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*11:32 AM .

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

128th Day Without Serene

When will be the Day 1 Without my Miss Right? Tsk Joking. I have no faith in any woman after 2 bad experiences as well as what's happening ard the world these days.. Hmm so how's my day being a crippled? Since my last update, Sun i think i stayed at hm? Then Mon, cuz duck's gf is planning the surprised party for duck, ended up i was busy planning for them..

Well Mon was a terrible day.. Nothing goes smooth.. in the morning, i called Singapore poolz to postpone the interview as i really couldn't travel far.. Ended up, they moved back my interview to the nxt time..gosh...Dunno when they'll arrange me for another interview.. Nxt up, the plan was so messed up wif so many uncertain areas..I'm dishearten..

I dreaded the most when things didn't go as plan..not to the slightest bit.. Well i realised another personality of me.. When i wan to do things, i want to put in 100% effort, if not, might as well dun do, if half hearted.. So i really put in effort, though its not for me... Of cuz if its related to me, i'll put in more than 100% in to it.. I wanted the plan to be progressing smoothly, end up so many probs..

It does not lies on my part, but ended up, more towards the rest..Communication wasn't clear, n lots of poor conversation gg ard..Already planned like tat, end up so many changes..or didn't follow at all, after we have sitted down n discussed n agreed upon it.. Ended up, when the time comes, didn't follow.. i have to kip thinking of new strategies on the spot.. This feeling sucks..

It reminds me of the pass when i planned several gathering or celebrations for the group of younger frds.. i really put in lots of effort in it, but ppl just wouldn't appreciate the effort.. I'm not rich, if i got plenty of cash, i sure have no probs in planning even more interesting activities, which can match those crappy ideas from varieties shows oversea..Cuz i'm full of crappy ideas..

However, the fact is, i dun have tat loads of Money.. But wif watever i have, i tried to plan many interesting things to entertain them in my ways..But most of the time, it was just entertaining them, but stress on myself..What i hope was appreciation for the hard work, n i feel happy that my effort was paid off..They enjoyed, they participate enthusiastically, i feel happy, though i'm always the most busiest as the organiser...I dun mind it.. however, its always the other way...

That's the reason y, when i have reached the stage of being half-hearted, i have stop those plannings..Wat for make myself so hard n suffer, when i received unappreciative participations..The same kind of feeling goes for my relationships.. I become half-hearted after prolong of such reciprocation..esp the 1st 1 yr of my 2nd r/s..the 2nd yr, by rite shld be better, but...nah i dun wish to talk abt it anymore..If no1 is able to bring back my heart, i just dun have the strength anymore, after being hurt for so long...

Go back to this sucky Monday..I went for the treatment myself, as there's no car, no ppl free to bring me there.. i'm on my own..How pathetic..I dun have cash wif me, as there dun even accept nets..only straight cash..means, i have to walk all the way to sun plaza to draw cash..haha..great..My mum bring me a new scandal to wear, so i can endure the pain n walk there..

So wat happened nxt? on my tough journey, usually takes 10mins, ended up seems a long way..I got hard probs crossing the road..The timing for the green light, seems so short now, n i have to hurry down to the other side of the road.. the worst thing was..the new scandals can spoil on the 1st day... crippled leg, plus spoilt scandals..tog wif a very warm n humid day..its just plain crappy...

Hurried to draw cash n take a cab down, some more the guy at the clinic, called me to rush me down as he has another patient at 4pm.. Sian..Worse still, tat cab took me a big round b4 reaching the place..n he still charged me at the exact amount.. Reached there, tat guy like anyhow massage my foot, n schedule another appt for me on nxt sat..

I'm thinking, the way he massage, i can do it myself at hm lo.. each time come, cab to n fro, plus medical fee of 25 bucks, is equal to 39 bucks.. 3rd treatment this time..dunno how much $ fly away le.. i'm so tight that i have to force myself to work today..then on the way back, i'm suppose to go to sp mac to mit duck's gf n william for the plan, but cuz of slipper, i have to take a cab hm 1st..

this cab driver, oso the same.. so speechless..extra $ again..i stopped at my hse, to chg slippers..then walked back to sp..i was oso mad at something..the plan is coming soon, ended up things are not gg as planned..Its almost 5pm..yet, duck is sending his gf hm..original plan, wil pull duck hm tog after sch..duck gf go hm herself..They convince me that they are able to prevent duck from sending gf hm..

Ended up they failed.. ok nvm..Wil go hm put things n mit me..I was abt to gif up the plan le..dun feel like helping anymore..ended up, finally duck's gf contacted me at last..so everything is still as planned, however, the time has gone haywired..i told myself, just too bad, i'm not the 1 causing all the time wasting.Duck went to bishan to play arcade as expected..suppose to go hm if wil n mit at 5pm at sun plaza, ended up duck was playing arcade at bishan after sending gf..

When he entered arcade, equal dunno wat time he come out..after much chasing from wil, he finally on the the way hm..Even duck's gf has already reached sp, but the male lead wasn;t here at all..The other frd's of theirs waited for 2 hrs n of cuz were pulling black face..Duck reached sp only ard almost 7pm..Great...They planned we tried to pull, didn't really reached our expectations, partly oso, male lead, doesn't have much feelings i guessed..

Rushed a cab down, to swensens to mit their frds, cele duck's bd..can see tat their frd was unhappy..anyway, the cele i can say wasn't successful as well..Male lead not cooperative, n ntg much exciting.some frds left early, the bd song wasn't even sung properly, eating 'cake' early even b4 we start eating dinner, cuz those waiting there, had eaten n wants to leave..So sing, eat n they go..

i didn;t eat, cuz i noe, can't eat cold ice-cream wif empty stomach..sure gastric pain..So i just drink my soup.. For that thing, i only ate 1 cherry n have to pay almost 10 bucks for tat..haha..great..the food was disapointing as well..THey played a game to pull trick on duck, like snake n ladder..but inside only got drink water n true or dare..Their frd set the rule..Duck drink all, n do all the true or dare if ganna them..

Some small stunts done, i tried my best to entertain them.. Ard 9pm, we settle our things n leave for hm..I nice thing was, wil was nice to sent me to my hse downstair, b4 gg hm..He carried my things for me.. His hse is very far from my hse, i appreciate that.. Aw..overall, i missed eating my Merry mint ice-cream at Swensens..Anyway, already a lot of $ spend..I'm left wif 20 bucks..so no merry mint for me..

Overall, this is wat i hope to have a partner in future..Some1 who can take care of me, as well as i take care of her..Not only plain taking care of her, where i'm taking care myself alone..Some1 who is willing to stay by my side thru out thin n thick.. My wish...

Anyway, work starts today, it was tough.. i dun have bandages as a support as my legs are itch wif rashes, tog wif my very dry cracked n painful legs..i missed those days when Serene used to bring me to do some pedicure, n foot massage.. As well as the hello panda she bought for me a few occasions..Anyway.. Its a past now, living only memories..Things can't nv return to the past anymore, since she started new memories wif another guy...

I have to take cab to work as i'm not able to travel well..Dunno how..$ really very tight le..But nv go work, i dunno how to survive..Tonite, i force duck to support me hm just now, though he's not very willing, but anyway still grateful ba..Thanks...for so unwillingly supprt me hm..tml got work again..stop here..

bubbles of sadness.

*11:50 PM .

Sunday, April 26, 2009

125th Day Without Serene

Another a quarter of 100th Day has passed. Hmm haven't been updating abt my news for this few days.. Movement was so hard, hence i got moody quite lately..Life wifout a leg is extremely tough..Furthermore, its my master leg which was injured..I was so disheartened.. What will happen to my dreams? Dancing, Modelling? Dun say abt dreams..Even doing the things which i want has become impossible..

Friday, i spent the whole day at home..dun even feel like doing anything.. my at times still leave me at home to take care of baby newphew..Its really tough..to chase after newphew when he wakes up from his slp, on dunno wat to call it..Something which is hanging on the air..Fear tat he kicks his way out of the thing, n fall on the ground.. Or when i hear noise, i have to move to there to shake him to slp again..or when he's awake, i have to carry him (he's chubby n heavy like me when i was a baby).Cuz he now dun like to lie facing up or down..

Other than tat, going to bath n relief myself.. Going to places at my hse to get things.. I felt so helpless n useless... Changing clothes was worse..esp my shorts..i can't even stand to change it..Ytd saturday, luckily my Jiefu sent me to marsiling wif his car for my appt at the chinese doctor.. to changing bandage, to massage my leg..i was told to go for another appt on mon..sian lots of money gonna wasted again...

He told me my leg was dislocated..1st time i ever dislocate my bones..the experience was horrible..Its better than the 1st day...so i can walk very slowly, wifout the clutches.. Ben n wil come to fetch me at home to sp, to eat lunch.. so i play cards wif them b4 they fetch me back home at night..The bandage cuz me to itch a lot...

bubbles of sadness.

*10:32 AM .

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Trip to Chinese Physican

I came back abt an hr ago. THanks to kit, for companying me to and fro to marsiling to c a chinese physican, recommended by a frd, kia.. if he didn't company me, i didn't noe how to get a cab at my hse downstair, n coming back from there.. I'm now on clutches, which is my 1st time in my life.. Didn't noe walking with clutches is so tough.. the pain was awfully unbearable..

THe physican said it was badly injured...Sigh, i'm so worried.. I have experienced the tough times without a leg.its really very difficult..can't do many things.. Wat abt my dances? My legs can seemed to fully recover...Felt very dejected...Anyway below was a few pics of my bandaged foot..ugly though... Sat i have to go for another treatment again.. dunno wat to do...

Anyway just a trip n i think abt 50 bucks is gone... omg...$ is really hard to earn..

bubbles of sadness.

*6:19 PM .

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*6:17 PM .

122th Day without Serene

Shocked that i'm able to blog today at such time, when i'm supposed to be at work? Yeah, i didn't go work.. Its really happening lately..Not on the bright side, but on the down side again.. Hmm things always turn so bad for me... What's this time again? Well ytd i'm supposed to go for work, but cuz my mum was sick n i have to help her tend the baby while she went to c a doc...

Since the whole 1st half was gone, i didn't go to work the 2nd half.. Ben called me n i went to mit him n wil for cards sessions.. 2 sad incident occurred...1st incident was, gr bro came wif sara n baoyu.. I'm of cuz happy to c them after a long while..So was jx who came suddenly to chat wif them... Well what upsets me was, bro says, i'm fat..yeah i admit i have grown fat, after all those slacking n stuffs.. a lot of things happened n i got no mood to do anything...

Ppl at such time, shld be heavily training up, shaping their body so as to find a new better gf.. However, the me now, was like, didn't wan to bother abt anything.. i really start to neglect abt my own image like i usually does.. the me now, just eat n slack.. i have no interest shaping up my figure.. of cuz to stay healthy is impt la.. my clothes like can wear as i'm too big..

So bro's words stuck me, though all these while, i have been disciplining myself to go jogging n exercise but lots of things have been gg ard in my head, tat i didn't got any mood to do anything... wonder when i can move on like how she did, fast n swift.. hard too.. i missed her even till now..love her so much..that its hard to take my love back asap..but no turning back now..Ok leave bro's remarks to 2nd half of the story in the night..

2nd sad thing, i'm not sure whether this person got read my blog or not, so i shall not disclose the names until that day passed.. the 3 of us were playing cards at mac, then i was so astonished to c some1's gf approaching me at mac..of cuz tis person is we all noe the la.I even went out wif him n his gf a few times..She came in the absence of her bf, telling me tat she want to give him a surprised birthday party..if cuz we need to help her in keeping secret n the preparations..

ben n wil faster said so envy...the gf is so sweet...Haha of cuz, who weren't envy of such a nice gf..We also thought that it'll be great to hav such a gf..it was a total surprise..i always love such kind of surprises.. yup tat's the 2 sad thing..other than tat, was i played cards wif them, teach them a new game, called wyoming cowboy..its fun, but they said not nice.. sian.. always play same game..

So play until 10, i win 7 bucks..wil lost, ben win..ok then since we end early, i decided to go 4 a jog.. bro's word, also helps to firm my heart to exercise.. Since its night n the weather is much cooler, i dun have the discipline to wake up at 6am everyday to jog, i decided to change n went for a jog..Ended up.. i got a swollen right leg as a gift for jogging..

I warmed up b4 jogging, i only started jogging a few steps, i was blocked by a group of youngsters walking towards my direction. Hence i decided to move to the grass area to get pass them..ended up, i lost my footing on the grass area, there goes my right leg..It was a bad sprain..my leg go numb at 1st n the pain starts to come n it gets painful till the extend tat i could walk..

I tot my leg was dislocated n gone.. it was so painful tat i remove my shoe n sit pathetically on the floor..i could't stand, even i sit there, the pain is still there..no matter how i position my leg, the pain just wouldn't go off, there's no comfort zone for me to put my leg..i pressed on it hard n my luck was really so bad? Few ppl passed by me each time, just looking n staring at me as though they were watching free show..

Even got 2 woman walked pass n 1 of them said to the other, "wat's wrong with tat guy?" What the freak..nvm, i dunno sit how long there, n those stupid big red ants kip coming to bit me..i have to kip whacking wif my damn shoe.. Furthermore the wind was blowing so strongly n the clouds were so red.. Yeah..at such time, its gonna rain heavily...I really felt so helpless n pathetic...

I'm lost, i feel like giving up.. my cellphone was at hm, cuz i dun bring my hp along when i jog.. Freaking ridiculous..finally i grab everything, n hop myself, struggling back hm.. as usual, only reprimanding, n no concern which i yearn for from my mum.. Tat's y, i'm seeking for a type of concern which i can c from my partner for life.. Bet if she's still wif me, her reaction will be like my mum.. Scolding, then showing mild concern by passing me the medicine to rub my leg tat's all..

bubbles of sadness.

*11:04 AM .

Monday, April 20, 2009

119th Day Without Serene

Its Monday again, i did not have enough rest..As usual, woken up by baby niece n nephew.. Mum bring niece out to school, left me n baby newphew..He cried.. n i had to wake up to tend to him.. plus the noise of the construction, its even more annoying.. I have an interview at 3.30pm, for the singapore poolz, at selegie, paradiz centre, doby ghaut..tiring...

Ytd i tried playing the cowboy card game wif jason, duck n nel..Seems alright than day b4, except for a few things which i need to clear them again..ytd night, i was watching top 10 models show..so envy of them.. singapore's industry is too small to do anything...after which, i watch a korean drama on SCV, last episode at 1.30am b4 i slp.. it was a happy ending...

bubbles of sadness.

*9:38 AM .

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Video from jackass

Its very comical, but if i'm there, think i'll chase after the car too.

Jackassworld

bubbles of sadness.

*1:45 PM .

114th Day Without Serene

Another week has passed. Ntg really happened. I learnt a new interesting card game ytd on the internet. I tried out wif wil, nel n duck, its quite ok, but the rules n game play were not exactly correct. But i had confirm the rite rules just now, b4 blogging. Wow i just sneeze..Anybody misses me? or who's scolding me?I have oso learnt a new website from kit n wil. Omg its disgusting website i have ever visit.. Many funny ppl n videos..jackass... Not porn website but disgusting..wonder wat's wrong wif their minds.. proper website dun wan go, but they sure know of such kind of website..

bubbles of sadness.

*12:37 PM .

Saturday, April 18, 2009

113th Day without Serene

I'm feeling extremely lousy.. Ytd was indeed a lousy day for me...Everything Doesn't seems to go rite at all.. I'm sick of my life..i woke up unhappily again...I watched unborn on the internet, fast n furious 4 with 30mins left.. To my disappointment, both movies were just average..I came across a new card game, but i dun have time to learnt it well, so i just add to favourite, for me to review it again..

Well, nxt, i went out of the hse unhappy, listening to my mum, reprimanding n nagging at me wif many things tat my head just felt burst..1st was abt my supposedly formal gf, which doesn't exist now..how to reply again? She has left wif another man..happy to hear tat ans? i dreaded each time they/she said, siding after her, telling me how gd she is, to cherish her..Come on, things weren't so gd as they have see..

I admit she's gd in some ways, but some of the major things cannot be neglected..she has done quite a no. of things tat a couple who experienced this, finds it hard to forgive n the r/s is permanently gone.. I have forgive her all the time..no matter how hurt n painful i felt.. And now, she has left for another man... Its really too much for me to bear.. i can't bring myself to forgive her another time..

During the times when we were still together, i saw her still mingering ard with that guy, i already forsee such outcome.. i warned her, i plead her to do stg abt it, if she cherish our r/s.Instead, ntg was done, except pushing the blame on me..Now things have turned out this way, i wish her happiness.. Dun wish to talk abt such pains again...

Leaving the hse, i went to arcade to played my 3 tokens..play wif this boring person street fighter 4, i won't none, cuz he really pissed me off.. i felt so lousy..seem like ntg i do, was smooth n i'm not capable of anything..ben n wil come, we headed to play cards..I was just playing like a mess..of cuz i lost in every kind of games i played...

Finally until the end, ard 3am, something unhappy happened again..Well i'm a person who likes every thing to be fair n square..UNder such circumstances, whether i win or lose, i felt its worth it, the results comes out wifout the hinderance or influence of other ppl.. Even if i lose, i admit it honourably, as i deserve to lose.. we play taidi as our last hr game b4 we headed home..

I was the 1 wif the most cards in tat rd..ben was left wif 2 cards, n wil was left wif 9 cards..on the drawing pile, its a remainder of 1 card for wil to draw if he decides to pass..In this case wil will be left wif 10 cards.. n i'm left wif 12 cards if i lose.. the game play is, 10 cards n above remaining on the hand, when the game is ended, will e a double..13 cards above remaining in the hand when the games ended, will be a triple..

the big 2s were all used up..left wif aces. ben obviously let out a strong hint that he's gonna win n trap somebody..wil knowing that i have the most cards, will be more affected to take the card despite getting a double of 10 cards.. furthermore, he got the highest card left in his suit, he don't wish to guard him..that's how they game.. its obviously a pair up against me..

He shouldn't remind wil n as a fair play, he shld be keeping quiet abt it.. when i have the remaining highest card in my hand n was abt to game, i didn't disclose it up, until i let the card out myself...looking upon this i'm not satisfied wif the results..injustice was the feeling i have.. anyway to solve this issue, like wat wil suggested, 1 buck for the winner, n the game forfeited.. anyway i paid for the injustice lost...

bubbles of sadness.

*2:22 PM .

Friday, April 17, 2009

112th Day without Serene

Times passes by this 2 days n i didn't really got anything special to update.completed high school musical series..rewatched Take the Lead by Antonio Bandaras.. this 2 days weren't smooth... But ytd i got a call in the nite from another job for part time interview..Thanks kia for helping me on this..Hope it'll be a better job, though its quite far..

slp is always insufficient for me when i got disturbed all the time.. I really wish i can move out n have a room for myself n enjoy my privacy...But i got no money!

bubbles of sadness.

*9:24 AM .

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

110th Day Without Serene

Recently i Have a lot of weird dreams lately..Furthermore, as i always got interrupted slp, i can have a few weird dreams in a day.. Hmm few hrs ago, i just woke up from 1 of those weird dreams..THis time was a dream wif kit n a few of his frds, which i can't rmb well.. Imagine that we were sitting on top of an open air bus..esp in the front..

The bus journey was so dangerous.. The bus travel us thru low areas where we were vulnerable to getting hit by any objects..Kit got hit by some protuding rocks...Then dunno wat happened, the bus go thru some kind of door, and we hung ourselves onto the top and the bus just seems to merge into the wall. We saw a pillar form wall besides me n we used tat to slide down to the ground safely..

After that, we dunno y, we were arrested by some evil ppl..And we found out that we were locked in some unknown places where we found out that the ppl who were kept here, could not leave this place forever.. We need to think of plans to escape the place..1st, we familiarise n understand the routine here, as the things were the same day to day...

We collected several tools n materials needed for escape..dunno how long has passed, we waited patiently for the opportunity..n finally the day has arrived.. I woke up by the noise...from my family members..

Talked abt ytd..ntg much...watched high School musical 1 & 2. its nice.. HSM2 is the 2nd time i watch it..The 1st time, i watch it in Serene's hse.. We rented the movie n watch at her hse..But tat time, find it boring.. n we fell aslp while watching halfway.. Maybe its becuz tat time nv watch 1st movie, so a bit dun understand..however, overall i still think HSM2 is the last position, out of the 3parts..think HSM3 is the niceest of all, cuz of the waltz, which i love most..

I still missed her badly..If only there doesn't exist the wounds of the past n the present..if only tat's not how we have started n met each other.. If only she does't let history repeated again..If only..she could have given our r/s full attend, n not let so many guys enter her life, sharing wif me...She might not have leave me for 1 of them.. I love her..but its all over..i'm completely cracked..I hate her..

bubbles of sadness.

*9:16 AM .

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

109th Day without Serene

I have a terrible day ytd.. Ppl says 1 will wake up with migraine or headache after drinking lots of beer n getting drunk.. i have a terrible headache or migraine.. i dunno how to describe it. The pain was so terrible tat it cost my day greatly..as usual, the pains can be felt much on my forehead..the part where u touch the end o the eyebrow, almost the centre there, it was so painful...

In addition, the back part of my head, almost near my neck was in great pain too. I pat my back it was so numb n painful...i slept very long ytd n wake up at 12pm..i didn't drink beer during kbox...Its just tat i slept late last nite..at ard 3.30am.. its abt 8 hrs of slp.. 1 possibility i can think of is, my slp hrs was sufficient, but its not a peaceful rest..

My baby niece was slping in the same room wif me.. imagine her wakin up late in the nite, n early in the morning , my slp was interrupted terribly.. i woke up quite a number of times from my slp, had several dreams, which were incomplete and hard to rmb.. in addition, my mum's voice...scolding my niece, was irritating...Having a bad rest really spoils my mood a lot..

Worse, my niece n baby nephew will be staying for the entire week, every week from mon to fri, except public holidays or when my sis have holidays n did not have to go to work.. So cute they are, but at times, its really annoying..my life seems interrupted n i'm having disturbed rest..health will be hit badly.. i'm beginning to feel sick..

How i wish, i'm so capable now, tat i can go outside n rent a decent room, wif atmosphere much peaceful than my hse.. i can live there from mon to fri, wif great privacy..Or rather living at a frd's hse..Too bad i dun have a gf either..Well anyway, i tried watching my favourite movie ytd afternoon, step up 2..i couldn't enjoy it, cuz head was spinning n painful for me to imagine those dance moves in my head..

After tat i went out to help my mum buy Toto, as she's not able to go, due to my niece..i bought some too n of cuz, wif such condition, didn't win anything at all..my cash is depleting soon.. Some more, i planned to go out study, it was so painful tat i couldn't study at all..a whole day wasted... nel ask me out for dinner..we played kof wif kit b4 eating..i didn't win any matches..i only have 2 tokens, so after losing them, i didn't chg any more..

After dinner, play cards wif wil n nel, i lose as expected..68bucks.. but thank goodness, i still have a lot of postive figure...so losing 68 is still managable as i still have my postive from ben n wil..I went to check my pay for the 5 days at work, which i submitted my timesheet..finally the pay of pathetic amt is coming after 2pm today..

I have lots of bills to settle.. after settling, i'm left wif very less amt to survive for 2 more weeks? I dunno how to survive wif i think 100+ only.. for 2 weeks.. this week still ok..i can eat at hm as i dun have work for the entire week as my boss went for a week leave.. so i was told no work tis wk..nxt week i go to work, i have to spend $ on transport n stuffs... then after submitting my 2nd timesheet, i need to wait until another week b4 i get my pay.. omg.. how?

bubbles of sadness.

*9:32 AM .

Monday, April 13, 2009

108th Day without Serene

Ytd's outing was alright.. b4 gg for the gathering, kw asked me n nel to go an hr earlier to the arcade for kof. I'm happy i got my revenge.i won most of the matches.. after tat, went to mrt to mit jq n jx. Well surprised tat jx was so punctual this time rd..jq was the latecomer in the end.. Tot we were gg to amk hub for dinner, but we ended up at sun plaza mrt for dinner at foodcourt..

Dinner wasn't really nice, where i ordered the western food.. we sat there to talk awhile as its still early..until ard 6.25, we headed down to amk hub.. we were early n cy was waiting there.. Every1 headed for the washroom, while i start up wif the 1st song.. well we have 6 ppl this time, so it was quite a wait, but nevertheless, i get to listen to many kinds of songs..

there's laughter n supposedly, we r ending the session at 10pm, but to my expectations, i knew we r allowed to sing until closing, if there's no customer ard.. however, we only sang until 12am, as we need to head down to mrt to catch the last train.. Hmm well, i sang duet wif jq, she's not bad.. but think its me who ruined the songs.. 1 of the bad points is, ppl were talking loudly n couldn;t conc well wif the noise.. gg wif a group for k session, have pros n cons..

Its a matter of considerations for the singers..but other than tat, shld be ok ba.. i sang some parts wrongly.singing duet wif jq sounds ok, but perhaps missing something, which Serene can do it.. She noes which part to add in, even though the kbox didn't put in the lines to sing.. like ni3 zhui4 zhen1 gui4, 2nd part,when the male was singing, the girl will be humping a bit like, mmm... This is only the minor part for this song..for other duets, there's more to it..

Well THink she always sing n listen to these songs tats y she's so familiar wif them ba.. B4 i end, the rest of the ppl, kw, jx n nel, improved a lot in their singing. they dare to sing compared to past, not bad, though they sing out of tune at times.. as for kw, it will be more nicer if he were to sing songs tat matches him..not only sing gers songs, where the pitch is too high for him..cy, is as usual in her strong vocal..

Pictures might not be uploaded here, perhaps kw can upload those pics in his blog. I have some of the pics in my hp for my memories..Btw, heard from cy tat she has broken up wif her bf.. Though i already have this guessing 2 days ago, from the msn nick, she has wrote.. Anyway hope she's ok, n there will be a better guy waiting for her in the future.. tat's all i guess..

bubbles of sadness.

*2:37 PM .

Sunday, April 12, 2009

107th Day Without Serene

A week has passed..A day ago, i just got my 1st laptop, however, not the desire laptop which i wanted. But its still appreciated as i received an unexpected assistance from my 2nd Sister-in-law.. He really got a laptop from his office for me.. Tat's very nice of him.. Hence i'm able to do much things as n when i can this time, however, internet would not be easy to assess outside, as the wifi system in this laptop is not in perfect condition..

Nevertheless, other things are still ok.. Let's talk abt wat i'm planning to do next for the rest of today.. Jq suggested a gathering for their group, hence an outgroup like me, was invited too.. y an outgroup? cuz i'm the oldest there, while the rest of them are the same age n studied in the same sec sch tog. I'm invited cuz i'm hanging out wif them as they lived near my hse..

She suggested singing k.. it catches my itch.. i haven;t been singing for quite some time.. So since she said there's a cheap package, so we'll be going to amk k box tonite to sing from 7-10pm if i'm not mistaken.. hopefully, not much customer there, we'll be able to sing longer.. b4 our k session tonite, we'll be mtg for dinner tog.. However, this time rd, not much ppl attending cuz either they dun like singing or they r not free..

Hmm gg to sing k.. brings me lots of memories wif her..Thought of it pains me.. sometimes i wonder, y only i am the 1 feeling the pain? Hmm i spend last nite, lying on bed n think abt it.. Yes i'm planning to sing duet wif the gers tml.. of cuz those regulars which i sing wif.. jq or cy.. A particular song which me n Serene always sing tog.. Ni3 Zhui4 Zhen1 Gui4.. To her, i think this song means ntg, cuz she sang wif so many ppl b4.. of cuz it means ntg...

Speak of it, the 1st time i went to k box wif a ger, is my 1st ex.. however, we dun sing duet..cuz she's not a gd singer.. either than her, is Serene.. She's the 1 who taught me many songs in duet.. wifout fail, we always sing tat song each time we go.. the rest of the k box session, is wif my guys frds only..other than tat, is sing wif cy, but the feeling just doesn't holds best than when i sing wif Serene.. jq, only sing once wif her n the song is an eng song, so not much to talk abt..

Anyway just go there n have a reminise of my memories wif her...but wif diff ppl this time.. Well memories is left for me alone.. i treasure them.. I understand, wif so many ppl in her life, memories buried over n over again, by new memories wif a new guy.. Wat's left is nothing behind.. i hope i'll be enjoying myself tonite.. though my voice is not in gd condition today..

bubbles of sadness.

*12:12 PM .

Thursday, April 09, 2009

104th Day without Serene : Moment of Thoughts

It’s a small world afterall.. Fate loves to play a joke on me.. The one I yearn to love, and be loved, wasn’t there for me to grasp. Deprived me from opportunities, leaving me with a deep sourly feeling. The ones not destined to be together, entered my life and hurt me deeply, and leave me with wat’s left, is nothing but only painful memories..

bubbles of sadness.

*1:22 PM .

Sunday, April 05, 2009

100th Day without Serene

Today marks the 100th Day without her.. Well maybe i think of her too much, n she has appeared in my dream again.. In this very dream, its an unfamiliar place, an mrt station.. I was walking n walking.. seeking for her presence.. under so many ppl walking by, stairs after stairs i walk n run, just to look for her.. i couldn't.. on managed to caught a glimpse of her, with blurred vision of her with tat guy, as they walked up the escalator, opposite direction from mine..

I missed her.. i wanna turn up direction n headed to chase after her, but i was pulled off.. Turned out that i'm in army..its time for me to do my rounds with the guard duty... i dreaded that.. it was a mixed, complicated dreams.. I wished for a girl who can stop me for thinking of her so much, who can filled my painful heart with her love.. n shifted all my attention towards loving her deeply..

bubbles of sadness.

*12:34 PM .

Saturday, April 04, 2009

99th Day with Serene

Recently i'm having problems with my determination and discipline on certain stuffs..
Quite worried where i keep breaking my own promises in my heart. Shall put them down here n keep reminding myself abt that..

1) strictly wake up early at 6,everyday to exercise n jog.
2) not to eat too much food each meal, esp fast food, as i'm strictly watching my figure.
3) Never stay up too late because of cards games or mahjong games..Win so much but the $ not confirm getting back..
4) Tell myself exams coming, at least must study n not always play n play..
5) Money is really very tight, must really try not to spend too much on arcade n food..

I really hope i can do it well.. path to maintain a nice figure,which is unfortunately off now, and lead a healthy lifestyle..

bubbles of sadness.

*1:56 PM .

Friday, April 03, 2009

98th Day without Serene

Hmm in 2 more days, its gonna hit the 100th Day, ever since i lost her.That's fast..Just hope time move on even faster, where i can get over with her n start a new r/s soon.. This is the point where i really hate about entering a r/s like this.. The point where no matter how much u love her, how much you miss her, she's no longer there with you anymore and you have to force yourself painfully, day by day to take your love back, while she's happily under another guy's arms.. I really hate this part of a r/s.. i hope my nxt r/s doesn't gimme such torment again...

bubbles of sadness.

*10:30 AM .

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