____________['[*Moments Sharing*]']___________

*12:24 PM .

Thoughts :
Hmm am i lost?I guess i'm not..Exams over 4 quite sometimes, yet i seems like lost in my path..in terms of many aspects in life..At times, i really dunno wat am i doing,or wat am i supposed 2 do.. It was like really so complicated tat i could hardly figure out..Wat lies ahead of me, was just like a mist,stretching my hands in front of me,i could see ntg at all...ntg...Emptiness is wat i could mention.. Yes its not the 1st time i ever felt so empty in my heart..numb?shld be getting used to it since its not the 1st time, yet the feeling is of no difference from the 1st..

Job Searching hasn't been successful after few days.. I really dunno which jobs to choose from, or even the jobs tat i wanted wants me in the 1st place..Doing things not from ur wish, can be suffering indeed..Added on, were the pressures given by my family..those frequent nag from my mum, won't i ever had peace until my very last breath? everything seems so complicated..n mixed, tat how i wish my life would be simple n sweet...

At tis lowest point of life...The most impt thing to a typical libra,is love..Yet i have none..Yes..Love to libra is everything..Wifout true love, i would call it, life seems so empty..Pondering abt it,i have really been restricting myself alot..maybe the feeling of getting hurt again is my greatest phobia...After my previous n only relationship.. Though it ended almost 2 yrs ago..Along the journey,i hav encountered few others, but it didn't flows well n ended up wounded again..nope didn't gone in2 any r/s wif any1 of the few, but each time i get a wound, each time the wall in front of me becus sturdier,protecting my wrecked soul..

Perhaps i hav really gone into hiding in my cave..Locked myself up in a place where nobody can found me...I'm back to my past? THe timid me, who dare not love again..Angels which will only appeared in fairytales, savouring the pitiful souls, but will not appeared in reality... Fallen into the deep, lonely world of mine, i sink..Away from harsh reality i shall go.. Until a very day, when i shall managed to climb out again...

bubbles of sadness.

*11:51 AM .

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

Memories for 29th May 2007 (Tues) :
Things getting weirder day by day wif Ser.. I really dunno y n can't explain myself..ok morning didn;t really do anything..except same old thing, sending resume, update blog, etc.. Then afternoon headed out 2 meet ding..play arcade wif him n went eating dinner wif cr Duck n Ding at food court.. After tat went back arcade to find nel. Jim oso there.. SO play a while wif them b4 me n ding went to lan shop...

hop rooms playing diff games..then saw Ser's niece. Didn't noe her nick was "----BearBear" until when she whisper me..play a few games wif her.. not to 4get i went to a npc 8k n leech dens lol.. I managed to leech a rd of 12k+ dens haha happy.. THen Ser's niece say want 2 logoff n let Ser take over. End up wait till she didn;t online.. So i played myself till 12am + then me n ding went off back to sp mac...ding want eat supper -.-!

Thru ou the nite, after Ser called me on phone ard dinner time, we were both waiting 4 each other's sms?i really dunno..i wait till i can't wait, lol then i send her an sms.. Ok call it a nite.. Tml watching movie wif Ser.. Wonder wat'll happened.. Just hope everything'll be back 2 normal again...

bubbles of sadness.

*1:30 PM .

Memories for 28th May 2007 (Mon) :
Well woke up late n use com till afternoon, its time 2 go 4 interview at IMM 4 the Hr postion..Haiz wasted trip.. I went there n its a muslim environment.. Every1 taking in Malay n i dun understand at all.. Then when a lady interview me,we had a pleasant talk, but too bad..Since not hiring me 4 few mths, might as well dun ask me to come 4 the interview n waste my time n $..Didn;t even had lunch yet, thus had lunch after interview..

I must say, the western food at foodcourt taste sucky..nxt went back to sp meet ding...Then play arcade b4 gg to lan shop play.. Well was playing alone till sometime, Ser called me..n i asked if she wants to play audi... So she joined me..i company her play couple n club dance.. Suddenly galspirit n rmb we failed our wedding n was thinking of trying 2nite n invite the rest 2 watch.. However cuz galspirit was using hse com n hav 2 try a few songs n see if we r confident or not..

I dun wish 2 neglect Ser so i talk 2 her too.. but i noe she can't play fast songs so i felt bad abt tat..me n gal pracitice but to no valid.. THen suddenly Ser logoff..I noe she's feeling bad..practice halfway, finding decide to go ahead wif the wedding but end up she dc..Her com is wireless n the connection breakdown..Nel got 2 go off le..Finally galspirit online n whisper me she using dial up n see if will lag or not.. end up really lag.. We were playing 8k.. Haha quite fun..

End up the whole thing didn't complete.. Didn;t play wedding at all.. Reach hm i sms Ser, felt sry if i hav neglected her..Hope everything's fine now...

bubbles of sadness.

*1:21 PM .

Memories for 27th May 2007 (Sun) :
Early morning received jx's call tat they were at my hse downstair le..So i prepare n went down meet them. Got jx, kw n kit..Long time didn't play badminton le, so rusty n stiff my hands were..had 2 hrs of game n i'm so tired..Only kw still wants 4 more zzz.Among all, every1 got different speciality..Kw's skill is the best among the 3 of them, kw got longer stamina n jx play like playing basketball zzz...

After tat, we headed 4 breakfast n i had prata again lol... After tat we headed 4 arcade..very seldom wear till so less clothes to sp..imagine, army singlet, shorts lol..Then got ppl look at me, making me feel uneasy.. lol.. Must hav been entering air-con rm wif wet clothes n i must hav caught a flu..Can't play well in kof when my nose is so irritated..After tat headed hm..Ser came back le n i was so happy tat she came back safe n sound..

Hope she has been enjoying herself alot..spend the whole afternoon reading comics n dozing off few times 4 awhile..Bro using com, so i can't online..Ser wants 2 meet me, so we went 2 yishun 2 hav dinner..I had a heavy breakfast n lunch so i'm not very hungry, thus company Ser 2 hav her dinner at yoshinoya.. Few days nv see her, then suddenly see her again..She bought a bracelet 4 me,n 1st time got a gal ever helped me put on a bracelet..

Was quite surprised.. Touched at such moments i would say =) After tat, we went 2 walk ard b4 heading 2 burgerking 2 sit n chat..Well as usual something's still feel so weird..I oso dunno wat's wrong..Somehow or rather,she did mentioned abt my blog n friendster n i had a small laugh..just hope everything's fine..though i noe its not..hard 2 explain.. Then i send her hm by bus..early nite..

She needs to rest 4 tml's work n stiill took the trouble finding me after holidays.. I went to sp mac read comics while wait 4 ding n nel 2 finish movie..sit a while n its time 2 go hm le..

bubbles of sadness.

*1:05 PM .

Memories for 26th May 2007 (Sat) :
Well after overnite,we headed back to sun plaza to have our breakfast..We had pratas,bread,eggs n hot tea..was reading ding's comics all these while.He suddenly bought lots of comics so happened to ask him lend me 1,end up so funny tat i keep laughing..After tat,we headed to arcade play til 2pm b4 we headed hm..Reach hm didn't slp at once..use com instead n play audi til ard 6pm i was so tired tat i went 4 a nap..

Ard 8pm+ i was awaken from slp,laze awhile b4 gg out to sp 2 meet ding as he wants to pass me the comics to read..so meet him at sp b4 company him to his hse downstair 2 bring down his comics..after tat, went 2 a nearby coffeeshop to hav a drink n headed back to sp haha.. Ard 11.30pm was so tired so i headed back hm..Read comics til ard 2am + i was so tired tat i dozed off..Nxt morning jx asked me play badminton, hav 2 wake up early..

bubbles of sadness.

*12:51 PM .

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Memories for 25th May 2007 (Fri) :
1st day Ser left, i hope she is at phuket safely all the while n enjoying her holidays..Well alone, slp till very late then i wake up..Suppose 2 hav interview in the morning, end up afternoon then go.. Ask ding 2 company me there.. End up felt cheated, cuz jobs offered only few days, pay less, hrs less.. Then ding wants to eat swensens -.-! Wa spend a lot there..After tat, went back sp find nel.. Hmm went 2 kof b4 gg 2 overnite at lan shop...

Surprise Ser sms me earlier than i expected.. I planned 2 send her an sms b4 the day ends..But i received it at 7pm +.. 1 sms send 2 me is ex, so i limit myself dun ask her sms me..hmm some things happened in audi.. Starting reached there, can't online 2 audi zzz,lucky after a while can.. Saw galspirit, my audi couple n we tried 2 make our character married tat nite.. spend $4.80 on 5000 a-cash..use 2000 on the premium member 4 3mths n 2900 on the wedding licence.

at 1st, we tried on couple mode n got 7 hearts.. Thus decided 2 try it out..Nel n ding come in support us.. However, 1st try, we got no prob wif the score n no of perfs.. but the sync perf need 5 n we only got 1 o.O.. Weird.. The beat of the wedding song...hard 2 catch..either 1 perf, she dun, or she perf i dun.. 2nd try, the requirement lowered.. 3 sync perf, yet same old thing, none..last try, worst..2 sync perf, we got everything, left 1 2 go n no.. we failed...

So maybe its not gd day afterall haha... Ok after tat play normal games, till its time galspirit log off as she has driving test after tat. so i went on 2 play 3 rds of dota wif nel n ding as promised.. Zzz really sian of dota.. I lost the skills le.. Items 4get wat 2 buy..not used 2 it.. Ok so dun mention dota le.. We lost 2 rds win the last rd.. i went back 2 audi..omg another thing happened.. Tat glitzy got so many accounts..i went inside a rm, got ppl call my name..

Then i asked u noe me? Then she replied "ben si le" tat word gives me chill.. ding saw it n we both laugh.. ya tat incident on morning at sp mac.. Ok dun say le.. Play til morning..n i shall cont in nxt post..

bubbles of sadness.

*12:48 PM .

Memories for 24th May 2007 (Thurs) :
Wake up gif Ser morning call..Then Zz till 10am + b4 gg buy Straits Time, to find job.. Send resume etc.. None responded Zz.. Only got 1 interview nxt day morning..at Job Agency.. Hmm after 2nite,Ser wil be gg 2 phuket trip le.. Thus nite time, meet her after work..At amk hub again..Well went 4 dinner at mac..Sit a while, then went 2 walk ard at amk hub..Share a cup of soya bean ice-cream.. Nxt went 2 kfc n i showed her some magic tricks wif cards.. End up time 2 send her hm.. Hmm things getting weirder..wonder wat's wrong..maybe she's leaving tat's y..haha dunno.

bubbles of sadness.

*12:35 PM .

Memories for 23rd May 2007 (Wed) :
Wake up very late ard 12pm+.. THen finally use com clear emails, friendster, blog, etc.. Too many days nv blog, so can't blog finish..Blog till tired,play a short while of audi n stayed at hm till dinner, then i go arcade to find nel..End up get tricked by him, say he gg hm soon.. Wa, end up i go ntg, sit @ mac till ding come.. Eat a little @ mac, go arcade b4 gg 2 lan.. Play wif Ser audi, club dance & couple b4 gg hm at 12.30pm..Chat wif Ser on phone too^^.. Erhmm mum nag abt my job again.. 2day...

bubbles of sadness.

*12:31 PM .

Monday, May 28, 2007

Memories for 22nd May 2007 (Tues) :
2day.. The final paper of my exams.. IBM, afternoon paper, 2.30pm - 5.30pm at expo..I giv up.. Only study 3 full chps only, n i really can't rmb them like how i studied in JC...Wa.. i went 4 the exams n it was shitty..The qns suppose 2 write 4 essays out of 10 qns..I was like crapping in the essay n i can't really applied the stuffs i studied to the qns.. Only 5% of it..I didn't complete the last part of the 4th essay..

I was extremely demoralise..Jus hope can pass the paper so i dun have 2 write 4 essays n memorise those stuffs again... Nite meet Ser.. Hmm 3 times in a row.. haha..Meet at amk hub.. N consider she celebrate my end of exams n treated me 2 Jack's place..Was quite touched n happy tat she's there 4 me when i'm down..But felt bad tat my mood was low n i'm quiet..Nxt walked to mac, saw swing..Reminds us of childhood...

Thus went to the swing n play a while haha..Sitting on d swing reminds me of escape pirate's ship..Haha went 2 help her push as she swing..After tat went 2 mac n sit.. Well like ntg 2 do n we just draw n scribble on the paper..Sometimes, i dun mind just sitting down quietly n watched Ser in silence, esp the times when i got no energy 2 talk..Lame me.. Ok moody nite,but memorable 2, time 4 me 2 send her hm as its late..

Omg stg happened otw hm.. The parks lights suddenly turn off n wat lies ahead of us is darkness.. So eerie n scary..the paths surrounded by the trees... thus we decided 2 change 2 an open path, haha erhmm cuz its 2 dark,we both held each other hands n i support her thru the grass patch..hmm icy hands, turns warm after awhile.Can say she's the 2nd gal i ever held hands besides my ex..i was so shy, n i apologise after we reached the lighted areas..

Her hands was small...ok no more i would like 2 say abt..Ok tat's the end of outing, n reached hm chat wif my frd Jamie, who finished exams as me too.. Both worried tat we would fail the exams, thus though how worried i am, i still have 2 be the calm person.. ok call it a day..sad day, which turns happy..Worries temporary gone,thks 2 Ser's support...

bubbles of sadness.

*2:09 PM .

Memories for 21st May 2007 (Mon) :
Well i went mac 2 study in the afternoon..Got bad issues abt $ matters.. Yes dun wish 2 disclose anything, but just said a promise broken n yet excuses n denial was always given when such matters arises...Tis taught me a lesson, not 2 be so lightly on $ matters..$ is the root of all evil, but its oso $ tat can let ppl see true colours..Well y can't ppl be like me?If i owe ppl $, i'll record them down n make sure i rtn the favour back the moment i have the cash..

However, the opposite treatment i received was when ppl owe me $..Worst case, when i'm working, hav cash b4 i went full time studying, ppl will come 2 me 4 treats n stuffs, fake buddies showed up ard me, but when i'm a poor student, those ppl left cuz i hav ntg left 4 them 2 suck.. Lol.. End up i can't concentrate on my studies..Hmm surprise tat Ser cam e 2 find me 4 dinner after her work.

We had Mos burger n hav a chat there..So sweet of her 2 drop at sem n find me when i'm feeling low..Then send her off at 9pm + b4 gg arcade 2 play kof awhile wif nel n ding, b4 sitting down at mac chat wif them till 11pm +, they left while i carry on my revision..

bubbles of sadness.

*1:56 PM .

Memories for 20th May 2007 (Sun ) :
Morning went 2 K - Lunch wif Ser at amk hub.Think of it, Ser is the 2nd gal tat i ever went alone to K-box wif.. 1st is my ex.. Wa i'm really nervous singing in front of females.. Some more alone..if in grps i'm nervous, but mayb can get a guy 2 sing wif me.. So starting, i dun dare 2 sing, + my throat wasn't feeling well,coughing still..Wow, i was mesmerise by her singing.. She got nice voice, but dun sing guy's song wif low tone de..haha

Finally 1st song, i believe, by fan4 yi4 chen2. Tis song is 1 of my best i can sing de, but poor performance due 2 nervousness, i mixed up my diaphargm n throat.. zzz So not very gd.. after few songs, i'm getting more ok le..Well she says i sing like Wang2 Li4 Hong2 -.-! 1st time got ppl say tis.. Cuz i was singing forever love..Hmm then sang some duet wif her too.. Food there was not very nice,cuz the vege zzz.. But overall nice day at k-box..

Tis was a memorable 1 day outing (1st time) wif her.. She's the host, thus she calls the shot. Nxt time when i work, will be my turn =P Thus after tat we decided 2 watch movie at cineleisure, though we planned 2 watch during weekdays.. Blades of Glory, Tis movie was recommended by Newspaperboy, & we nv regretted watching it.. The movie was funny n touching at the later part.. ice skating was a classical sports, n how i wish i can skate beautifully 2, wif those stuns..

In front of me seat a couple.. Wow looking at them, so romantic.. Zzz..Ok after movie, we went 2 walk ard at Taka, then went 4 dinner at pepperlunch.. hmm there a very memorable incident happened there..Plus maybe the atmosphere of the place, tat created an effect which seems like i'm in dream..a bit foggy n blur the scene..The eye contacts, the way the look of the face, makes me blushed.. Shall not disclose much here haha..my secrets..

Nxt we carry on walking ard, n decided 2 walk 2 borders 2 eat ice-cream.. Hmm not sure the shop name, but she ordered durian & green tea.. Ice-cream was nice..Come 2 tHink of tat, besides my family members, my guys buddies n ex, she's the 2nd gal tat shares stuffs wif me.. ice-cream, drinks etc..Hmm then time 2 go hm le..In mrt, saw bro haha.. then teasing starts.. Hmm knotty bro..

Well something bad happens n i was feeling quite moody.. I dun wish 2 disclose y am i so moody, but anyway its the past, dun wish 2 talk abt it here... Overall a very happy, memorable day i wish 2 rmb.!

bubbles of sadness.

*1:40 PM .

Thursday, May 24, 2007

Memories for 19th May 2007 (Sat) :
After a terrible day ytd,i woke up late, feeling feverish n headache..Go out study awhile, n have kof sessions wif kw, kit n Cr Duck 4 a while..Haha all play until dun 1 play wif me =( getting sian of kof le..no challenger not fun.Nxt we go mac eat dinner b4 gg lan shop wif kw play audi..Haha another exciting match wif him in sync C 4. The score was very close n i win by 15-14.Well the biggest win gap btw me n him nv exceeds 2 wins from either side..

How close it was?towards the ltr part,i lost 13-14.. 1 more lose = kw wins the game..lucky i win Him n the score was tied.. Last rd.. Jewelery song..speed 105.. kw ask me u gd at tis song?i'm actually not sure, but i was very focus.wow the beat was catchy n i managed 2 start off wif perfect chain combo of x5 - x7 can't rmb..n pull our scores apart.. he was so demoralise tat he miss the crucial finishing move n the fate is sealed ^^gd game kw.

Saw galspirit online 4 a while n we completed our 5 hearts as couple in audi.Nxt was dama0 online n oso Black... Well tis Black, i dunno wat 2 say..weird 12 yr old gal, can't rmb from which country, but pro at fast songs...Played wif them couples n stuffs..zzz some stupid thing happen n everything seems like a mess, so dun talk abt it cuz confusing.. So cuz time is crucial,go other channel play last rd b4 i left..partly oso cuz black n dama0's niece -.-! play those fast songs Zzz..

Well most impt, go hm chat wif Ser till quite late again.. Ser planned an outing the nxt day. Hmm shall leave it till nxt time b4 i update again =)

bubbles of sadness.

*3:39 PM .

Memories for 18th May 2007 (Fri) :
Another bad day in my life.. The worst i ever felt in exams..yes 2day was my Principles of Accounts paper..Afternoon paper 2.30 - 5.45pm at expo.I really got low morale..I'm very depressed abt my poa performance..15mins of reading b4 3 hrs of written time given.. The paper was a stun..section A 12 choose 6, n it was so tough.. Most theoriatical qns n i was smoknig thru..each qn 5 marks n i managed 2 do 3.5 qns? even then i have no confidence i score well.

nxt section B, 30 marks.. Profit n loss statement n Balance sheet.. Tis was real stuuner..1st time come out tis way..Say must find the adjustment n get the real cost of gds sold n closing stock. Tats tough.. Wif tis incorrect ans, can't even get the rite figures 4 both the statements..obviously, i couldn't balance off the account..figure weird weird.. Sect C worst..i choose topics 2 study, end up 4 qns choose 2 each 20 marks..Zzz i only noe how 2 do 1 qn.. even tat qn, it was so tough n different from past qns.. I couldn't get the rite cash flow statements...It was disaster...

After exams, meet jc buddy kwen who was having same paper wif me..We go toa Payoh 2 have dinner cuz i'm meeting nel n ding after tat..Eat wif him at kfc then go pastamania find them..Funny go toa payoh buy hp cuz they say cheaper, end up waste trip nv buy zzz..Some comical stuffs at pastamania when nel spots a gal, n him gg 2 get hp no o.O..me n ding rush out of the restaurant..

Went back sp play kof til closing at 10pm. Surprise i actual go hm early tis nite ard 10.30pm.Was so sad n tired..I chat wif Ser on phone till late, yup listening 2 her voice, chatting wif her, really makes me feel peaceful n calm..Comfortable indeed after such terrible ordeal at exams...

bubbles of sadness.

*3:25 PM .

Memories for 17th May 2007 (Thurs) :
Morning comes..I was playing audi n something happen inside.i'm playing wif 5 other players in audi most of the nite & all of their lvls were much higher than me..inside got 2 gal Giltzy n Jas if i'm not wrong.Then were like teasing me rite from the start as though they noe me..Then i was like being tease until i'm blur. Then they mentioned of gg sp mac 2 eat cuz hungry,n they asked me where i live.Sem of cuz..So i was confuse n suspect they were sem ppl who noe me..

So 2 play safe, i pull ding wif me.but last min i pull out,cuz i need 2 go hm fast..Ding say must company him eat then go hm.. So we headed 2 sp mac from lan. We reach there nobody.They noe my clothes was wearing dark blue top n jeans.Then the hint they gave was rose earrings..Ok so we went there cautiously, saw no 1, sit down eat n halfway 2 gals came.though i didn't saw the rose earring, but i sense its them. No!! not the ppl who noe or i saw b4, thus i told ding..

Ask him 2 be usual, n make it seems like we were not waiting 4 anybody..but we saw their behaviour very weird..obviously we noe tat they spotted us. 4 fear tat they call me, i switch my hp 2 silence.thus when my hp ring, i didn't notice n sms 2.. when they bought the food n went out of mac 2 sit n eat,(we were inside). They were out of sight then i saw the miss call n sms.So i replied saying we were gg off cuz nobody.

Lol after few sms,i even play ding a joke.I sms them say actually i'm not the 1 in blue n jeans. I'm the 1 in grey..wat i mention was my frd.. Becuz of tis ding makes me suffer 4 a while haha.So we crept away from mac n went back hm.. Scary since not the ppl who noe me,i didn't show myself up.Acting blur lol.Tat's the end of it.i went hm slp after few hrs,go study again n kof at nite, study again -.-!.

bubbles of sadness.

*3:14 PM .

Memories for 16th May 2007 (Wed) :
Hmm another meaningful day 2 mention abt. Well afternoon went out 2 study, until evening time Ser finish work n i meet her for movie - "28 Weeks Later", at Cwp. i meet her at 6.45pm n went 2 buy tickets.When its our turn, we ask 4 the tickets in the counter.The system here is different from sp, where the seats were allocated for us..Both of us dunno where 2 choose,like 2 blur sotong..Then the counter staffs,showed a 2 red box 2 us, n say gif us couple seats.

Hmm we were like dunno wat 2 say,very comical n the staff treat it as silence means consent.Hmm shy indeed..yet i would recall the scene lovely at the same time..Then we hav dinner 2gether at Banquets.. All Muslims food if i'm not wrong..both of us find the food not nice..Then we sat there 2 chat..Suddenly nel call me n just nice Ser's frd come 2 find her wif her bf.O.o she actually wants 2 see how i look -.-! Tat's wat Ser told me..

I'm very shy, thus just nice nel was on the phone,i whisper 2 him 2 talk longer when he wanted 2 hang the phone, teasing me. But i managed 2 say hi 2 Ser's frd out of politeness.Can't imagine i would freak out if i'm not on phone, n super quiet n shy i'll be.After they left, i told nel ok done ^^.Funny.We then chat til movie starts. The movie was nice n scarier than HIlls have Eyes 2. We both even jump up several times..Ser was very attentive while she's looking at the movie ^^

After the movie, we went bk 2 chat.Saw nise n her bf, so let Ser noe.Then when we left n b4 sending her 2 yck mrt, another happening nite. We saw my ex n i let Ser noe 2. So i send her 2 yck mrt b4 heading back sem n meet ding @ sp mac. Omg he pulled me 2 go overnite at lan shop. Then i told him go until 2am go off end up play til morning O.o...

bubbles of sadness.

*2:58 PM .

Memories for 15th May 2007 (Tues) :
Well ntg much happens tis day if i'm not wrong.. Its just a normal routine, wake up, afternoon go out study, kof, etc... Dull day indeed...Ntg worth 2 talk abt..

bubbles of sadness.

*2:56 PM .

Memories for 14th May 2007 (Mon) :
Tis day is my Maths 1 paper at expo, 10am - 12pm.. Hmm was very satisfied wif the paper indeed. Quite confident tat i can pass n hope pass wif high marks.Thanks to Jackson's hard work i teaching me. Really a gd patient teacher, who taught me well. However, most imptly i must not 4get mention few ppl who r always there 4 me, thru such hard times.. Yes.. Ser is the 1st 1 i must said.. Many a times, i felt like giving up, but yet she always seems 2 appear from nowhere, pulling me up n showing me tat i'm not alone, gg thru tis battle..I'm really so touched abt it..

Nxt up will be my 2 buddy n bro. Yea their smses.Nel was the starting of my papers, he sms me wishes..Towards the end of my papers, bro will sms me telling me 2 endure ^^Not 2 4get my frds in my blog, who wish me all the best 2. kw, Jbear, yyann, nise etc...Hmm so after tat, i guess i went home 2 slp a while, then enjoy kof @ sp then when study again if i'm not wrong. Hmm tat's all 4 the nite i guess..

bubbles of sadness.

*2:45 PM .

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Memories for 13th May 2007 (Sun) :
Ok tis day i meet Jackson at sp at ard 12.30pm as i need his help 2 teach me Maths. Had lunch wif him at kfc n chat awhile b4 we start.. Well couldn't turn to anybody 2 help me wif my qns n suddenly thought of tis maths experts in jc times ^^. But long time he practice le, need refreshing. He's really a gd teacher.. So patient wif me as i'm not gd in maths, always B standard.. He doesn't shortcuts which i dunno, but he took the trouble 2 show me step by step.

After tat Ser came to find us as she just woke up.Hmm quite impressed as she talks like profession person to my frd..Perhaps work experience helpes her developed just interpersonal skills tat she's able 2 talk 2 ppl n socialise..After tat, my frd left n we went 2 arcade 2gether. played some games there like, touch screen, shooting game n she watched me play kof against awie.

Hmm after tat, awie didn't challenge back so i let Ser try the game.. Haha watching her play was like the time when i started the game many yrs back..It was so cute..but of cuz not as violence as most guys did n tat can trembles the whole machines.. Tat's scary.. n horrible.. Nxt we had dinner at food court n had a chat b4 sending her take mrt hm..

bubbles of sadness.

*5:10 PM .

Memories for 11th & 12th May 2007 (Fri & Sat) :
Hmm not sure wat i do actually.. Hmm reason y i linked tis 2 day 2gether is becuz i'm not sure which date i went overnite lan wif ding n nel? Up of cuz in btw got kof, study n stuffs.. Anyway its like almost the same routine..-.-!

bubbles of sadness.

*5:08 PM .

Memories for 10th May 2007 (Thurs) :
Zzz 2nd paper straight since ytd.. Exhausted..Again rush 2 expo n the paper was statistics 1... Time 10am - 12pm.. Wa tis paper was scary.. I had high chance of passing, but not very ideal..Well i'm really 2 exhausted n the paper was a stunner.. hope i won't fail.. So after tat, i'm not sure wat i do after exams. Shld be taking a break as nxt paper i have more time 2 prepare. Not sure i kof, slp or study.. or done all 3.

bubbles of sadness.

*5:03 PM .

Memories for 9th May 2007 (Wed) :
Finally the day has arrived.. The time where my destiny is gg 2 be fixed by today's performance..Supposed 2 wake up at 7am, but i overslp n wake up at 8am +. Then i had to rush an hr's + ride on train to expo cuz my exams venue is located there.. so far Zzz..10am paper.. to 1pm.. well i can say tat my performance is not bad,confident of passing.. However, 4 econs such subject, its hard to say..cuz its uncertain as its all abt interpretation n analysis on graphs..

I actually finished the paper @ 12pm + n cuz its my 1st paper, so i ask the invigilator 2 help in filling up some particulars.. ENd up i haven't check my paper was taken away n i can go off even b4 the exam time ends -.-! Anyway got more ppl left earlier than me after completing the paper..Ok so go hm rest a short while, b4 study till late nite again.. If i recall correctly, i went out study n break at kof.. Then go hm study till late nite...

Not to 4get a very memorable incident.. Well Ser actually come to find me after work 4 dinner. She actually bought some herbal tea 4 me, knowing tat i had been staying up late at nite 2 study.. Got quite heaty.. Was very touched as i felt the care n concern from Ser..

bubbles of sadness.

*4:55 PM .

Memories for 8th May 2007 (Tues) :
Hmm tis day quite plain if i rmb correctly.. Study, play kof, then study at hm till 4am b4 i go 2 bed. because nxt day is the very 1st paper of my exams. Yes Economics.. Heart is filled wif nervousness n worrys...Hope i can pass n cross 2 yr 2..

bubbles of sadness.

*4:53 PM .

Memories for 7th May 2007 (Mon) :
Morning study, nv use com.. Afternoon study, slp n play 3 bear song 4 my niece 2 listen.Dama0 sent it 2 me de. Very cute but its in korean version.Hmm readers rmb the 3 bear song from full hse?but the song was short n i played a few rds n she keep crying 4 more.haha. Then i prepare 2 go 2 sch...Well meet Stuart & his gf 2 ask him some stats qn...End up find out tat lots of notes i actually miss out.. Zzz nv help me take notes de..oso my own fault 4 missing classes..

After tat, went 2 library 2 use com.. Well visited nise's blog n hmm she actually went 2 the Phantom of the Opera thing.. Hmm happy 4 her n her bf.. Well at least she managed 2 catch my favourite musical pieces afterall.. Wat a pity i actually didn't catch it.. Anyway happy tat she appreciates the musical n oso likes it 2.. Wonder if she managed 2 bought the highlights of it in cds.. If dun hav, i can always send it 2 her..or provide links..

Ok then at nite, i watched spiderman 3 wif nel, Ding, Kw n Jbear.. It was a great movie indeed. Much better than spiderman 2.. However sad tat the goblin his best frd die.Hmm the review of spiderman 3 can go jbear's blog 2 see^^. i love the romance part too.. N the 2 on 2 fight =) added some humour inside the movie. Nice + touching scenes..Hmm after movie, guess tat's all..

bubbles of sadness.

*4:41 PM .

Memories for 6th May 2007 (Sun) :
Morning didn't use com, go out study n meet my ex at 12.30pm? Well ppl only rmb the things promised 2 them.So even though i had exams, still since promised have 2 turn up lo.. Zzz asked me 2 company her 2 shop 4 baby clothes 4 her frd's 1 mth baby.. Erhmm i dun think its appropriate lo..Wonder wat ppl'll protray Zzz.. Thus went there unwilling n try 2 look ard by myself though she asked me 2 walk wif her..

After tat, went 2 mac again 2 chat? Guess i really had ntg much 2 say.. Well Sometimes when a person took great pains 2 get up, n finally wake up from his senses, things were really different le.. Wat past has already been past.. Lots of unhappiness has already happened..Wat i can say is, i'll just put them all inside my memories..However, will still regard my ex as a frd... Though i noe the same old thing tat she's trying 2 hint me,the soft mtds..It doesn't work on me anymore..

Once bitten twice shy.. I dun wish history 2 happen again n nitemares starts.. After great pains, i finally moved on n the feelings is no longer there anymore.. ard 3.30pm, she left n i carry on study.. Dinner time, Jx meet me n we eat while chatting. Then company him buy things n walk ard at sp b4 i went back study again til nel n ding come.They pulled me 2 lan shop -.-! n we played till 2am b4 we go back hm.. I'm rusty in audition le..

bubbles of sadness.

*4:31 PM .

Memories for 5th May 2007 (Sat) :
Bad morning. Big quarrel at home wif a stupid person.. Mum cried & lots of shitty stuffs actually happened.. Lots of emotional things going on.. End up i slp like whole day cuz i got no mood 2 do anything.. Till late in the afternoon, then i only managed 2 wake up n go out study.. Can't rmb i got play kof or not.. If hav will go back study at mac.. On tis date, Dama0 sent some1 precious 2 Italy, who is gg away 4 a yr.. Hope everything's fine n time'll flies.. Overall Hell day...

bubbles of sadness.

*4:27 PM .

Moments for 4th May 2007 (Fri) :
Haha finally i'm back my dear readers.. Very sry 4 disappearing so long.. Well of cuz i have been hav stress lately over my exam period.. Besides tat stg happened at hm which i couldn't access 2 my hse com 4 a very long period of time.. Need me 2 refresh? Yea who else but my bro at hm, tat Aries guy o.O. really can't stand aries ppl.. Ok will try 2 blog back wards.. Thus sry readers have 2 read my blog at chunks n chunks of words..

Of cuz lots of things have happened n i'll share wif my readers n update my life ^^. Well However some complains tat my blog is long, they'll be relieve cuz i couldn't rmb many things in details, thus every individual days, i'll just write the specific stuffs tat happened there.. Ok here it goes.. However, sry 2 say, tis is the day which i can't rmb wat actually happened..So long already.. Thus i shall start on the nxt blog instead..

Tis post i shall name it as a welcome post which i have came back after disappearing 4 very long time.

bubbles of sadness.

*4:21 PM .

Friday, May 04, 2007

Memories for 3rd May 2007 (Thurs) :
Hmm a gd start 4 me? y? Let me sharre wif u all ba. Well tis morning though i woke up late as usual, I use e com, but surprising its not very long. Cuz i'm updating my blog, n kw asked me to play audition wif him, so i only play a while.. After tat i prepare to go out n study.. Though in the afternoon, progress is really very slow, cuz the environment is really too noisy n i'm now onto intensive reading mode 4 my IBM...

To add on to tat, i'm slply too tat i actually dozed off again at mac -.-! After tat, i almost got a headache, y? cuz got a bunch of small, ignorant kids tat act like ah bengs, went to sit on a table infront of me.. Talking loudly wif lots of vulgarities,cursing n swearing.. N got 1 even small size guy, played the hp song, techno some more loudly like nobody's business. Treating as if its their shop like tat o.O!.The song is drilling my head -.-!

Finally they left, n Xiang Rong came. I asked him to teach me Stats but too bad he 4get most of the stuffs.. No Choice have to ask him Maths nxt time.. Anyway appreciate his help though.. Hmm Shit le, couldn't find anybody to help me wif my qns le -.-! So after tat, went to have dinner wif him b4 having break playing kof.. Panda was there too.. but starting was playing wif nel, xiang rong n duck..

Not bad, didn't really spend a lot.. But Duck is getting more n more coward in the game.. Well after playing, me, Xiang Rogn n panda went to mac to chat a while abt kof.. Panda sharing wif us his experience in kof..He can consider my senior in tat game le, cuz i only started learing kof in 96/97 haha.96 can practice breakfall.. 97 practice basic combo, n my peak period is 98 n 99.. After tat 2000 - 2001 i play 4 leisure cuz in jc, busy life..hence 2002 i'm back, but weaker..

Tat's my history in tat game... Well after they left, i suddenly got the mode to study, n progession was picking up pace.. Not bad.. THen dama0 called me n we had a chat. Enjoyable nite. Call it a day..

bubbles of sadness.

*11:03 AM .

Thursday, May 03, 2007

Memories for 30th April 2007, 1st & 2nd May 2007 :
30th April 2007 :
Another last day of a mth.. Now then i blog.. Getting slacker n slacker.. Well i woke up late, use com n went out studying.. Then Panda called me n ask me play kof wif him.. Well i say see 1st.. Thus i complete my maths revision finally, left wif qns which i dunno how to solve.. Touching my IBM which needs intensive readings.. N of cuz progress is super slow.. Well study until i can't take it, then went to find nel n ding..

If i'm not wrong, we had early dinner at kfc, cuz wil hungry, so 5 of us (nel, ding, wil, duck n me) went to eat..After tat went back to arcade play til panda come.. Lol yeah starting was winning of cuz.. then panda as usual becum noisy, complaining i lucky.. Then after tat, we both play until sick, but i start to lose.. I was actually really quite sick of the game le.. Some more i'm not feeling well as i felt sick.. So finally, i lose till i can't take it, gif up..

Leave duck n Awie to challenge panda.. i play photohunt wif the rest instead.. Well after tat, company panda as he didn't had dinner yet.. Then they left while i resume my study b4 going hm...

1st May 2007 :
Its public holiday, last day 4 me to fully enjoy, b4 going to study gear.. Well today use com till afternoon, meet friends 4 kof session.. Lots of them.. Got nel, kw, duck, awie, jbear. The coins pile up, n if lose have to wait.. Hehe i got a 10win n kw starts to complain n its time 4 us to go lan le ^^ We reached there n begin our team battle. But challenging ourselves again.. Starting my performance was top n win him haha but later part too cold -.-!

My fingers were too cold n stiff tat i couldn't concentrate on chancing n fm.. The score end up 15- 10. Besides tat, stg unpleasant happened.. Well its abt C. Happens to join me, starting was alrite, got say hi to each other, but we were like drifting further apart.. I'm kind enough to offer C to join our team cuz me n kw were real life friends. So ask C to team together. but wat i received was ignorant n no reply. its ok..

Suddenly got a guy came. It was C's friend.. a pro.. Then C starts to chat wif him n still completely ignore me.. Yes C's skill starts to go back to usual form.. Chaining n stuffs.. PLus C's friend we were thrashed.. Seems like we become stranger. Fine i'm not a stupid fool, automatically withdraw myself if tat's the case.. Saw my online friend online, galspirit. So i asked her over to team wif us instead. She's very pro than me n kw.. lvl 19.

We won all the matches.. cuz our sync perf was frequent n galspirit boosted our morale up. Well then we formed a team after several matches n C just left wifout a word.. Ok mad? i dunno anyway C's friend just say gtg n all left.. wat an unpleasant nite, if becuz of tis issue tat friendship is over, i got ntg to say. C start it 1st not me. I did my part n cherish le.. there's ntg much i can do further.. it takes 2 hand to clap, not 1. Though i'm upset, but ntg can be done.

Nxt we went 4 dinner b4 resumin a while, but cuz ding suddenly came alone to find me.. So no choice kw go off 1st, i company him so tat he dun come wasted trip.. even watched a wedding party cuz i was sian already.. lol hmm i guess me n galspirit sure can pass de. got 3 tries n each try getting easier.. Some more she more pro than me lol. But i musn't rely too much oso. After tat, i company ding go back sp mac, he eat n talk awhile b4 bidding farewell..

2nd may 2005 :
OK time to start studying hard le.. Well today online a while, play 1 - 3 rds of audi n i log off the com le. prepare n go out to study.. But progress was slow as usual.. nevertheless got study.. n doze off at the same time. No kof 2day too, cuz at nite meet dama0 to watch The Hills have eyes 2. its at plaza sing. i reached there ard 5pm + n the queue was already long. Too almost half an hr to get the tickets.

Planned to have kfc 4 dinner, so i went there to chop seats b4 she come. After tat i went to buy food 1st, as the queue was long too.. finally ard 7pm i got the food.. The show is 7.10pm no choice, eat till 7.30pm we enter the cinema.. The show started a little.. haha went Its not really tat scary but some parts ppl laugh too.. -.-! However me n dama0 jumped a few times cuz some scenes were sudden n shocking. Lol both enjoyed ourselves..

After everything, went to TCC to have a drink. well went there only twice, but dunno y dun have the drink i drank b4, so i dun order.. Hmm dama0 insisted pay 4 her share.. cuz she said she's working n i'm not, so the pushing here n there was like funny. N it was me who ask her out 4 the movie, end up its like both of us asking each other out. Ok so i promised when i work, it'll b my treat n she dun refuse =) Had a chat there b4 going hm..

Anyway wish her all the best n on train, she send me some of her audi songs n oso the full hse "s bear songs" in korean version LOL. funny. After tat, went back sem study a while more i call it a day ^^. Hills have eyes 2 is nice, n ending part shows continuation.. However, Hostel is still the gorgeous r21 movie i watched so far...

bubbles of sadness.

*12:14 PM .

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