place. Update further during weekends ba..

bubbles of sadness.

*2:22 AM .

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